Oh My, These Days...

So, went to see Manchester Orchestra on Saturday.

What?

WHAT!? I deeeeeed! It was amazing.

Crazy.

Beautiful.

Brilliant.

Hobos every which way.

Anyway, I left Sat morning, and got to my sister's apt around 11:30ish. I tell you what! Driving 75mph in the hill country. Win. I settled in and hung out with my sister for a while. Actually, we were out in her neighborhood and she saw someone get hit by a car. Devastating. Not only was it on the day of my concert, but it just...sucked. I don't know. And so we pulled over and everyone within a 5-10 mile radius was stopping, calling 911, etc. I had to put my sister's car in park because she was frozen in shock. We actually went to another side of town to eat and everything. She lost her appetite. :( After that, she dropped me off at the show. I got there way early and the line was just barely starting. Yay! :) 

The sign by the sidewalk. I waited about an hour and a half just in line, and then, they finally let us in! We were marched in like criminals, though. Very odd, like, tickets in one hand and our other hand visible so we have our bracelets checked. All bags checked of course. Got in, and okay. I always try to get as close as possible. Just because I blog and I love being so close to the stage and almost touching the band or whoever is playing. It makes me happy, but what sucks is I was almost second row but I was right behind this very tall guy who looked so derpy. Wasn't even there for Manchester Orchestra! Was like, trying to get all of his friends up to the front, too. UGH. That happened. He moved right before MO came on. Heck to the yes. In the venue we waited for another hour and a half? I think there was something going wrong, because everyone who was helping seemed in a rush and were setting up/tearing down extra fast. I promised myself I would post this...post so I might break up my thoughts. Sorry ahead of time.

So, the bands that played:

Little Hurricane

The Dear Hunter  

White Denim

So, Lil' Hurrikane. Jk, they were like The White Stripes if they went extra alt-rock. Just a girl on drums and a guy who can't sing on guitar/'keys. Their equipment broke in the middle of the set and they had to stop and fix it. =/ Kind of sucked, but they took it in stride. I guess it has happened...before?  No, no, no! Jokeskis. Pictures!!!

They were okay, but the guy's voice really threw me off. What was weird is that I was in Pac-Sun yesterday and their song was on their store radio!! :O Getting popular!

So, The Dear And Hunter; Casey from another band formed this one and they were okay. I could see why they opened for MO. They were really similar in styles, but I wasn't really into it. I guess I was just waiting for MO and tolerating them. I am ridiculous, but yeah! Pictures/videos! 

So, my videos have to be uploaded separately and I guess I'll put it on a different post. I've been holding this on off too long. I'm sorry, fateful viewers! :( Anyways, so Dear & The Hunter was legit. Not my style, but that's okay. The next band...made me mad. So MAD! White Denim is from Austin and is a....[brace yourselves]....a jazz fusion band?! Why even are they included on a tour with MO?! No. SENSE! The whollllle crowd was just standing there waiting while they just went to town on improvisation and all of this unnecessary mess! Their set seemed extra long! To pass the time, I took some pictures:

There's that. They finally left & then it was time...

What I waited for so long. Manchester. 

It's so awesome seeing a band you love live. It's just takes you to that other level of amazement. Seeing them in real life, being so close to them and singing the words to every song just gets me. Another thing is people who are big fans or even more hxc about than me. People who travel hours to see a concert because you know they'll be around your hometown. Those people. Fans. I have respect for them, y'know? I have the setlist! <3's on my favorites and links so you can listen to them, too. :)

Deer

Pride ♥

April Fool ♥

100 Dollars ♥

My Friend Marcus

Leaky Breaks

Pensacola ♥

I've Got Friends ♥

Shake It Out ♥

I Can barely Breathe ♥

Simple Math ♥

Colly Strings

Only One ♥

Encore!

Virgin ♥ 

Everything To Nothing ♥

The River ♥

So good. Just watched the new music video for them...Virgin. What are you trying to say, MO? Hmmm! America is in the pits? Maybs. Their set not looks short. Not enough songs; two encores. :D

Pictures! Pictures! Pictures!

