My Bare Bones ♥

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2012-02-02T22:40:00.001-06:00

Wash Off Your Face & Dance.

2012-02-02T22:03:00.002-06:00

Has anyone done Bloglovin' before? I am thinking about trying it tonight.

Church was great as always, and I'm so happy. So much joy inside of this body. 3 days left and the devil is fighting me. Temptation literally at every corner.

He won't win.

I have God on my side, and He always comes up on top. I'm sitting at the lab trying to do my math in my head. Not working. I think I like the updated look of my bloggy a lot. It looks really neat and fun. I did like the black classic look but it never hurts to try something new. :) Thursday night and I'm really excited. Tomorrow I start my water fast. I haven't thought of any lonely aspects of my life the last three weeks and I'm really happy about that because I was consumed by that. It was so so overwhelming. Y'know? Now, I think that God is showing me there's way more to life than myself. I feel so grateful that He is my teacher. I am selfish, but my God [and yours] is selfless. I just have such a burden for my friends who don't know the Lord, or have been mislead.

♥

Oh man, but honestly I missed meat. My mom is fasting with me and she actually loves this lifestyle and wants to keep it up. She is a spry chicken! Goodness. I hope you have a blessed weekend.

♥,

Rachel

I Love You & That's What I'm Getting Myself Into.

2012-01-31T22:28:00.002-06:00

Heeeeey!

Amidst all the spiritual stuff, today I went to a thrift store and found a wonderful, polk-dotted gem of a shirt! So. Excited!! It's loose on me, and I really like how it feels. It kind of looks like this:

That's my blouse except it doesn't have soft pleats or a Peter Pan collar [although, I am in the process of diying one.] I love it! I never find anything in thrift stores, because I am picky and I'm big, etc. This was amazing!! And amazingly cheap! 3.25? I saw a flowy navy polka-dotted shirt in Avenue and it was 40 bucks? I seriously can't afford clothes right off the rack. It's just too expensive...for me anyway. I see bloggers thrifting but then they buy designed stuff. Insanely expensive. I know that it's well made, but can't there be a middle ground? Can there be well made product that is affordable? Backing up my iTouch right now in Hastings, and it said 'approx an hour' and they close in 40 minutes. Ugh!

Today was a good day. We've been having prayer service every night at church for an hour and I've been going to every one. It just uplifts me to see people making that sacrifice. It's really heart breakingly beautiful. I know I belong here. I was questioning it earlier in 2011 if I was supposed to be in San Angelo. I know it know it now. :) & that makes me happy. I'm still working on this template! I guess while my iTouch reboots itself I can choose one.

♥ you more.

Rachel

You Are Treasured & His.

2012-01-30T14:55:00.000-06:00

Hey guys, hey!

I can't believe it, but this is the last week of the fast. Each service has been really intense and I think we're about to blow the lid off the joint. My pastor is going to go str8 water the last three days and I am seriously thinking of doing that. I pray that Jesus reveals himself to me. When my mom was not in church, or right before it, she got into a serious car accident and was in bed for three or so weeks. She read the Bible a lot and prayed, too. She said that the Lord visited her in her room every night. I want that so bad. I know if I keep seeking Him, it will come but I just want to see His face. I get blurry-eyed just thinking about His magnificence in my room and how He is with me everyday in every way. I just want Jesus to visit me, too. I also want to know my purpose. I've been prophesied on more than once and I can't wait for that to come to pass. All I do is play bass at church. I know that all throughout this whole fasting that I want to be more in tune with God. I've been reading all the classic Bible stories and catching up on Jesus' life while fasting, and it touched my heart. Moses saw the Lord in a burning bush, and his rod became a snake! A. Snake. Crayzee! By reading the Old Testament, I've caught little things that my Sunday School teachers skipped over. I'm reading the Bible through adult eyes and let me tell you...woah! I'm going to keep you lovely people up to date on what's going on, and everything. I feel like this fast was just the thing for me. Also, I've been discovering a lot of new Christian music. I really really like my Christian music to be well written. This band that this rad lady told me about:

Gungor.

Seriously go check them out. Believer or not. They are really great. Musically and spiritually. Also, this morning/afternoon I listened to this guy:

Christian. Song! Goldfrapp totes took his rhythm for her song. I was trying to see if "Hallelujah" by Leonard Cohen was Christian, but it's ultimately not. Lot of suggestions to Christianity, but no dice. Yesterday, I talked with my friend in Georgia and he said that superheroes like Capt. America and Batman were more realistic than Jesus. People could relate to them more than the Bible or some God. Background info: he's a Baptist because his family is and he's not going to church anymore if at all. I told him that Jesus died for us. You can't get any realistic than that and also Capt. America is a thought someone made up. He's not even real and you can pray to the Lord and find peace and joy and happiness. He just really disappointed me with that statement. I'm praying that he wakes up and really gets a hold of the Lord. Superheroes < God. Every. Time! He didn't really get it, though. It's scary how something can become an idol. We all have to be careful. This week is just starting and this morning I fought against my body. I got up and prayed. It was a small prayer, but tomorrow it will be bigger. I my spirit to grow and mature in God. I just want to see a change in myself. :) Until the next time!

"They could not keep You in their walls, we cannot keep You in ours either. For You are so much greater."

♥,

Rachel!

PS: Working on that background picture. ;D

Comms would be appreciated.

2012-01-25T23:55:00.002-06:00

Quickie.

Over 4000 pageviews! <33

:3 Love you guys!
A backgrond theme? Yay or nay?

Lost, Lost, & Found.

2012-01-24T23:12:00.001-06:00

You found me.

I am so blessed beyond compare.

I think I am getting stronger and I can't wait to hear His voice. So, this week is going really well, and I'm so happy to be where I'm at.

Sometimes, do you feel like dropping everything and falling? It's a heady feeling. Very different. Anyway, I pray everyone is having a radical week.

There is so much music in the world. I'm missing Copeland. I've been making Christian CDs and really committing myself to listening.

Really listening to the lyrics and what they are saying.

I seriously miss Copeland, but you know what? I want to give it to God. Give my frustrations, my doubts, and confusion to Him. He takes care of me. All of this time.

I was reading Mägi's blog. She is so inspirational! I hope she is glancing at this, because I think that she is more influential than she realizes.

My last.fm is blowing up. No idea why! I can't even check it. Fail.

♥,

Rachel!

Like the veil has lifted.

2012-01-17T14:22:00.001-06:00

Hello, everyone.

I'm not quite sure if this counts as entertainment, but I just wanted to share how my fast is going with everyone! It's amaaaazing! I feel so good in my spirit, and I know God has so much more for me! HXC vegan! What! Yes, and I have blessing already! So, I lost my wallet with all of my cards [debit, school] in it. On Saturday. I was devastated!! So, we started fasting on Sunday and I just went head on. I really want to be dedicated to this and hear from God. I really want to and just receive all that he has for me. I also cut out texting, Facebook, and pleasure reading just because I don't want hindrance. By the way, I found my wallet all in tact!!! I am so so thankful! Really & truly. I'll never stop praying and believing. It's going to happen for my church. Revival. I know it will for myself as well. I'm so excited and pumped!

It's approaching.

♥,

Rachel

Why Is It So Mushy?

2012-01-09T17:11:00.002-06:00

It might snow, and I'm dreading it.

Hello everyone! It's been a long time!

So, I've been creeping on some very beautiful fashion/DIY/whatevs blogs and I must say I have some blog envy. I wanted to get 2012 started with a bang, and do some sewing today. Hopefully I'm not too too loud and wake everyone up. I'll try to post blurry Blackberry pics up, but no promises.

;)

Ok, a promise.

So, what's going on in my life? School is starting soon. In roughly a week. The cord to Molly is broken and down for the count. So, I need to do some shopping. Soonskis. Today I applied for unemployment. I didn't know you could get a debit card. That's legit. USA gov't; stepping up.

So, I've been a little more than obsessed with this DuPree-Bemis' flickr:

take a peek at this.

I don't want to post anything on here because I'm pretty sure the Internet police will come and take me away. Her photos/drawings/ootd's are amazingly pretty and I don't know what else to say. Go take a look for yourself. So. Talented! So, this is my first post of 2012. I want this year to be different. I don't have any resolutions or plans besides just the norm school stuff, but I want to see a change in me.

How about you?

My church is going on a 21 day Daniel fast aka the strictest vegan diet in Texas. Bring. It. On. We're at AFI level. Like, nothing is slipping by; we even are asked to not eat white rice. I'll have to get used to brown rice. Q____Q Will I have the guts? Also, no technology that is a necessity. [fb/movies/tv/computers/non-Christian music/etc] Cutting that from our lives and focusing on God. Constantly in prayer and reading the Bible. Really focusing on the Lord and forcing our fleshly selves to die.

fleshly. weird word.

I am excited annnd nervous as usual to do something I've never attempted before. It was always when our church fasted it was an all or nothing thing. Never inbetween, so to eat partial will be hard. Hopefully I can shake some weight, too. That's not the main focus, but who's to say it won't happen? ;)

I've been in the library way too long. Hehe. I've been having this weird obsession to dye my hair. I couldn't even tell you why. I just do. Like, blue or something. Is this the rebellion stage of life everyone's been talking about? Meh; probs not. Also! For the New Years, I went to Lubbock, Texas! I also went to the Buddy Holly museum!! It was amazing; I stayed with my friend J and it was so awesome hanging with her. I totally needed to get out of SA. For sure. My family came up to spend Christmas with me. So sweet. :)

Everyone is wanting snow here. Ugh, Team Anti-Snow. SA people can't drive in snow or rain...or any weather that's not sunshine.

No snow.

How is your holidays going & your new year?

I have some more to add to my bucket list.

11. to wear red lipstick

12. write/perform a song for a dozen people

13. to have several different hairstyles

14. to grow in God

15. deep sea dive

16. to walk the streets of New York

17. be in a big musical

♥ + everything else,

Rachel!

PS: Does anyone know where to get some skelly tights? I need some badly. Please & thank you.

Had some Urkels, like 'em alot!

2011-12-28T12:05:00.001-06:00

Oi.

I'm in early-era AFI mood. This is the last week in 2011. It passed by so fast. So fast. I don't do resolutions, or promises to better myself. I just brace for what lies ahead. So, I finally got to watch Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind:

That movie was questionable. I don't know what to think about it. Give me a few and I'll get back to you. Other than that, last night, I was having a pity party for myself and it was really sad. Not sad like fake pity for myself, but just a deep sadness coming for deep down. I also talked to my coach the day before yesterday about school and work and how it's stressful. I've always envied the rich and well off. They never work or actually struggle. Of course, there's the rotten personality and terrible etiquette.

Man.

I guess I have too much integrity to trade it all in. I would hate to be rich and lonely. Anyway, it was so sudden. I am prone to random bouts of deep thinking.

I'm an emotional monster. Hahaha, emotions just spilling all over the place! Crazee. My mom might move up here for work. I am glad she is re-locating but sad because then...I wouldn't have privacy. I feel like a jerk for thinking that, because she needs a job. Needs money, and needs out weigh the wants. I think it will be good for her to not be in B-Co. It drags you down. The only people who have real jobs are the hospitals and the chemical plants, and even those jobs are unsteady. I don't know how many people I've spoken with who don't know if they'll have their jobs.

Here's to the new year.

I wanted to make a list of things I've always wanted to do and put it on here. Let's see.

1. fly in a hot air balloon

2. meet johnny depp and have a conversation with him

3. dye my hair

4. be in a film

5. see the yeah yeah yeahs live/meet them

6. almost get a tattoo

7. help someone in dire need

8. write lots of stories

9. have a guy love me for me

10. have long hair

I think that's just some of the main ones. I have so much going through my brain, it's ridiculous. I know you do too.

I found Sherri Dupree's flickr. She is awesome. I love her. I love Eisley. It took me almost two hours to finish this post. I honestly am looking forward the new year and what it holds. I still feel old and have the urge to listen to "Burn Your Life Down" but I'm gonna fight it off!

Who thought about "Seven Nation Army"?

So did. :)

If I don't write here before the new year I hope you all have a wonderful holiday filled with cheer & happiness!! You received everything that you wanted and that you make someone else happy, too. :)

all over it.

<3,

Rachel!

Boogie & Bogey Down.

2011-12-27T03:20:00.000-06:00

I'll be back soon.

I promise. The holidays are going so fast. My family is here for almost two weeks and they leave very very soon.

:( I like living alone, but then again...it was so nice to have them in the house.

To fill it with laughter and old jokes. We danced, and laughed, and really just missed each other. I know I did. No lie. My fb friend is getting a memorial tat, and I honestly think that's very noble/brave of her. It is. If I have ever gotten a tat, it would be music related. Too far into to back out now.

My faith in love is still devout.

A couple of more days and it's the new year. I feel indifferent. Hmm.
I watched Gigli. It's as bad (if not worse) than what every critic says.
They lip sync the words. Why??

Anyways, Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you lovely people! I hope you roundhouse kick the new year. ;D

<3,
Rachel!

That Point.

2011-12-13T14:21:00.002-06:00

I don't know what I'm doing.

Doesn't everyone get to this point? I feel like I'm running in circles.
I just want to move forward. I'm burnt out, and run out. Writing feels good. Something that I'm okay at. My job sucks. I've never hated a job so much in my entire life. Call centers.

no.

I want to scream. It's too loud at home, and awk at the library. So, I'm going to sit and listen to Manchester Orchestra and write.

And write.

I am sorry that it's been so long. I wanted to write every couple of days, and I haven't.

So, the semester is over and in Stats class, I failed. So mad. I actually put forth effort in this class and she is going to fail me? I passed her other class, and didn't pass Stat. No sense. Nonsense. She is nonsensical. I looked at my grades today and I emailed her asking what I could do for a passing grade.

I don't know if that will work.

I don't know if she will read it in time since she never checks her email, but I want to try.

I'm trying.

Plus, she never came to class, and canceled class for no reason. No one honestly knew what they were doing. She didn't teach us, rather just let us go at random times or just never showed up.>=(

Don't fail me when you failed yourself.

JMCSPOASADONMASOIRIJUCALKSDAPWOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So mad.

I just put 's' instead of 'd'.

Mas mad.

So much so. It's like...I want my school life to go well at least.

My work life sucks.

My spiritual life needs some repair.

Come on school; get it together.

Here's to this week and not sucking. Last night at work was terrible. I hate ungrateful people, people who put themselves in that situation and blame everything except what caused it.

15, 16K in debt and you think since I can't give you a low apr it's my fault. No sir, no ma'am. How about not maxing out your credit card?

I'm sorry this is such a poopy post. I know it's far from the norm. On a much more lighter, happier note my family is coming to ME for Christmas!!! YAAAAY! It's going to be so fun with them in the a-p-t. :D My sister wants to decorate my house. No.

Not happening, but they want to see meeeeeeee. Excited to be with them for the holidays. Hey-oh.

Time for work and putting on a brave face.

♥,

Rachel

The Weakends. My weak end.

2011-11-20T21:47:00.001-06:00

Hello, hello.

I am in a very thoughtful mood tonight. So, 2011 went by so fast. I feel like we just started January.

I've been in SA almost a year now. I remember being so excited to leave home, and now I can't wait to visit and I can't wait to see the bridge before going into town. Wow, and so many things have happened.

God.

He plays such a huge role in everything. In my life, in your life. Just...in all things.

I fell like I haven't given enough time to Him at all; my pastor preaches about spending time with him like a spouse or a bestie and I just need to do IT.

Today went by fast and Tuesday I am leaving for home. I'm so so excited because I can't wait to see my family. See my friends and just relax at home.

Thanksgiving is over. That's how long it's taking me to make this entry. I think it's the anxiousness.

Nervousness. I feel as if this entry will be the end and the start of something very...different.

Anyway, I feel as if my prayer life has dwindled. When I first came to SA I was so into winning people to church and bringing people on my floor to my new church. I have settled in. Now, my friend who is moving here too next semester is going to visit my church again. :) He really really liked it, which makes me really happy.

I need to work on my relationship, because Jesus hasn't changed. He still meets my needs and provides for me every single time. I think that's where I want to hide in a hole or something because He sure doesn't my lack of worship. Of course there are people all over the world lifting up prayers and praise to Him, but He is a jealous God.

....I need to work on it.

So, I'm back home and I got here in 6 hours instead of 7? I was very proud of that because I totally stopped twice.

Gas station restrooms will remain sketchy. It was 7:45 at night and I was still on my guard. It's funny, because everyone else is too. So, it's kind of funny.

In a way.

So, it's finally winter and I couldn't be happier to wear more clothes! I might get weave too which is exciting! My friend from work can do it, and all I do is buy the hair. I thought, "Why not? Life is too short!" :) She was like, "Maybe you'll get the guys. You never know...or that guy."

^////^ That wouldn't be a bad thing.

I think as I get older, I get better at dressing. I look at fat fashion blogs allll the time, so it must be rubbing off on me. Positively. Here's to this week!

Dreamlist soon. Soon? Yeah, soon.

♥ all of you and you,

Rachel!

Oh My, These Days...

2011-11-09T22:24:00.004-06:00

So, went to see Manchester Orchestra on Saturday.

What?

WHAT!? I deeeeeed! It was amazing.

Crazy.

Beautiful.

Brilliant.

Hobos every which way.

Anyway, I left Sat morning, and got to my sister's apt around 11:30ish. I tell you what! Driving 75mph in the hill country. Win. I settled in and hung out with my sister for a while. Actually, we were out in her neighborhood and she saw someone get hit by a car. Devastating. Not only was it on the day of my concert, but it just...sucked. I don't know. And so we pulled over and everyone within a 5-10 mile radius was stopping, calling 911, etc. I had to put my sister's car in park because she was frozen in shock. We actually went to another side of town to eat and everything. She lost her appetite. :( After that, she dropped me off at the show. I got there way early and the line was just barely starting. Yay! :)

The sign by the sidewalk. I waited about an hour and a half just in line, and then, they finally let us in! We were marched in like criminals, though. Very odd, like, tickets in one hand and our other hand visible so we have our bracelets checked. All bags checked of course. Got in, and okay. I always try to get as close as possible. Just because I blog and I love being so close to the stage and almost touching the band or whoever is playing. It makes me happy, but what sucks is I was almost second row but I was right behind this very tall guy who looked so derpy. Wasn't even there for Manchester Orchestra! Was like, trying to get all of his friends up to the front, too. UGH. That happened. He moved right before MO came on. Heck to the yes. In the venue we waited for another hour and a half? I think there was something going wrong, because everyone who was helping seemed in a rush and were setting up/tearing down extra fast. I promised myself I would post this...post so I might break up my thoughts. Sorry ahead of time.

So, the bands that played:

Little Hurricane

The Dear Hunter

White Denim

So, Lil' Hurrikane. Jk, they were like The White Stripes if they went extra alt-rock. Just a girl on drums and a guy who can't sing on guitar/'keys. Their equipment broke in the middle of the set and they had to stop and fix it. =/ Kind of sucked, but they took it in stride. I guess it has happened...before? No, no, no! Jokeskis. Pictures!!!

They were okay, but the guy's voice really threw me off. What was weird is that I was in Pac-Sun yesterday and their song was on their store radio!! :O Getting popular!

So, The Dear And Hunter; Casey from another band formed this one and they were okay. I could see why they opened for MO. They were really similar in styles, but I wasn't really into it. I guess I was just waiting for MO and tolerating them. I am ridiculous, but yeah! Pictures/videos!

So, my videos have to be uploaded separately and I guess I'll put it on a different post. I've been holding this on off too long. I'm sorry, fateful viewers! :( Anyways, so Dear & The Hunter was legit. Not my style, but that's okay. The next band...made me mad. So MAD! White Denim is from Austin and is a....[brace yourselves]....a jazz fusion band?! Why even are they included on a tour with MO?! No. SENSE! The whollllle crowd was just standing there waiting while they just went to town on improvisation and all of this unnecessary mess! Their set seemed extra long! To pass the time, I took some pictures:

There's that. They finally left & then it was time...

What I waited for so long. Manchester.

It's so awesome seeing a band you love live. It's just takes you to that other level of amazement. Seeing them in real life, being so close to them and singing the words to every song just gets me. Another thing is people who are big fans or even more hxc about than me. People who travel hours to see a concert because you know they'll be around your hometown. Those people. Fans. I have respect for them, y'know? I have the setlist! <3's on my favorites and links so you can listen to them, too. :)

Deer

Pride ♥

April Fool ♥

100 Dollars ♥

My Friend Marcus

Leaky Breaks

Pensacola ♥

I've Got Friends ♥

Shake It Out ♥

I Can barely Breathe ♥

Simple Math ♥

Colly Strings

Only One ♥

Encore!

Virgin ♥

Everything To Nothing ♥

The River ♥

So good. Just watched the new music video for them...Virgin. What are you trying to say, MO? Hmmm! America is in the pits? Maybs. Their set not looks short. Not enough songs; two encores. :D

Pictures! Pictures! Pictures!

I really love them. Their music is so...moving. As I grow older and my music tastes change, I get it. I realize that music is not just created in one form. There are so many forms and ways to truly express how you feel. I think that music breaks all barriers. I just love it. This week is going okay, and I think I'll be okay with everything. I'm getting to know him better. We joke all the time; I don't self conscious. I feel like me. Which is always a good thing. X3 Um, I'm still looking for a job. I'm horrible at my current one. I know God will help me with that; like always. Like He always does with everything else.

Ciao for now.

♥,

Rachel

I Can't Seem To Fix These Leaky Breaks.

2011-10-22T15:32:00.002-05:00

We built this house with our hands & our blood.

I'm seeing them tonight! <3

What, What, What, Why?

2011-10-14T21:28:00.003-05:00

So, this week has been...a whirlwind.

My job. So, I've been doing really bad with my job and getting write-ups and what have you. I don't know what to do. I've been trying my BEST and I STILL CAN NOT MEET QUOTA! I really want to just go to the top of the cliff and scream my lungs out until I can't. So frustrating! I feel like I really don't have a choice in this because if I quit, I won't make it. No money coming in. If I get demoted, I will hate that job, and I love my co-workers. That's one of the main reasons I've stayed this long. There is a 77% turn over for this job and I can see why. What I do specifically is talk to customers who want to close out their account and let them know the benefits of staying with us. There are steps you go through to do that and you have to have a certain way of talking. Let's just say you have to be precise or else the people calling in will run you over. Just tonight run me over the edge. This lady kept just pushing.

Pushing...

I need a new job; I feel like a chicken because I'm one of the last people from my training class who have made it through. Four of us, I think. One of the girls who I talk to hates it. She can't stand it. Anyways, so it's pretty rough at times. There are a lot of cool customers you get to talk to [like the Moneyball guy!], but when you get angry customers back to back..not okay. Can't handle rage when I have nothing to do with you maxing your credit card to the limit and the interest rate on the card is high. Your fault. I've never worked at a job for a couple of months and already loathe talking to people! What?!

So, I want to add him to Facebook tonight. Kind of nervous but it's no big deal. [Yes it is! Ohgoshohgosh.]

I guess. :) I'm going to make this weekend better. The Lord is going to make it better for me because He holds the world in His hands. I'm going to trust Him just like I trusted Him with my finances. I'll give it to Him.

Santigold. FYI, they are playing Death Cab on the radio. "Cath!" What is everyone doing for Halloween? Since it falls on a Monday [lameskis!], I have to work. I may just skipskis and torture someone. Is anyone dressing up and causing trouble? My church is having a festival. Tres cute. I was thinking about some costume ideas:

Just a few ideas.

I hope you guise have a rockin' Halloween!

♥ + batwings,
Rachel!

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2011-09-29T22:56:00.003-05:00

I don't know what to title this.

It has been a rough day at work.

I don't even...I don't even know what to think.

I work in a call center. I was never the persuasive type.

I haven't been where I'm supposed to be for a while now.

I would like to call someone but I feel like I'm interrupting something/someone.

Anything.

The boy I like works with me; if I'm asked to leave how do I tell him?

Go See It!

2011-09-25T14:13:00.000-05:00

A Wave Collapsing You & Rushing You.

2011-09-25T12:08:00.002-05:00

Ohh, hey friends.

I'm glad you're reading this.

This weekend flew by as always and I had to work...as always. I always make it out in the end.

With God's help.

I need to get something off my chest.

So, Friday, after work I went straight home. I didn't have any plans or much to do except for studying which is supposedly everyday. V_V Anyway, I was thinking about the guy I like and how alone I was. Call it a moment of weakness or a moment of vulnerability but a wave a sadness/depression hit all at once. I'm 22 and I've never had a boyfriend, a guy to kiss me, a date, or anything of the sorts? I can't help but think is there something wrong with me? I could blame it on where I lived, but my friends have boyfriends and guys who like them. I felt utterly helpless. It was such a random moment too. It came out of left field. I know I've been here since early 2011, but sometimes I get impatient, anxious with myself and God. I don't know what He has in store but I hope a guy comes around soon. When I think it about more, in all of my years a guy has never even asked me out. [Creepers and weirdos don't count. It has to be equal interest.] I seriously don't understand. Maybe you have some advice, readers & friends? I am at a loss.