I really love them. Their music is so...moving. As I grow older and my music tastes change, I get it. I realize that music is not just created in one form. There are so many forms and ways to truly express how you feel. I think that music breaks all barriers. I just love it. This week is going okay, and I think I'll be okay with everything. I'm getting to know him better. We joke all the time; I don't self conscious. I feel like me. Which is always a good thing. X3 Um, I'm still looking for a job. I'm horrible at my current one. I know God will help me with that; like always. Like He always does with everything else.

Ciao for now.

♥,

Rachel

I Can't Seem To Fix These Leaky Breaks.

We built this house with our hands & our blood.

I'm seeing them tonight! <3

What, What, What, Why?

So, this week has been...a whirlwind.

My job. So, I've been doing really bad with my job and getting write-ups and what have you. I don't know what to do. I've been trying my BEST and I STILL CAN NOT MEET QUOTA! I really want to just go to the top of the cliff and scream my lungs out until I can't. So frustrating! I feel like I really don't have a choice in this because if I quit, I won't make it. No money coming in. If I get demoted, I will hate that job, and I love my co-workers. That's one of the main reasons I've stayed this long. There is a 77% turn over for this job and I can see why. What I do specifically is talk to customers who want to close out their account and let them know the benefits of staying with us. There are steps you go through to do that and you have to have a certain way of talking. Let's just say you have to be precise or else the people calling in will run you over. Just tonight run me over the edge. This lady kept just pushing.

Pushing...

I need a new job; I feel like a chicken because I'm one of the last people from my training class who have made it through. Four of us, I think. One of the girls who I talk to hates it. She can't stand it. Anyways, so it's pretty rough at times. There are a lot of cool customers you get to talk to [like the Moneyball guy!], but when you get angry customers back to back..not okay. Can't handle rage when I have nothing to do with you maxing your credit card to the limit and the interest rate on the card is high. Your fault. I've never worked at a job for a couple of months and already loathe talking to people! What?!

So, I want to add him to Facebook tonight. Kind of nervous but it's no big deal. [Yes it is! Ohgoshohgosh.]

I guess. :) I'm going to make this weekend better. The Lord is going to make it better for me because He holds the world in His hands. I'm going to trust Him just like I trusted Him with my finances. I'll give it to Him.

Santigold. FYI, they are playing Death Cab on the radio. "Cath!" What is everyone doing for Halloween? Since it falls on a Monday [lameskis!], I have to work. I may just skipskis and torture someone. Is anyone dressing up and causing trouble? My church is having a festival. Tres cute. I was thinking about some costume ideas:



Just a few ideas.

I hope you guise have a rockin' Halloween!

♥ + batwings,
Rachel!

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I don't know what to title this.

It has been a rough day at work.

I don't even...I don't even know what to think.

I work in a call center. I was never the persuasive type.

I haven't been where I'm supposed to be for a while now.

I would like to call someone but I feel like I'm interrupting something/someone.

Anything.

The boy I like works with me; if I'm asked to leave how do I tell him?

Go See It!

A Wave Collapsing You & Rushing You.

Ohh, hey friends.

I'm glad you're reading this.

This weekend flew by as always and I had to work...as always. I always make it out in the end.

With God's help.

I need to get something off my chest.

So, Friday, after work I went straight home. I didn't have any plans or much to do except for studying which is supposedly everyday. V_V Anyway, I was thinking about the guy I like and how alone I was. Call it a moment of weakness or a moment of vulnerability but a wave a sadness/depression hit all at once. I'm 22 and I've never had a boyfriend, a guy to kiss me, a date, or anything of the sorts? I can't help but think is there something wrong with me? I could blame it on where I lived, but my friends have boyfriends and guys who like them. I felt utterly helpless. It was such a random moment too. It came out of left field. I know I've been here since early 2011, but sometimes I get impatient, anxious with myself and God. I don't know what He has in store but I hope a guy comes around soon. When I think it about more, in all of my years a guy has never even asked me out. [Creepers and weirdos don't count. It has to be equal interest.] I seriously don't understand. Maybe you have some advice, readers & friends? I am at a loss.