♥, me

Stay For A While.

2011-09-04T22:56:00.000-05:00

very good things coming very soon.

I might be starting a series of interviews with some magnificent people.

I saw that I had 3,330 views on here.

Thank you, thank you so much. <3

I can't believe my blogspace is 1 year old and people actually read this.

My words carry some importance. :) That makes me happy.

I was also thinking about another idea; maybe getting some of the women from my church to form some sort of fashion page on fb for women/girls/cool chicks of like faith or just people in general who have misconceptions of us.

♥,

Rachel!

Misinformed.

2011-08-31T10:48:00.004-05:00

Whispers, chants, and phrases spill out.
The rain beats a steady rhythm.
I feel a lot older than I look.
The years of toiling have take its toll.
You still aren't mine.
You walk freely unaware of what your future holds.
Unaware of me.

A Brand New Horizon.

2011-08-14T13:05:00.003-05:00

God can use you in such a mighty way.

Thursday. I woke up early. Way earlier than I am used to, and I turn on my phone because for some reason I can't get back to sleep. I see all of these messages waiting on me and then a message from a friend who I haven't talked to in nearly a month. He was asking how I was doing, and I said good. Then, he told me he lost his job. They just let him go without warning that morning. I so know how unemployment feels. God told me to pray for him. I told God, "Whyyyy me, Lord? I haven't talked to this fool in weeks! He just ups and texts me. Nooo." I felt like Jonah. Running, running, running away. The burden for the prayer was so strong I had to do it. You always need to follow the will of God. No matter what. No matter how you feel. So, I called him and left a vmail. For half an hour we played phone tag until he called me back. I told him I called because the Lord wanted me to pray with him. He was SO stoked. Like, seriously. It was crazy how excited he was. So, I went ahead and did that and he started crying really bad. He was amazed at how we were different faiths but God used me. He is Mormon and I'm Pentecostal. A month and a half ago I gave him a scripture about not selling the truth and I told him, "Dude, don't follow non-truth, especially when you know what's right." He insists that's where he should be right now, but no one at his church prayed for him. No one fellowships with him and he told me flat out he needed more Christian friends. To uplift you; it made me get in perspective because I DO have family and friends who believe like me. It was must be hard going through life without anyone. Also, like, I think there is some sore of atmosphere between us because I told him about the old guy who asked me out who lives next door and he wanted to kick him in the throat. =/ I...thought that was hilarious. Anyway, he asked me if I thought of him that way since he is 11 years older than me. I said no, because they are two different people. I think that he wants to say something to me, but doesn't know how. I could be reading way into this like I always do, but something is different about this guy. I'm going to try to ignore it. HMMM! Anyway, he is doing better and I'm praying for a better job for him. A week away is school!! Can't. Wait! I invented a flash mob for my town, and we're doing our first event next Thursday! Heck yeah!! :D

♥,
Rachel

My Heartbeat, My Life.

2011-08-10T12:55:00.002-05:00

Was thrifting today. I didn't find much. =/
I had a dream that I was writing in my blog. Maybe it was a sign? School is starting soon and I can't wait. I really missed it. I like work; I do, but going back to school and getting back on track is going to be good for me. Plus..now I don't feel so anxious about how I transferred. I don't feel old or ridiculously embarrassed. Gold & blue!

♥,
Rachel!

Picture Perfect.

2011-07-24T21:40:00.005-05:00

What's up? :)

So, I'm only working and thinking about when school starts. I still have no internet at home so I make my trek to the library or the cool coffee shop part of Hastings. They play The Decemberists and Tegan/Sara. Win. At work, I talk to people all day long. It's a call center. Thursday. I was really thinking about what if an actor calls in? Little did I know that's just what happened. Mr. Toy? Okay, has a credit card obvs. Is going to be in this movie called Moneyball starring Brad Pitt and Jonah Hill? Wow, I was amazed. This is a little of how our conversation went.

MT- "Thank you so much for helping me with my credit card information! I needed to change my address because I live in San Francisco and I'm on location for a movie!"

R- "What? Oh really? What movie?"

MT- "I'm going to be a pitcher in this movie called Moneyball, and it stars Brad Pitt! It's shooting in LA and I'm over there right now. The reason why I live in San Fran is because it's 5 hours away if I'm needed to go there. I can't live in LA because everyone is too spaced out!! But you should SO go see it!"

R- "WHAT?!!? OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG, heck yes I will! That is sooooo awesome! I can't believe it! Woah, so is Brad and Jonah nice people?!!!"

MT- "Totally."

So, yeah, that's how our conversation went. He was so nice and I am still in shock of why that guy has a credit card anyway. :D Good stuff. They are looking into moving me into another department, though. It's taking me too long to pick up the flow of things. As long as I don't get fired, I'm fine but I'm already comfy with my co-workers. I seriously like everyone a lot and it would be a bummer to leave. I guess I can add them on facebook or something. =/ We'll see how this week goes. I'm going home week after next and I can't wait. I really miss my family. I think that's the worst about living 7 hours away is that they're not close by. School is coming up very soon, so I told myself I'd go see them before then. I def want to do it. Also, God has been dealing with me lately. I had a scripture for my friend today.

"Buy the truth and sell it not." Prov 23:23

I let him know, but those words speak a lot of truth. Never stray or settle for something that is partial truth when you know in your heart it's wrong. You have to set that standard. Jesus did it for us. He didn't half way die on the cross. He gave his life for us; the least we can do is serve him fully. That goes for me too; one of my favorite band's lead singers was potentially a satanist. No, I can't just let it go. I have actually been avoiding the issue, but I know I can't string along forever. Something has got to give. I hope everyone who reads this has a very blessed week, and has fun for the rest of summer! W0000t! Let's get it, guise!
byeeeeeeeee

♥,
Rachel!

PS: So you know I wasn't telling a story! The movie poster:

Doing work in the streets.

#58: I don't feel old, I feel alive.

I Have A Few Quips & Qualms.

2011-07-10T21:30:00.004-05:00

Hello, jello!

So I was thinking about my size and everything. My friend, Kat was once a bigger girl and now she has lost weight. It's kind of crazy how we instantly connected and everything. I love how she is always on the same wavelength as me no matter what. When you examine both of our lives we are totally on different paths, ages, and times in our lives. But that's all God, because I seriously couldn't ask for a better friend in a new place. A new town and I have someone who is there for me. Not only that, her family is so cute! Her husband likes me a lot, and I like him too! He's so great and so are her 5 kids. Count it! Insane in the membrane, but they do it. All day, everyday. So, this weekend I vowed to finally put this plan into action and interview her.

1. When did you initially start gaining weight and noticing it?
When my parents got a divorce, I started really gaining weight. I went through jr. high and high school. During high school I lost weight, but then when I had my first child I gained a lot of weight. By 20 years old, I was miserable.

2. How was day-to-day?
I took it out on the ones I loved. My husband then took it on me by making me feel so small so I then lived vicariously through my daughter.

3. For a lot of bigger women, the dating scene is pretty ridiculous. Even for me, it's pretty unbearable, how did you deal with it?
I got pregnant in high school, so I really didn't have to deal with dating as a women in her twenties. I also got married quickly afterward, so dating didn't phase me really.

4. So, what life like after you started losing weight?
I felt empowered. I was in control; not food. I felt like I could face the world again. I saw a change in how people treated me. It was odd, but I knew it was because I was smaller.

5. How did your family react to this big change in your life?
They were supportive in everything that I did. I really appreciate and love them.

6. Do you tell other bigger people about your story and your life?
I won't go out and project it to just anyone. Only people who ask for advice on it. I don't just assume people who are big are struggling with their weight. That can get in you in trouble.

So, I finally got this flippin' interview DONE! I'm ridiculous. The point behind this whole entry was to show everyone that you never know about people's past. This lady...if you saw her in the street, you'd never know. She carries herself well. I think that we all need to take a step back and reassess the situation at hand. With bigger people [myself included] people kind of assume we're miserable. I don't know, I'm not. People constantly push their opinions on what I should do about my horrible weight. Whatever. I say whatevs because I know who I am. I do. I'm 21, and a college student. The world is at my fingertips. Sooooo, yeah. And I'm sorry that it took weeks to finish this up. I'm a hot mess.

♥♥♥ you!

Rachel!

#57 I'm baaaack.

Whot?!

2011-06-21T11:42:00.003-05:00

Wooooaaah,

So I was reading Real Simple, and they have some very fab recipes I want to try out. Since, I have my apt and all...yep.
Dips and such. I'm still working on getting Internet at home! Gomenosai. ^___^;;

I just have to work, work, work so I can! It so helps that I know someone at church who hooks up cable.
Gotta go!
♥,
Rachel

PS: These short entries aren't cutting it. =/ I know that already!

Ack, ack, ack!

2011-06-16T11:15:00.004-05:00

Gomen!

I'm so sorry!! I suck at updating!! Well, if I had internet maybe. T___T I'm in the process of working so I CAN get internet at my a-p-t. I think that will help tremendously. v_v

Again, sorry!!

We're on the phones now at work, and I was so so nervous! Hopefully, today will be different. They say it will, and I have God on my side.

Look at this!!

The. Coolest. Thing. Ever. :D
Work soon!

♥,

Rachel!

#56: What do you get out of these anyway?

Peekaboo, I Seize You.

2011-06-03T19:40:00.003-05:00

Well, hey.

No internet at the apartment. My first two weeks at my new job is done today! To-day. I am so excited!! Twin Atlantic's new album is out as well! Double yes!! I just am so pumped for that. I need to get it. o_o Anyways, so my life has been going and going and going. I wish I could just get on my comp whenever I want [well, to blog not just...turning it on], but I need the funds to pay for 'netz, buns. Ha, anyway. I'm thinking about submitting a photo of myself to this site. It's about chubby fashion and I've been getting really into dressing nicely and finding my personal style. It's a cross between punk/sweet/weird/etc. I don't know.

Work is good. It feels good to earn money. I have trouble just taking money without any reason for it. It's such a blessing, but I don't know. That independent streak comes in. Oh. I think it's pride. Eek, I need to stop that. Let's go get lost right here in the USA. :) RHCP forevs.

I have summer classes, but then I DON'T have summer classes. They start in August...? No idea there, but I need to pay for them soon. I'm at the comm college here. X3 Whoops.

Let's see, kind of nervy about rent and expenses, etc. My parents have been so gracious. The Lord has blessed me with them and here recently, my dad has been coming into the picture. He paid down for a car, paying for gas, and now other stuff like my rent. I wish I could get over my humps. My lovely--no, I mean I am. God is showing me that he isn't a pompous jerk. Not now. He's a lonely old man who has kids who over half of us don't care to know him at all. The ghosts of his past are haunting him hxc. It's eerie, but God save him. Srrsly. My friend who has turned his life around is doing really well with the BSes and all and I'm so proud of him! I just know that he will be a great man of God/saint/cool guy. :D It's there; I see it and he likes that he is more positive. He told me, "I'm glad to have a friend like you." Awww, that is so so nice & sweet. :') Just made my heart melt with friendship love!! I'm glad I can be a good influence in his life and be an example of a good Christian. +2!

On a darker note, I was talking to PRJ, and he said that one of my favorite bands might have a dark secret. The lead singer, might be a Satanist. So sad. I mean, I just---inside, I shut down. I can honestly say that I love this band. The music. It literally crushed me. The singer doesn't talk or ever speak about his beliefs in their music, but to me his personal life is going to come out in his lyrics. No matter what. I have not even talked about this with any of my friends. I just hid it away. I was in denial and I fee like I'm in limbo on what to do.

What next?

:( Ack, I have to blame myself partly. I knew something like this would happen. When I first got into music, I remember praying for God to slowly ween me off of it. Until I didn't need it anymore, because I was guilty for liking secular music. I prayed so sincerely that day and all the other days following until I forgot the prayer, the thought. Now, knowing what I know, I wonder if God still honors that prayer. I know He has listens to me pray to Him and my heart's ultimate desire. I just don't know if this is testament to it. If so, God is radical!

2 hours to finish this blog. Ridiculous. This week is going to be better.

♥,
me!

PS: Guess who is calling me? -pulls lip-

#55: I'm not alright.

The Killings Are Georgous.

2011-05-19T13:12:00.002-05:00

Oh, Wow! :D

2011-05-16T14:12:00.005-05:00

O, What Better Way To Be A Punk In May!

2011-05-16T12:08:00.005-05:00

What's up, guise?!

:)

Monday.

Take it back.

I told you I'd do it! Monday's outfit. I was going to use the internet at the library. :)

Sans jacket.

Happy Rachel.

Today is going good. I keep waking up at like 7:58. In the morning. I. Don't. Want. To. D: Ugh.

This is my first picture in my new place. I love it, I sincerely do. I want to be able to afford it, but I know God is able. I've gotten this far. I so know He is there guiding me. This was not a coincidence. Right now, I'm sharing the table with another lady. Kinda awk. I keep looking at her out of the corner of my eye. Whoops! No homo.

I need to repaint my fingernails. They look haggard. The water in SA is terrible on my skin. I'm still not used to it. It's really harsh and drying on my skin. My nails/nail beds look so bad at the moment. Plus, I have hxc hangnails. :'(

What I'm wearing:

shoes// kitty kat by Em & Sprout
These shoes are so adorable and comfy. :3

tights// 2x black tights from Cato
I bought them a long time ago, and I usually buy a 3x, but I really was in a stretch so I bought these instead, stretched them out before I wore them for the first time and they have lasted a long time.

skirt// plaid number by Torrid
I bought this a few months ago on major clearance and it fit! Signs that I've made progress. It's a size under what I wear.

shirt// Tegan & Sara heart shirt by Tegan & Sara
This is my first T&S shirt I bought from their website. It's really old. I love it, thought. The heart shape makes me want to wear it everyday. :)

jacket// Moto jacket by Avenue
My dream jacket. I love asymmetrical jackets! I couldn't find the right one, but that's about what it looks like.

That was fun! Hopefully I can remember to do more in the future!

♥ + kisses,
Rachel!

#54: I'll be fine once I get it.

Tell Me What You Know About Night-terrors? Nothing.

2011-05-10T16:43:00.005-05:00

God has been SO GOOD to me. I can't even begin to start on how He has been. The semester has finished and I'm out for the summer. I'm reaaally disappointed in myself, because I didn't do as well as I'd hoped. I am taking classes in the summer to make up for that and I just...I don't know where I'm supposed to go with this college thing. I'm burned out and called out. [Not really the second one.]

I have an apartment.

My clothes fit comfy.

I think I'm smaller. I don't know. I just feel confident and better about myself. Maybe it isn't that I'm smaller, just happier. :)

Santogold is in my ears right now. ♥

I totally can not go to the Manchester Orchestra concert. Unless God rains money, this mug isn't going to Austin. D: I am so sad about this. Like...WHY?!?!? I wanted to gooooo. Oh well. They'll come around again. [Watch it be like 5 years until they do and I'll be all working and stuff so I can't go.] I bought their new CD yesterday, and I really am digging it.

My friend said something sweet to me this week. I think he's rad.

I learned about how people who may not follow what I believe and how our friendships can not work 100%. I think that I'm learning how to rely on my Brothers & Sisters. :) And believe me, they always surprise me with their kindness. I really owe them a lot.

I will be posting outfits soonish. I have natural light everywhere in my new place, so no excuses!

I'm serious. Those outfits are happening.

My dad, for the first time, wants to be in my life. He has helped and even wanted to come up to San Angelo to drop off my bed. :O I have mixed feelings about that. I'm glad he is trying but I don't know how to express what's in my heart. I'm glad but curious.

I explored the front porch of the house by my building. The landlords say this woman bought the house and doesn't live there. She does that all around Texas.

We drove by the house of he man who voiced Bambi today. :)

♥,

Rachel

#53: And if you don't love me, let me go.

I Should Have Been Shocked By The Last Thing You Said.

2011-04-25T22:48:00.005-05:00

Wow, what a weekend.

Easters.

I don't know what to say, except God is good. I really miss my car, but my brothers & sisters at church are so sweet and took me around. Well, at least back and forth to church. I highly appreciate them. I do, and I want to stay for the summer.

Fun in the sun!

God has His hands on me, and I know that if I am supposed to be in San Angelo, it will happen. My friend...she is just, I don't know. I love her so much! It's crazy because we've only been friends since February, but I just feel so comfy with her! Awww! Plus, she's hilarious. :)

♥,
Rachel!

#52: le sigh.

I Can't Seem To Make It On My Own.

2011-04-17T22:06:00.003-05:00

Hey guys. Woah, hey. :)

So, spectacular day. Sunday. Yes. Not only was church so good and Christian-y, but my friend. His testimony is so radical. He was a Satanist for 9 years and now he's completely turned his life around and is a serving the one mighty God!!! Ack!!! It made me to excited and pumped about what God is so capable of! I know my car will be okay. We prayed about it in church and I know God is able! Can you tell I'm concerned about it? So am. Anyways, so happy for my friend. He is going to learn so much and I know that if he is faithful to God, God will be faithful to him. I totally am excited and everything! Like I was there! Hahaha! No ma'am! Moving on, Monday is looming. Not. Looking. Forward. God is with. Oh, and I got to talk to another girl who is struggling in church and hopefully I was able to lift her up. She so needs it. I know that it can get hard sometimes; the path get rocky but hold on. Hold on, hold on. It's so worth it. Right now, I'm feeling so good but when the going gets tough, I know to lean on Him. It helps so much.

It solves pretty much anything.

♥ + faith,
Rachel!

#51: You taste like you're already gone.

Rolling In The Heap.

2011-04-17T01:28:00.007-05:00

"Whatever makes you happy." - Creep by Radiohead.

Hey guys! So, eventful weekend. Thursday, Annie broke down and she's still not in repair. By Monday, I should know what is wrong with her. Miss her already.

I went to walk here tonight. I just felt like walking around the campus. It's calm at night and I'm not scared anymore. :)

Now, since I'm so materialistic, a wish list!

Can you tell I want some brogues? :D

This is a very very beautiful dress. It's sold out [of course.], but I still really think it's gorgeous. I don't even know where I would wear that.

I love this dress for some reason. I waiting for it to go on sale so I can snatch it up. My size better be there! It looks like it would be soft and simple to pair up with accessories. YES!

I vant your skuuulls. Kind of young for me, but I ain't even mad. I like it anyway.

Heck yes, there it is. And here is a great Jimmy Eat World song:

♥,
Rachel

#50: I want to fall in love tonight.

There's No Surf In Colorado, Anyway.

2011-04-13T01:55:00.003-05:00

I got some of my stuff today! Yay! :)

1. Fences EP. 2 entries back, I had said that I really got into his [Chris Manfield's] music. A lot. It's really pretty. So, I finally got his CD. Straight onto iTunes! I can't wait to listen to that. I feel like I need some studio headphones to really listen to all the different instruments on it. Not like it's ridiculously layered, but you know. I'm excited.

2. I bought an adapter for my sd card!! Too long! It was a penny on Amazon!
Fail!!

3. The newest volume of Black Bird! I've been wanting to continue!! The seller was very patient with me. My first copy got lost in the mail and he sent me another one. So niceeee. ♥ I am grateful he did. Lovin' this book right now.

Today was a good day to quote Ice Cube. I slept some. In about 5 hours, I am going to eat breakfast with a lady from my church here. :)

Here's a Fences vid.

bye!

♥,
Rachel

#49: It's going, it's going, I'm gone.

Festivus.

2011-04-10T01:52:00.012-05:00

Best. Night. Ever. Details soonish. ♥

-Rachel

*Edit*

So, this entry was never posted. Fail. .___.

I went down last weekend, and I have to say...I enjoyed every bit of it! As you can tell by the older post, I have a lot to explain. Last month, my friend told me that Michael Cera was going to be at the Annual KTHRU Festival at Rice University.

Michael Cera.

Michael.

Michael---

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!!!!!!

I could not pass that up, no way no how. I just...no. He is my ultimate crush, favorite actor, and everything that I think is cute. I had my friend come with me because she was almost as pumped about it as I was. Was not going to leave her out of this! EEEE! Just thinking about it makes me giddy. :333 It was on Saturday, so after driving 3.5 hours I drove some more. The things girls do for love, right? No, no. We go up to Houston, meet up with everyone at this coffee place called Brasil. Very nice. It was just good to see everyone and stuff; I missed them. Really, and it felt to good to see their faces and laugh uncontrollably again. Did I mention that the festival was free?! Yeah, Michael for free; doesn't get better than that. We drive over to Rice and park. I've never been to the university before; it's really big and pretty. Kind of hidden away from everything. Also, each house/dorm has its own mascot. Hogwarts. That's what it is. I would love to go there, but that school has a reputation for accepting mostly out of staters and international students. I like ASU, too. I am happy here. So, this is a legit festival. A stage outside on the lawn and one inside of the building. I've never been to one, so I was pretty stoked! :D I brought a towel, water, and sunnies. Ready for anything. 2 of the bands I actually liked. One of them, The Ton Tons were really good. They are from Houston, and they sound like soulful rock. Check them outskis. :) I bought their EP.

Rad. You know that where there is a festival; there are hippies. Hula-hooping hippies. Maaaan, and other questionable substances. But, I ain't even mad; was not there for that.

After I saw The Ton Tons play, my friend saw Michael go up the stairs! We were all freaking out and waited for him to come down. Never. Did. It was crazy seeing him in real life. That's anyone who I admire. I mean, he is so awesome and to see him, and be in the same room as him. AHHHH! :D After that brief glimpse, we didn't see him until he walked across the room to go outside and see some bands. I spotted him outside and I froze. My friend was so brave; she walked straight up to him and asked for an autograph. I followed her, I was thinking, "I'm not going to sit by and let this opportunity pass. I have to talk to him!" So, we both approached him and he is so nice in real life. :) I said hello, and he said hello. I told him his coat was regal and he said he had just got back from Toronto. [Where he's from.] I can not tell you how happy I was meeting him. One of my dreams is to meet him. Oh man, so a crowd was gathering so he went back upstairs. :( My group enjoyed the rest of the fest. The reason Michael was at the fest was because he was playing bass for Mister Heavenly. So, I watched their performance later that day, and they are really good. Garage rock at its finest. I totally like it, and Michael playing bass was just an extra incentive. ;) Tell you what, he is a way better bassist than me. I need practice. T___T He revealed that to me. After they finished their set, people started rushing the stage to get a picture with Michael. Including moi. He hid underneath because he could not make a getaway. My friend got to go underneath and hugged him. HUGGED HIM.

HUGGED---I WISH I WAS SMALL ENOUGH TO GET UNDER THE STAAAGE.

He remember her from earlier; he didn't give an autograph or picture; but still. I want a hug. D: This girl got him to sign her poster because she cried. Lame. I wouldn't go that far to do that. That's over the top. So, we immediately left after that, got lost in Rice for almost an hour. We basically made a big circle and came back to the concert. Hahaha, fail. We finally made it to my Anna Banana, and were so relieved. I have concert blisters on my feet. Ugh. So worth it, would never trade this for the world. I am still in shock that I even met him.

♥♥♥

Now for the pics and clips of the shows!

The lead singer of Mister Heavenly. Cute & talented.

The keyboardist for Mister Heavenly.

The drummer from Mister Heavenly.

The lead singer of The Tons Tons. She was nice. :)

Concentrating? Hmm.

Hyyybrid Moments. Their closer. I couldn't have chosen a better one! ♥

This song was cute. They dedicated it to Buddy Holly. ♥

I had the best time, and it's all thanks to my friend telling me. If she had not, I would have never came down and experienced the joy of my life. I won't get over this for a looooong time. Wow. :)

This is what I want as a constant staple in my wardrobe:

and this

all day. All summer.

♥,

Rachel!

#48: You see right through me.

I Wear Plugs And Pimp Out Pugs.

2011-04-04T23:04:00.003-05:00

Hey there! :)

So, I've been really into this guy:

It's really getting old, kid.

Fences.
He has a very good sound to him and his lyrics are very dark. I like it, I like it. It's been a nice weekend, and Monday was rough. Well, not really. Just phys class tonight. -sigh- Y'know, college. Browsing through some fashion plus-size blogs like a boss tonight. Lovin' it. I was talking with my friend about face care, and I'm going to post what I use on my skin. I get compliments on my face, but I don't know what they're seeing! Got a whitehead. Disgusting, but I'm taking care of that.

1.

Moisterizer, because I have dry skin. In the winter, it gets bad, but this stuff is cheap (3 dollars at Wal-Mart), and works really good!

2.

This mask really gets dirt out of your pores. I can't say I use it everyday but occasionally.

3.

Dove or whatever body wash I'm using at the moment. Dove is gentle on your body in general, so if you break out from b-washes a lot, I recommend getting this kind. Plus it smells really nice! :)

4.

Water. H2O. Just using water on your face helps. You should use more than that, but water does feel good. :3

I've been feeling like this lately:

Life is so encompassing and ridiculous. I can not keep up or find a steady pace. I hate it. :( But you know what? God is bigger than this tree metaphor and bigger than my life. He holds it all, and I am so happy that He does. It just feels like too much for me, but I have to keep pressing on. Towards my goal. Towards life. Look at the guy in the picture derping. Ha-haaa!

Last week, I finally got my iPod back from the company who was supposed to fix it. 2 months they had it. Mad. And about 2 days after I got it back, it was broken again. M-A-D!!! How dare they charge me 45 dollars and keep my iPod forever and not fix it! Complained and called. No. Body. Answered. -big sigh- Tonight, I tried fixing it and ending up making the screen bleed. Now I have two black spots on it, a broken headphone jack, and out of 45 dollars. ARRRRRRGHHHH! People these days! No respect.

^ That. Anyway, searching for an affordable iPod. Used, baby!
blink is coming out with a new album as well. Just...!!! YES! YESSSS!
In line for that; it's been too long. 7 years in fact. I was in 9th grade when they came out with an album that wasn't a greatest hits. :D :D :D

bye, dear.

♥,
Rachel

#47: After all, it's just me, the king, and the beast.

Watch You...On The 1's & 2's.

2011-04-01T14:34:00.002-05:00

In a well-lit room.

Heeeey!

So, I joined Looklet.

[Velma with her Scooby snacks, ready for a mystery, y'all!]

I'm not sure if I'll like it or not. Time will tell! That was fun making outfits, but I dunno. This week kicked my butt. I am so tired.

♥,
Rachel!

#46: I lie well.

The Great Falling Away.

2011-03-27T01:21:00.008-05:00

He-he-heyyy guys! :)

2 posts back to back! Wow! So, today was lazy. Woke up at 3 pm and got immediately on the computer. Duuude, yes. I still need to study for my phys exam Monday. =/ Ha! I tagged 'music challenge' last night and did not do it. Fail. Tonight I will, for sure. I totally thought I'd see famous people in Austin last week, because I watched a video of Jack White's new label and he just showed up in Austin and played in a parking lot. I wish I was there! It's so expensive. D': Maybe if I save up the entire year and in 2012, I can go. Probs.

a.)

b.)

c.)

A: I got new shoes! They are cute yellow sandal types. I thought they were tres cute. :3 Target 20 bucks!! I wore them with my fushia tights downtown. I got a compliment. The lady was nice.

B: My lovely, crazy, friend bought me this when she visited San Antonio! It's a Dia de los Muertos figurine. A diva with a glittery dress. She immediately thought of me when she saw that. Also, her husband saw a dead band in a case and thought of me. :) So sweet of them! I've been to San Antonio just once and once driving through it. She tells me it's beautiful.

C: a mucky picture of Austin downtown. There was so much going on! There was a live band with a tuba and baritone doing it up in the middle of the street! Also, a rap video was being filmed? Yeah, I actually was in front of them unawares. Crazy. Music everywhere and it made me want Austin more. If that's possible. ;D

Ok, music challenge, sucka.

Day 5. A song that reminds you of someone.

This could be any song. I have a lot of memories tied to songs. Why does this always have to be hard!?!? Jk. "Surf Wax America" by Weezer. I first met my friend from San Angelo, we sung Weezer one Sunday afternoon. That was when I crowned her the coolest Apostolic woman I've ever met.

I loved this song/album way before I met her but this just affirms it. Ahhh, memories.

Toodles!

Rachel

#45: Something haunts my dreams, don't know what it means.

Talking To Myself Because I Can't Forget.

2011-03-26T04:15:00.002-05:00

Wow, I totally posted this prematurely. Anyway! I'm back! I love you and I'm ready to spill my guts all over your floors. [Brains.] The White Stripes broke up!!! D: Whyskis!?! They are a very good band, and I thought they had more to give the world. I guess not. If you don't know who the White Stripes are, I recommend going to Youtube and watching the following titles: "Fell In Love With A Girl", "White Orchid", "I"m Finding It Harder To Be A Gentleman", "Rag & Bone" & "Now Mary". Those are just a few of my favorites. :)

So, the pastor's wife took me to get my hair fixed yesterday. I wasn't too keen on it at first but I guess it looks good! I came back to school and everyone as complimenting me. So, I believe them; I still have to warm up to it, though. She paid for it and everything and said it was God telling her to do it. Also the stuff I need at home to keep my hair up! I def want to try to keep it nice and also it makes a lot of questions pop up in my mind about staying in San Angelo. I don't know if I'm supposed to. Time is passing by fast, and I don't have a place to live after this semester is over. No summer school this year. Thank God. I need a much needed break. So, Spring Break. A week ago was so awesome. I loved it. The first half, I went to Austin to pick up my sister to bring her back to SA. I showed her around my school, the town, and the church. I missed her. My roomie was being ultra nice to her! Oh maaaan, she let her use her bed. Kind of awk, but whatevs! On Thursday, we traded and went to Austin to UT and went around the city. I love it. SXSW was going on, but I couldn't make it to a full show but I did overhear a band covering "Are You Gonna Be My Girl?". Impressive. Two of my sister's friends came along as well and we stayed in a sketch motel because all of hotels in the whole city was booked solid. The hotel was...bad. Peeling wallpaper, curious neighbors, and bad, broken boards under the dirty carpet. Slept in that for two days. Went to Pfluegerville to pick up my friend and head back to SA. A very good good week. I saw a Che Guevara:

look-a-like in Cici's! We went to a thrift store; ok, I always read fashion blogs where people get jewels thrifting. The stuff they buy is very pretty. I NEVER see that stuff where I go. All duds. But not this time, we went to this family thrift store and Ifound Vans!! VANS! Black & in my size! $5.45! :D :D :D

I snatched those shoes up so fast. Also, Freaky Friday's [Lindsay Lohan's version] soundtrack. Diamonds in the rough! In utter unbelief. I see the light now. I am addicted to plus size fashion. I lurve it. I do! I can't say my blog is all fashion; I do talk about other stuff. That's what bothered me yesterday at the salon was that both the hairdresser and the lady were thinking I should eat better and exercise, which is not a bad idea. I'm not the fittest, but they talked like I felt like the lowest human being on Earth. I had no self-esteem or confidence in myself. Which is not true. I DO feel good sometimes and I've seen skinnier girls who don't have no self-respect for their bodies. They give the vibe of 'I hate my body and no one should look at me.' Or the other extreme: 'I need all of your attention, because I hate being alone with myself.' I've seen it. No lie. I wish they had seen me last summer. I was bigger. Five weeks of school left. I can't believe how fast it's gone. I knew I'd fit in after while. Just give me time and I'll find my friends on my time. :)

♥,
Rachel

#44: Pretty things are cute things.

Tweet, Twirp.

2011-03-11T01:02:00.004-06:00

I got my hood up and I'm ready for anything.

I just finished a portion of my Phys quiz. Well, actually it was homework, but that looks pretty rad. Browsing as usual on this late night. I've had a busy short week. I can't believe it's Friday. Crazy. Crayzee. It's weird, but what I don't like about the computer lab at night is it scares me! I don't know what that's about. I'm mad; Avril is such a SELLOUTZ! Just kidding, she never sold in. Uhm, her new song is out and I'm var disappoint. Kinda sounds like everything else out? "LUK @ AT meIZ, i'M GONNA parteee untiL i kant NEmorezxzzz!!!!1111!!"

Go away party music.

Save it for...let's say, parties? Hmm!

Spring Break has arrived and I couldn't be more happier! So excite!!! Austin today. San Angelo tomorrow. I'm in the quiet room and there was one other guy here. We were both giggling. It was perty adorable, except he gasped with laughter. Hmmm, no sir.

♥,
Rachel

#43: So be...very kind. Don't let the world fall on your shoulders.

Holding Out For The Big Connection.

2011-03-08T01:41:00.006-06:00

I missed that. ^

In the computer lab, and there are these two guys who are on the computers in front of me. They are d-bags at best. Wow, it's amazing how people are so senseless. My prayer life feels like it's increasing. I'm so excited. I'm ready for what's next. I really miss my iPod. I sent it off to get fixed and it's been almost three weeks. I took it for granted. Now, I just want it back...fixed. DX

MCS; the lab I'm in...open 24/7. I. Have. Wasted. So. Much. Energy. It's a minute from my dorm. Well, now I know where to go. Printed out my lab so I can sleep in beforehand. Ha! Tomorrow[today] is my math exam.
:(

♥,
Rachel

#42: I dare you.

I'm A Half Life.

2011-03-07T01:04:00.004-06:00

So, I washed clothes tonight. This morning, what have you. Saw one of my friends I made here. I actually was praying for him. We always seem to miss each other. I'm glad we got to talk. This week is going to rock because it's the week before SB! Get pumped! Get excited! So, as I was doing clothes, I met this guy named Ryan. He's very laid back Korean boy. By boy I mean 18. Freshman, but that's ok. He was nice. Shooted the breeze? Kicked the can? Whatever the colloquialism is for talking. It was cool; I like those occasions where there isn't a forced environment but it's natural and people don't have to be extra uninterested. I know I'll be here more. :) Count on that.

i just want back into your head.

#41: I'm really getting old. Old and over you.

A Story, Not Much.

2011-03-05T02:54:00.003-06:00

Ethereal. That's what you said to me. How my eyes look with sadness in them and my mask on tight. Life is like an upbeat song until you fall off the top 40 horse. I can't stand this gallop; slow it down. I am mid height, brown hair, brown eyes, red lips, and a weird smile. I get itchy fast and I can't stand when I get caught up in a boy. In you, boy. I wear clothes that don't quite feel like mine. Maybe someone else. I'm not quite sure but I stand firm in our kiss. Our soft, promising kiss. You had to leave anyway. That kiss wasn't going to make you stay. Make you promise to take my hand in marriage. No. No...I want to make you stay and have picnics in the forest and whisper about our futures. We can't now. The train arrives and my hand that is warmed in yours falls dead and limp by my side as you take steps backward. And now you turn fully around to leave. I run after you, grab the tip of your coat, and reach for your face and give you a smoldering kiss. It's quick, it's sincere, and it stops you in your tracks. That destination can wait; I want us. You want us. That should be enough. No, that doesn't happen. That never happened. I am left. Left to tend to myself.

I just felt the need to write tonight. I bought the new Eisley CD and started writing. I felt like it was needed. I am so happy to see the weekend. It's been a long week and then after next week, SPRING BREEEAK! Yay!! I Googled how to be approachable. Can you tell I'm lonely?

bye for now!

♥,
Rachel

#40: You would take the cherished people that I know.

Sinto-me cansado, como se eu não posso ir.

2011-03-02T17:35:00.004-06:00

I feel like I just can't do it today. My brain is gong 100 mph, but my body is going....5? I just want to curl up and sleep for a long, long, long time. I hate this feeling. I had lab, and all I did was just sit there and stare at my assignment. All of my lab partners were gone so I joined another group. Three guys and me. Nothing got done. =/ Ughhh, and another class is up. This is not my space of venting, I just want to write something about it. I have a small crush. I'm scared of it, though. A lot of things come into consideration, because I actually want this to work. Maybe I should Google how to talk to guys in that way. I am 14. Bye guys.

♥,
Rachel.

#39: Friends sing together, la-la-la-la!

Number 35, You're Up.

2011-02-27T23:21:00.007-06:00

This'll be quick and painless, I promise.

snug covers, a fresh bed.

i couldn't last under all that pressure.

out to sea, you find even the fish get cabin fever.

rush, rush, rush went the waves.

hush, hush, hush beat my heart.

i roll in it.

i roll in it all.

i cannot recall my last name.

or yours, for that fact.

i'm sorry, i wasn't a great explorer.

my name on everyone's lips and between their teeth.

this isn't a random obscurity about life and why we live in it.

no.

i just miss you, dad.

♥,

Rachel

#38: Click, click, click, click, click.

***The coloring is making me mad. D:

Maybe, Maybe Not.

2011-02-25T16:20:00.003-06:00

Whenever I see other people blogging it makes me want to hug my blog. I'm so so happy to see my friends writing and sharing their thoughts. So good. Today was a lazy day, which I can't get enough of. me and some friends went to the lake house. Yeah, ASU has a legit lake house that is actually pretty. The water was relaxing and the sun was just the right amount of brightness. We drove around awhile and talked. S-a-t-u-r-d-a-y. My bite is healing. Yay! I hope CDs never leave us. There are some with beautiful artwork and to give that all up for a .flac or .lossless file. No, I am not joining that club. Church in t-minus 5 hours.

Come at me.
bye!

♥,
Rachel!

#37: For once, I feel like I can be ok liking boys and them liking me back.

A Deep Breath, Because We've Just Started.

2011-02-25T00:53:00.006-06:00

Yes, I am making a new entry the next day I did the other one.

One announcement:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BLOG!!!! A WHOLE YEAR HAS PAST!!

I feel so grateful to all the people who have read and commented and just made me feel like this was a good good good idea. And a special thanks to my rad friend, Kimaroo, for helping me make this. Seriously, without her consistent nagging[jking, with chu, Kim!], I would not have done this. Well, not so soon. Maybe started....this year? I dunno. It wouldn't be here. In the now. So, thank you. I totally had to look to see if it really was my one year anny. Would be embarrassing if it wasn't. All happy and excited. :D So, when I dream, I'm very active. I talk and move around. My mom actually caught me singing and laughing at home. Last night was different. I was being chased by black silhouettes that were Frenchmen. I was in the passenger seat and I was rolling up my window and thier hands tried to slink through the closing crack of my window. I tried pushing it out with my hands, but it was slipping through my fingers. I got anxious and I think I either tried again or bit them. They recoiled...I didn't. I bit my hand and broke through the skin.

I. Bit. My. Own. Hand. And. Broke. The. Skin.

So unbelievable; I woke up with a jerk and looked at the damage. Okay, I was more surprised that I actually hurt myself in a dream and it was real than the bite. Wow. It's still sore and it's a small pucker of skin. Healing, though. I'm so bad. I went back to sleep with my hands way out of reach. Real talk. I didn't think my dreams could be dangerous. I know sometimes I have very realistic dreams that feel like it actually happen. But this...nooooo. School = school. I = I.

That songs like a good song title; "I = I, But What Are You?"

kbye!

♥,

Rachel

#36: Trying to keep up, but so so far behind.

Two Toned & Big Boned.

2011-02-23T23:42:00.003-06:00

Swing it.

I've found a holy room of Internet. My lobby. So, definitely going to be in here a long time. I don't have to drive anywhere. That I like. No, no, no. Love. So, I guess God helped me because this means I'll be meeting tons more people this way. I prayed for guidance on the whole dorm issue. I haven't been adjusting well. I realized that I don't want to make friends or connect with people for convience sake. I want to really find a friend. Not just because we're neighbors. Of course, I'll be polite. And nice to you. But to share my inner thoughts, dreams, hopes, fears, secrets, and theories? No.

That's not me.

Open your eyessss.

Okay, so I've been seeing a lot of fashion plus size blogs around. I've been lurking. I want to post my outfits that are cute on here. If I remember. Maybe talk about them? I don't know. I have to remember to take pictures. I only have my lowly Blackberry camera. I'm going to finish this entry before my battery dies. Oh believe that.

Day 4. A song that makes you sad.

This shouldn't be hard, but it is. Like all the other days. "This Time Imperfect" by AFI. It is a sorrowful song, but lifted me up at the same time. It told me I wasn't alone in my sadness. In my change. I felt so drawn to this song off of the first AFI album I bought when I was 13. 13!! Ack, so long ago. I related to the whole album, but this song was different. Enough chit-chat. Here it is:

So a look into my inner soul as a 13 year old. Yes. Haha, I still love AFI to this day, and I don't think I would ever stop loving every album they create. This band has been through it all with me. My life wouldn't be the same without listening to them. ♥
What's something you cherish? A song? A object? What? Tell me.

bye for now, friend.

♥,
Rachel

#35: This night has just begun to form around us. Be still and silent.

Punk Playlist.

2011-02-23T00:34:00.002-06:00

Go out west where I belong. Where the days are short and the nights are long. ♥

Annnd I Am Back.

2011-02-21T14:10:00.004-06:00

Smokin' in the boys' room! Computing in the library!
Hey guys, it's been a while! A lot has gone done in my life like school being very demanding. More than BC, I believe. Right now, at this very moment, I'm at the public library using their wi-fi. As their sign says: "Our wi-fi hotspot." Yep. Getting used to San Angelo. I mean, it's not hectic here so I'm pretty happy most of the time. Last weekend me and some friends went to Austin to the big two story mall there. It was really fun and then we went to UT and got lost a lot. My friend's bf was mad. I can see why. Very hectic, so I drove home and I was really really really tired. What happened to my music challenge?! I'm so ridiculous. I have homework due and errthang. So, I was trying to post on here through my cell phone. Did not work. ~shrug~ I gotta do it the right way. ;) I saw the cutest guy in the Lego store on Saturday, I so wanted to talk to him but I'm sure he gets compliments all the time. He seriously was super handsome. Then, last night I had a dream and the song, "Under The Bridge" by the Red Hot Chili Peppers were playing on my sister's stereo in my dream. I woke up and had to listen to it. So, picture me [naked. Just kidding!] in my bed jamming some RHCP in the morn! Loving it. New ideas in the works, and I need to see someone about my Internet at my dorm. Horrible. Practiced Rivers today at the park and did my finger drills. I so need to get better at finger plucking. Serious. bye bye, friend!

♥♥,
Rachel!

#34: Boyfriend? Mine? Any guy? No? Okay. :[

This Sick Human Creation Is Mine

2011-02-21T13:42:00.003-06:00

I will be back soon, guys. No time or enough Internet to create. I know, I know. I've already made this but...what can I say? Look how sad the dog is!!!?

♥♥,
Rachel!

Clap Your Hands. Stomp Your Feet.

2011-02-10T22:56:00.004-06:00

I wouldn't say I've stopped writing in my brain.
I would say that I've stopped writing here.
I miss you.
I miss my diary. School has taken hold of me and it's not letting go anytime soon. God is moving faster than tectonic plates. The Earth's crust is gently bending to His will. I can't believe in a month, I've grown spiritually.

In bounds, I feel. :)
That's way more than a smile. I'm leaving for home to pick up my bass. Rivers. ♥ And then, I'm going to see everyone and mom. Of course. I miss Internet and not being able to access it in my own living space. And speaking of space; I miss having my own room. Even sharing it with my sister...was better. I think that I have to get used to very little privacy for a while.
I don't have a job and I want to know if God has something in store for me...I've been getting checks and paying all my bills. I really don't have a need for a job. I just need to pray about a lot of things. Like if I need to do a work in the church I'm going to. Btw, which has humbled me so much. In tears. Literally. I feel like it's a very good church. Bye for now.

♥,
Rachel

#33: Stretching my hands and brain.

T&S

2011-01-28T21:26:00.003-06:00

We didn't do it for the money, I don't know why
We didn't do it for the money, I don't care why
You'll go down down down get in my car it's too full
We didn't do it to be happy, so i can whine
You'll go down down down on the outside
Will i grow this out
You think I got my way
We didn't do it for the money, for the last time
You think I got my way, you think I got my way
Get in my car
It's too full.
Get in my car.

As I sit and realize the situation. I know I am alone.

I hope it's not like this always. Forever.

♥,
Rachel!

Momo?

2011-01-27T15:19:00.002-06:00

On the library computer. There are two cuuute Asians across the table from me. A girl and a guy. The girl has an oversized scarf on. Kawaii desu ne?!

Tee-he. I'm eating spaghetti tonight and chem let out supah early! Yes and a thousand times yes!!

♥,
Rachel

Is It Okay, To Light My Hand On Fiyah?

2011-01-23T20:57:00.006-06:00

Oh my gravy.
It's been too long. At Hastings mooching off their interwebz. I can't figure out why I have such bad fortune at my dorms with the internet service. =/ Only me. Probably because I'm a transfer student.

...

RACISTS!
The barista is playing hardcore music and Rise Against. Good and bad. Their store is so much better than the one back home. Actually... a lot of stuff is better than home. Hastings being one of the many. They have two Wal-Marts! TWO! Both huge! Anyways, I'm so happy because I've found a church and a friend already. She is amazing, I am really blessed to have met her. We hit it off from the first conversation we had. It was really rad. She is really rad. Also, I met this guy down my hall who is 21. Friends. Relate to eachother on totally different levels. It's different in the dorms. I...I don't know. I definitely want an apartment next semester and for the summer. I mean, I am a shy pooper. Not anymore. Any place. Nu-huh. Not too crazy about that. In other news, I have lost 15 pounds since the summer!!! I can't believe it! I used to be 335 and now I am 318. By May I want to be under 300 pounds. Seriously. I am so close! 250? Possible? Heck yes. Just typing that I feel tons better about myself. I knew if I just put mind power to it and God behind me, it can be done and I did it. I can't believe it. Hard work pays off. :)

♥,
Rachel

PS: DEF a lot of cell blogging from now on. I'm not letting Concho get the best of me. ;)

#32: I have conviction, too.

It's Worth Living, Now.

2011-01-16T01:35:00.002-06:00

Would I kid you, dear?
The church pews are empty but my tear ducts are not.
I want equilibrium.
Out of this ugly house and into God's heavenly arms.
Not death.
That's too tricky and messy.
Lists, lists, lists, plans.
I make them and break them.
Be still my ever still heart and do my bidding.
This is to the still and quiet who fear that ever omnipresence.
This is to the shadows that I see but don't see.
This is to the blind, the weary, the weak spirited.
Psalm 103:11.
What do we have to fear?
What should we tremble unconsciously behind?
You're offshore waving good-bye.
I'm feeling the wooden pier against my feet.
It hurts, but it's worth it.

I cried while I wrote in my journal.

#31: We're the coolest kids and we take what we can get.

After All Of This, You Still Stay?

2011-01-09T22:50:00.002-06:00

I met my room-mate today. She is really nice. She's from a small town like me and loves country music and dogs. Her name is Payton. :) I think we're going to get a long, because we respect each other's privacy [what little we have], and things like that. I should post another music day. I should post what I've been doing. But I'm not. I am just writing who I met today. I saw bits of Nick & Norah in the lobby this afternoon. Good stuff. These guys were wrestling and hit me. Sooooo awkward. Didn't hurt? Yeah! I saw this couple who couldn't stand to be away from each other. Yep, that couple. Does not know when it's okay to do PDA. That wasn't a good time. They were all drama n3rds so I didn't say much about it. One thing about my roomie is that she is a morning person! 6 AM she gets up to get dressed and ready. I can't even imagine doing that again. I did that in 9th grade. Nope. Too old. For waking up that is, just no. Anyways, Payton went to PetCo to get a fish and I saw a glimpse of SA. Pretty exciting. Two Wal-Marts! TWO! Blowing my mind. Target. Get out of here with that! Really stoked!
Woah! The internet is working at full blast! :)

♥,
Rachel

#30: Thank you God, for everything.

San Angelo.

2011-01-08T19:37:00.008-06:00

Wow, okay. So I moved up to San Angelo for school. It's been a whirlwind of a week[s]. First, I had a going away dinner and a lot of people came by! So, I totally made it to SA by the grace of God. All of the stuff I got for my dorm was all Him. I didn't have the money to do anything, and God made a way. He's always there helping me and guiding me. My first night here no one was here. It was just me, and it was weird sleeping in a new place. Not my futon. Today I met the girls who share the bathroom! They seem nice. My roomie isn't here yet, but hopefully tomorrow she will be. :) I found all my classes, and they are basically in a square. That's that! I passed by the nursing complex when I was walking, and imagined going there for all classes. A year and a half with summer classes. Wow, I'll be done. I met my neighbor, and he's really nice.

Day 3. A song that makes you happy.

Music makes me happy, but one song that I can pick off my brain is "Go Away" by Eisley. It's a song of sadness, but to me I love it. The voice, the instrumentation, and the words. They all flow and I can't get enough. I listened to it leaving home. I welled up, but I know this is where I should be. I felt so...conflicted at home. Even though I had my friends, it just felt...weirdly depressing. Here, I can clear my head and realize what Rachel wants. Also, grow. I don't mind being away from everyone, I've always kind of alone. Plus, they're always a phone call/facebook/text away. No time to be sad! I'm at ASU!

♥,
Rachel

#29: Awkward. Awkward. Awkward me.

Britney Looking Like 1st Prize.

2011-01-02T22:03:00.001-06:00

Backwards & Frontwards.

2011-01-02T21:31:00.002-06:00

I posted just because of this:

Day 2. Your least favorite song.

I can tell that this will be a hard.
I want to say Ke$ha. Or T-Swift. Lady Ga-ga. Justin Beaver.
Insert 2009-2010 pop-indie band here. Nikki Minaj. Brokencyde. 3Oh3. Breathe Carolina. Blood On The Dance Floor. Or any band who thinks swaying a keytar is making music. No, but I'm not going to say them.

"Piece Of Me" by Britney Spears.

=/
No good. I hate that song and how many nominations it got at the VMAs when NOBODY knew about it's existence. You know what? That whole Blackout album was just horrbs. Everything about it...needs a second look over.
Britney...do better. kthanks.

♥,
Rachel!

#28: I want to be able to walk through walls, cure disease, but I'm not Jesus and you're just a boy.

I Should Not Have Been.

2011-01-02T00:19:00.001-06:00

Eeek! I Should've Started Earlier!

2011-01-01T23:45:00.004-06:00

Hey, okay.

2011. Woah.
I should have started earlier with this post but I wanted to make it on the very first day of 2011.
Made it!
~Whew!~ So, I am going to start a music monthly challenge. I'm excited! You should be too!
In other news, I know this is gross but I got a visit from Aunt Flo! I'm thanking God because I've has been missing her. It's really a blessing. This is like...anti-blog subject matter. She came on New Year's Eve! Surprise! I was at someone's house. Almost a fml, but I was okay. :)
I went over to my friend's house and we had sparkling grape juice and got "toe up". Well, no. So much fun. I saw The Jerk for the first time. A lot of hype. A lotttttt.

Day 1. Your favorite song.

I can't even answer that. So much music flows through me. If I had to pick a song, I'd choose one of my current obsessions.

Where Have You Been? by Manchester Orchestra.
My lovely friend introduced me to them. I knew they were a band, but I didn't think it was good music. So wrong. Just the way Andy Hull sings is enough for me. So much emotion. I was looking through different picture, fashion blogs and just blown away at how pretty they are! Women who devote themselves to blogging. Getting paid. What I like about some of them [can't speak for all], is it's not about the money. I still want a degree. And college. Which I am going to in a week. It hasn't hit me. It hasn't hit me that I have to pack up all of my stuff and life and move. No...but it will. I'll be 22 this year. I can't believe it. Bye for now.


♥ and the new year,
Rachel!


PS:

So this is the new year.
 And I don't feel any different.
 The clanking of crystal
 Explosions off in the distance.

 So this is the new year
And I have no resolutions
For self assigned penance
For problems with easy solutions.

So everybody put your best suit or dress on
Let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
Lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
As thirty dialogues bleed into one.

#28: Sufferin' succotash. 

Go On Ahead.

2010-12-30T14:56:00.002-06:00

Ow, I've been getting serious bumps lately from being super clumsy.
I'm glad don't bruise easily.

And, I know I should update more. 12 days. Too long. My hair is disgusting...and I want to know if I should get extensions.

New Year's Eve! December 30th. Amazing how fast 2010 flew by. I will try to post tomorrow, just to be cheeky. Since it will be the 365th day. :)

Ciao!

#27: No job feels nice.

Where's The Discotech, Discovery?

2010-12-18T23:49:00.003-06:00

Oh hai.

My first free Saturday! YES! More to come. Since I did my top 10 random hot guys, I want to do my top 10 hot guy musicians. Because...why need a reason? :)

Right.

10. Jade Puget from AFI

9. Nick Zinner from Yeah Yeah Yeahs

8. William Beckett from The Academy Is...

7. Tony Thaxton from Motion City Soundtrack

6. Ezra Koenig from Vampire Weekend

5. Matthew Theissen from Relient K

4. Matthew Taylor from Motion City Soundtrack

3. Rostam Batmanglij from Vampire Weekend

2. Devonte Hynes

1. Stephen Laurenson from Copeland

Too much hot for one entry! Let me leave then. ;)

♥,
Rachel!

#26: No more work. HECK YEAH!

Come Clean, All Around Me.

2010-12-17T14:15:00.005-06:00

It doesn't take much to make me happy.
But it does take a bit to make me overjoyous and elated. I passed this semester, and this project I was doing in my psych class...made me pass more than I expected!!! I seriously was praising God in the office. I can't believe it! I'm going to San Angelo. Nothing can stop me now, except myself. On Monday, I'm going to visit the campus. I don't think seven hours will pass by slowly. I have almost everything in place for spring. The dorm. I need that, but I have a feeling it will come in time. God has guided me so far, and I know He will help me there. No doubt. My lovely friend told me this week that she loves reading my blog. That made me so happy! I mean, even the lame stuff I post she reads and that's great. Sometimes guys. Some...times. Also, my other pretty friend commented on one of my entries saying that I was one of her favorite blogs. ♥ They are both really special to me, and I cherish them. I want to talk about friendship. We all know there's different types of friends and stuff. I mean, variety is the spice of life and I'm personally glad that there are different levels of friendships and not just like...2. How awkward would it be to have just all aquaintances or just bffs? No newish people in your life, just your besties. That's it. No. When I was a little girl, I always wanted a best friend. I was pretty intense in 1st grade. In elementary, kids are still just playing with everyone and doing things like, "If you give me your turn at the water fountain, I'll be your best friend." No good. Kids will be kids. As I've grown up, just like most people, I have had good friends and bad friends. They all have taught me something about them or myself. I don't regret it, but to me a good friend is someone who asks about you. Who doesn't put themselves higher than you. Almost equally matched. They are interested in what you do. They care about you is what I'm saying. Not if you can do them favors, give them money, or rides. Text you to see what you're doing, and remember your birthday and Christmas. That's what I love in a friend. There are other things that I look for, but that is the main one. :) I downloaded Brand New's demos. So good. I like singing the CD version with it.
It's my last day to work at the museum. I can't believe it's been 2 years. Almost 3. Ready to go.

♥,
Rachel

PS: Also, being honest/sincere is a good attribute.

#26: This year is almost over, and I felt like I have blinked twice.

School & The Semester Abroad

2010-12-15T15:20:00.005-06:00

"We'll be taking whatever you got. All your pretty little rags & bones!"

"Was your kiss too weak? Were your eyes too tight? And much too young to fall in love. Much too young to be in love. Just let me run where I want to run. Just let me love who I want."

"I lie well. Halehu. I lie for only you."

"So go away, go away and leave me on my own. Honey, leave me on my own."

^____^ I can finally sign up for classes! Brit Lit here I come! There's something I want to talk about: self-image. 2010. Image is everything. Most people judge you based solely on how you look. I'm here to say...it doesn't matter. Of course, to get a good job or make a good impression, you have to be presentable. But to be constantly trying to up your friends in who looks better or copying people on television is insane to me. Now, I'm plus size. I am, and that's something I deal with all the time. Do I hate it? No. It's not really that I hate the plus size label or the people in that label. I don't like MY body. At all. I was raised that being big is unhealthy, wrong, and embarrassing. My mother always mentioned and tried to put me on diets and "eating plans" starting when I hit puberty, because she was concerned. I see her intentions, but to me it felt like I was never good enough. Good grades, staying in school, and out of trouble seemed second rate to my weight and what I looked like. I think I started hating myself when I realized I was much heavier than my friends and stuff. So with all these pressures coming from every side, I shut down. I wouldn't talk about it, but I didn't have anyone to talk about it with. Y'know? I never had guys be attracted to me at all. Dating was not heard of for me. I think it's because I hated my body, so why should they like it? Self-esteem was not present at all, and as I went through high school it didn't really leave me. I felt trapped inside my body. That's never a good feeling, but now at 21 I feel like I can like the chubby girl in the mirror. The fat girl who has never been kissed, who has never had guys give her a second glance and a mom who never understood that without support, a diet is a death sentence. I can start to love that person looking back. Feed it right. Clothe it right. Accept it. I wish it hadn't taken me this long. I would have felt okay with myself a long time ago. :) I'm not saying just bigger people have this problem. Self acceptance. Everyone does, especially during the awkward jr. high/high school years. You just have hormones raging and there is nothing you can do to stop that tornado of a mess. Hahaha. I love bigger women with confidence. I am so jealous. I want to have that mindset of nothing can get me to a point where I change for them. For society. For anyone but myself. I do feel like I need to lose weight, but I want to be the one who says, "Okay, Rachel. It's time." Also, I want to do it for health reasons. Not for a boy, a dress, a size, or to shop easily in a certain store. No, I am going to do this the right way. Forget the name calling, bullying, and teasing. I'm not giving THAT a second look over. It's not worth it. I can spend my energy on something worthwhile. So, with that in place, I watched this documentary about plus size girls. Two women talked about their experiences as bigger women. Very inspiring for me, and moving. Watch it here. Just press play on the vid. :) I want everybody to like who they are inside and out. I mean, we only have one body and why not be positive? If you want change, change. If you don't, don't. And I know it's not as simple as that, but it should be. It really should be. I'm not what society sees as a black woman.
I'm not Halle Berry or Venus & Serena.

I'm Rachel, and that's enough.

♥,
Rachel

#25: No Christmas spirit. :

I'll Put YOU On My Wall.

2010-12-11T09:36:00.005-06:00

Why can't I finish you?

It's sitting on my desk as we speak. I've had it for MONTHS. It's not even mine. I feel bad for taking forevs to read it! I know I start to miss my books after a while. All 710548345743905 of them. 3 shelves full of books! Double stacked! I just...yeah. You can say that I enjoy a book or two. Couple hundred. Whatever. :) This week has flew by, and I've been so busy. I'm glad it's over, though. I mean, one more week of class. Can't beat that. I signed up for my ASU parking last night. :3 Tee-he! Oh, by the way these other schools accepted me:

Good schools. SFA has a spa!! If I based my school on awesome pools, SFA would beat everyone. Hands down. Just, amazing. I am still happy about ASU, though. They have such a great nursing program, and it's far. Honestly, I want to get out of this area and the surrounding cities. Like, Houston. TWU has a branch there, but I know I'd choose Dallas. This is my last weekend working with my co-worker, because she will be on vacay next Saturday. Yay, college! I'm going to go look at fashion blogs, k?

♥,

Rachel

#24: I want to visit France.

I Haven't Been Here Or There. Just Omnipresent.

2010-12-07T12:27:00.004-06:00

I just wanted to make a quick post before I go into college mode at work.
Yep.

At work. No one is here except me and my "co-worker" so...
Why not?
I'm nervous about writing class. I have to turn in my late project. Speaking of...I have that video project from psych I need to edit as well.
This is turning into a checklist. Whoops. I'm sorry.
I just took a peek at Tori's blog; I hope you have too. :) I'm not really sure how many people read this or if this is a waste of time. But it's MY waste of time. A space to breathe and let it all flow out. Or come out. Whichever floats yer boat. I am sitting in my office right now. Honestly, I am on the fence about missing this building and these people. I know I'll miss my boss. As for the others...no. I highly doubt that they know me at all. I don't really talk about myself unless it's apparent. Like my contacts or my clothes. The outside, and while I keep myself inside and mile to myself. I can't say I really know them either. In class today, we were talking about how we perceive people. How bad things can be justified if you do it, but if someone else does it's unforgivable. I think what I got from our lecture is that people can be maniacal. I am amongst those people.

Off topic: I want to capture this sunlight coming in from my window right now. It's very pretty and makes everything seem concrete. Not hazy or dark. Just there. I like it a lot. I painted my fingers again. Picture later? Yes, later.

As I said, today I was thinking too much and I thought about how we as people act in society. We all put a blanket on our personality or how we are to be less crazy as we are behind closed doors or with our friends. And the people who aren't are labeled misfit. Crazy. Unkempt. I don't know where I'm going with this, but thank you for staying with me.

Go listen to Manchester Orchestra.

I've been catching all your ghosts for every season.
I pray to God you won't come back here anymore,
do you pray to Him too?

When you look at me I'll be digesting...your legs.
'Cause I can barely see what's in front of me,
these days.
And those days too.

God, where have you been?

I got to get all this stuff done.

♥,
Rachel

#23: O, God. You are nearer than I thought.

Bones Colliding

2010-12-04T10:40:00.009-06:00

Hey guise!

What is up? One more week until school is out, and I couldn't be more nervous! Nervy on a nervy boat. Lazy Saturday! Actually, I will be editing my video project for my Psychology class. I chose to research my mom's side of the family. So, during Thanksgiving, I went up to Cleveland---I explained this already. I'm sure...I just heard Tegan & Sara cover "Umbrella"! It was good! Some live action, and speaking of...I randomly wiki'ed Saosin. The band? Yeah. At the high school I moved to, EVERYBODY I knew liked them a lot. Them and System of A Down. Smh. And the former lead singer, Anthony Green, did some guest vocals on one of my favorite bands, Zolof the Rock & Roll Destroyer's album! :D So, yeah. I end up on the Warped Tour wiki, reading why almost all of the better bands have walked away from the tour. Basically for the past 3 years, it's been crappy electronic bands playing and Christian bands. The tour started out almost...all punk. The Adicts, The Germs, Bayside, AFI, Guttermouth, The Casualities, NOFX, Anti-Flag and the like would be on the list and now it's like pop, electronic, crap. Seriously, it's bad. One or two bands I would actually see. Motion City and Cute. Suuuucks. I never got a chance to go see it before it went downhill. Also, the people speaking out against were saying the newish bands were acting really conceited and stupid. When I say eletronica-pop-crap, I mean this, this, and definitely, this.
:( I wish I could have gone when I was in high school, now what's the use? I mean, none of the bands I want to see are there, and that's one of the bigger music festivals that come to Texas. Besides SXSW in Austin and Summerfest in Houston. I don't know of any big ones that attract good bands. Also, I would love to fly out north and see Coachella or Lollapolooza...but you know you need real money to do that. Hahaha, anyway.
MUSIC has down spiraled into oblivion!!! At least I have my Lunachicks vinyl.
Just kidding. They aren't that good. I hope someone or anyone who reads my blogs are listening to the playlists that I'm putting up! :) I am trying to do something new about the music on here. Ohmigosh, I am so nervous about college!!!!!!!!1!!!?!!!

byee!

♥,
Rachel!

#22: ~Run-run-runaway. No sense of time.~

Some Hotness? K,Thanks!

2010-12-01T23:16:00.004-06:00

Hi!

So, I'm not celebrity crazy, but I do like some actors for their faces! My sister thinks I have weird taste, but she doesn't know what's what. I do!

So, here's my countdown.

10.) Adrian Grenier

9.) Shaun White

8.) Dan Under

7.) James McAvory

6.) James Franco

5.) Jason Biggs in the Loser movie!

4.)Paul Rudd

3.)Justin Long

2.) Prince Eric from The Little Mermaid

1.)Ville Valo

That's it! :)

♥ you & them,
Rachel!

#21: I get hardcore buyer's remorse.

Music Makes The People Come Together!

2010-11-30T11:30:00.002-06:00

Can not get this song out of my head.
I'm nervous about work. Probably because it's been a week since I've been.

♥,
Rachel

#20: I can't believe it's time to go.

You're Never Gonna Believe This!

2010-11-28T01:38:00.008-06:00

Heeeeeeeeeeeys!

What a day/weekend!! Eisley was so amazing. They are beautiful in person. First of all, when I got there, I was kinda early and I ended up behind these two black kids. They were looking good, but I think they were making fun of me. Turning around and giggling. That's okay, when we got up to the gate, they had to go get their tickets and I went ahead of them. :) Karma. So, it was in the smaller room in the Warehouse; very cute and cozy. Their little sister & brother opened and Ives the Band. They were pretty good. Talented and nice. I loved that it was so intimate and the closeness was addicting. It made me think all the more about leaving. I'm going to miss home, but I'm ready to go. Oh, and I totally made it there and back without directions! Heck yes! I remember when I had to get my friend's mom to drop me off at shows because I couldn't go to them myself. Woah, young times. So, yeah! I got the setlist! I was being weird and didn't get the pick, but this guy by me did. Good for him. I didn't even get the people next to me's sweat on my clothes! YES! My 9th grade math teacher was there; he wasn't kidding when he said he loved them a lot. He mentioned that this was his 4th time seeing them. The first after his son was born. So sweet! Enough chit-chat! The pictures/videos!

set list, set list!
As an encore, they played Trolley Wood! I was so happy! ^___^

A bit of pedals.

Christie DuPree ♥

Christie & her brother, Colin!

Ives the Band! [cute drummer. Hehehe!]

Jason Tolliver, the leadsinger, doing his thing. They aren't too bad! Their music is like poppy whimsical rock. :) It's cute, and they have a certain way of swaying with the beat onstage. Jason can actually sing. That's the best part.

The best drummer shot I could manage. He was too busy flailing around, being hot. ;D

EISLEY!:

Stacy & you can't see Chauntelle, but she is there on the other side.

Garron!! He's 2 months younger than me. Tee-he!

Sherri! She was looking cute, and I snagged her setlist. :)

Weston!

Christie singing:

Brightly Wound:

Marvelous Things:

Telescope Eyes ♥:

You might want to turn your volume down. They're a bit loud. :)

Hunter Burgan of TranquilMammoth.blogspot.com fame and AFI fame made a VYou account. VYou is a site where you answer people's questions through a video chat! I asked two and since he's pretty popular, I didn't even think I'd have him answer but he did!!! Screeeeenshot time!

Yep! I asked "How is Tegan?"

Also, I went lightwriting with this lovely fellow:

Tori! I can't wait to see his pictures! We did a lot of them. :) This is where he blogs.
Here & Here. Check him out and follow him. He is such a sweetie pie. Also so tall!

I'm jealous of a boy's height.

Whew! That's all I have for now! 2 or 3 day post! So worth it! Goodnight!

♥,
Rachel

#19: I'm pretty healthy for the time being. But I always imagine that I'm on the brink of death.

Friday.

2010-11-26T12:46:00.003-06:00

No Black Friday for me!

Well, maybe a little but this is what I'm really excited about:

:D

♥,
Rachel

PS: I ate way too much food, and my belly hurts.

#18: The cold air makes me feel good.

I Saw Joanna Newsome On TV.

2010-11-24T22:42:00.002-06:00

So I did it. I made a playlist like a lot of musician bloggers I read. I'm a follower. =/ Some songs that I've listened to a lot the past week. I hope you like them too! :) Maybe this is the answer to my music section of my blog! :O I feel like I've solved world hunger. Or gingivitis. No, no...just made more stuff appear on my square of interwebz.

♥,
moi.

Happy Thanksgiving btw! Just...saying. :)

#18: If you say a word enough times, it starts to sound weird.

Happy Thanksgiving, Charlie Brown!

2010-11-23T23:13:00.010-06:00

Happy Thanksgiving, guys & bloggy!

I'm thankful for:

God
not being sick exactly on Thursday
friends
family
soda that makes me burp
my sister being home. ^_^

What are youuuu thankful for? I downloaded a Descendents album. Excited/grateful for that! I go get my sister from the Greyhound, and we end up in the ghetto. Scared us half to death. It's ridiculously dark. Barely any light. We made it out of there, though. We were thinking about kids who grew up there and that's all they know and them trying to make a new life for themselves. Get out of there and become something. Go to school and for girls, not get pregnant and stay in the projects. Saturday! Saturday! Saturday! I went to see Motion City Soundtrack! I lurrrve them, and they were amazing. Justin Pierre and Joshua Cain were getting back on their bus and I got a wave. C: I was happy about that! I suck because I was in the second row, front and center through all the crappy bands and then when Motion City was up, I got sick. Like nauseated. I gave it up. Maaan, anyways. Here is Motion City's setlistbecausethat'sallIcareabout!

The Weakends
Everything Is Alright ♥
Pulp Fiction ♥
Capital H
This Is For Real ♥
Feel Like Rain
Indoor Living
Her Words Destroyed My Planet ♥
Even If It Kills Me ♥
When You're Around
Make Out Kids ♥
My Favorite Accident ♥
LG FUAD
Broken Heart
A Lifeless Ordinary (Need a Little Help) ♥

ENCORE!
Back To The Beat
Disappear ♥
The Future Freaks Me Out ♥

Such a good set! I loved just about every song! :) Besides my feet feeling like cornhusks, I had such a great time! A girl apologized for grinding her junk on me! It can't get any better than that! Some vid. :)

A Great Big Pile Of Leaves!

Saves The Day = made me remember 10th grade all over again.

Say Anything..no words. I didn't like it.

MOTION CITY SOUNDTRACK!!! ♥

Everything Is Alright!

Capital H!

Even If It Kills Me!

Make Out Kids!

My Favorite Accident!

Look at this!

An egg omelet with a stack of pancakes! So much food for after a concert, so I did a take out. Like..15 minutes after I got there. I think I will make that a tradition...Ihop after concertos. :D Tomorrow, I will be going up to Cleveland [other side of Houston] to see my mom's cousin and to film my psychology project. I'm nervous that I won't be filming much, but God will be with us. Me & my sister. :)

♥,
Rachel

#17: Pop music isn't bad, our time is.

TGIF Forevs!

2010-11-19T15:15:00.002-06:00

Hello friends! :)

Am I glad it's Friday!! It's been one of those weeks all week long! Oh my! Tuckered out. Literally. Just kidding. Here I sit, too legit to quit. Well, I did put in a date of when I am leaving the my job. I'm happy to see it go. It's a really calm environment, but the way things are running is weird. Tonight, I may go and light writing with my friend. I haven't seen him in forever. He was away at college. :) Everyday I've been going like crazy. Last night, my friend and her boyfriend threw a going away party because they are moving up north to find work. We had such a great time. Hilarious stuff. Some of the good stuff: going under the bridge and tipping over a port-a-potty that smelled like Ben-Gay and had crap in it. Also, going out on the piers and watching the fog slowly rise from the river. Halfway singing "Cute Without the "E"" at the top of our lungs, and being scared of scaling the bridge. Screaming like a kid on the playground[s]. Oh man, nothing beats it. I'll miss them! They are off in a better place. Their dog. Tried to jump on me from the time I came onto patio to when I left. He even was on my car! I don't even know what was up with that dog. Had to wrangle him up! No lie. I hate that dog now. Too much inappropiate stuff with that thing. Nuuu-huh. Animal magnetism my foot.

VINTAGE! VINTAGE! ♥

I'm trying to dress better and more what I say my style is. I'll probably post some pictures of what I'm wearing and show you guys. I need your opinion on what I should nix and keep. Byee!

♥ and honesty,
Rachel!

#16: Blush look good on every girl.

Like A Puzzle, I Wait To Be Finished.

2010-11-18T13:59:00.004-06:00

HEY guys! HEEEEY guys! Gruess what!

Going. I got accepted and I'm so excited!! I'm finally getting out of here. I just can't wait. I know that it's going to be different...but I'm still happy to be moving forward.

I found this on a Tumblr. CX Who knew, right? Heh, heh, heh. It's a weird feeling knowing I'm going to be gone, but I know it's time. Looking at some apartments now.

♥,
Rachel

#15: My left pinkie finger is double jointed. ^__^

Close & Far.

2010-11-16T15:08:00.003-06:00

I have tickets to the Motion City Soundtrack concert!! Get pumped!! :D :D

♥,
Me!

#14: concerts make me happy, excited, and fall in love with certain types of music all over again.

Sunday. Late. Night.

2010-11-14T22:58:00.002-06:00

^~^
You should definitely give her a listen, I have been listening all weekend:

I'm not your ghost anymore.

These guys too:

Burgeoned man built to collapse into crumbs.

♥,
Rachel

#13: Jack White is so weird...but great at the same time.

I Grasp The Microphone With My Right Hand.

2010-11-13T10:49:00.004-06:00

Heeeys.
My title is a lyric from a song by The Blue Hearts! "Boko No Migite". It's so good, and so is the movie based on them. :) Just another Saturday in the museum. I can't wait to leave permanently. I have this urgency to go. And not look back. Here lately, I've been looking at this positive body image Tumblr. I won't say the name, but I will add a link later. It says it's for chubby girls, but a lot of normal sized women post on there. Basically, you post a picture of yourself and your measurements, and a little bit about you. Something positive or uplifting. Most of the time people do, but some have trouble saying that they even like their bodies. I think it's a good site, because it builds women up who don't have that self-esteem or even see themselves as pretty/beautiful. Honestly, I've never told myself that I'm beautiful. It is hard when you have had so much pressure to look a certain way and you're not that. You don't fit the mold of what the media/your parents/your ideals want you to look like. I know that being fat or out of shape is bad for your health, but a lot of people are just big boned. Just last night, my mom was telling me about another weight loss program, and I just flat out said, "I'm doing this my way. I'm eating healthier, and exercising. Without a program to help me." All shapes and sizes on there, and I can't get enough because those women..look like me. I can relate to them because of that. Everyday people. They are big like me, and I am trying to change, but for now I'm still plus size. So, I have to work with what I have. Dress my current body. What gives me hope for a relationship, is girls who are bigger than me with hot boyfriends and they have it going on. I mean, that is so rad. I just have to go and conquer! You guys should check it out. Some of the pictures are pretty risque, so brace yourself. X3 In other news, here is a video from the Halloween show of ....
Earhart. ♥

Soundtrack cover. ;D

LINDA LINDAAA! LINDA LINDA LINDAAAHH! X3

^__^ Two things I love: clothes & music. Also, I'm seriously in like with bows right now. So cute, and so mine. I bet they are easy to make, too. Lates!

♥,
Rachel! :)

#13: I am finally starting to dress pretty.

To Write Love On Her & My Arms.

2010-11-12T16:22:00.002-06:00

Today is TWLOHA day! So, I wrote 'love' on my wrist today! I actually participated this year and did not skip it like last year. Whew! I am so into blogging right now.

Eh? Ehhh? Yeah. Later! ;)

♥,
Rachel

#12: How do I say the words I need to? It's been too long, and I've grown weary of a dead-end conversation.