♥, me

Stay For A While.

very good things coming very soon.

I might be starting a series of interviews with some magnificent people.  

I saw that I had 3,330 views on here.

Thank you, thank you so much. <3 

I can't believe my blogspace is 1 year old and people actually read this.

My words carry some importance. :) That makes me happy.

I was also thinking about another idea; maybe getting some of the women from my church to form some sort of fashion page on fb for women/girls/cool chicks of like faith or just people in general who have misconceptions of us. 

♥,

Rachel!

Misinformed.

Whispers, chants, and phrases spill out.
The rain beats a steady rhythm.
I feel a lot older than I look.
The years of toiling have take its toll.
You still aren't mine.
You walk freely unaware of what your future holds.
Unaware of me.

A Brand New Horizon.

God can use you in such a mighty way.

Thursday. I woke up early. Way earlier than I am used to, and I turn on my phone because for some reason I can't get back to sleep. I see all of these messages waiting on me and then a message from a friend who I haven't talked to in nearly a month. He was asking how I was doing, and I said good. Then, he told me he lost his job. They just let him go without warning that morning. I so know how unemployment feels. God told me to pray for him. I told God, "Whyyyy me, Lord? I haven't talked to this fool in weeks! He just ups and texts me. Nooo." I felt like Jonah. Running, running, running away. The burden for the prayer was so strong I had to do it. You always need to follow the will of God. No matter what. No matter how you feel. So, I called him and left a vmail. For half an hour we played phone tag until he called me back. I told him I called because the Lord wanted me to pray with him. He was SO stoked. Like, seriously. It was crazy how excited he was. So, I went ahead and did that and he started crying really bad. He was amazed at how we were different faiths but God used me. He is Mormon and I'm Pentecostal. A month and a half ago I gave him a scripture about not selling the truth and I told him, "Dude, don't follow non-truth, especially when you know what's right." He insists that's where he should be right now, but no one at his church prayed for him. No one fellowships with him and he told me flat out he needed more Christian friends. To uplift you; it made me get in perspective because I DO have family and friends who believe like me. It was must be hard going through life without anyone. Also, like, I think there is some sore of atmosphere between us because I told him about the old guy who asked me out who lives next door and he wanted to kick him in the throat. =/ I...thought that was hilarious. Anyway, he asked me if I thought of him that way since he is 11 years older than me. I said no, because they are two different people. I think that he wants to say something to me, but doesn't know how. I could be reading way into this like I always do, but something is different about this guy. I'm going to try to ignore it. HMMM! Anyway, he is doing better and I'm praying for a better job for him. A week away is school!! Can't. Wait! I invented a flash mob for my town, and we're doing our first event next Thursday! Heck yeah!! :D

♥,
Rachel

My Heartbeat, My Life.

Was thrifting today. I didn't find much. =/
I had a dream that I was writing in my blog. Maybe it was a sign? School is starting soon and I can't wait. I really missed it. I like work; I do, but going back to school and getting back on track is going to be good for me. Plus..now I don't feel so anxious about how I transferred. I don't feel old or ridiculously embarrassed. Gold & blue!

♥,
Rachel!

Picture Perfect.

What's up? :)

So, I'm only working and thinking about when school starts. I still have no internet at home so I make my trek to the library or the cool coffee shop part of Hastings. They play The Decemberists and Tegan/Sara. Win. At work, I talk to people all day long. It's a call center. Thursday. I was really thinking about what if an actor calls in? Little did I know that's just what happened. Mr. Toy? Okay, has a credit card obvs. Is going to be in this movie called Moneyball starring Brad Pitt and Jonah Hill? Wow, I was amazed. This is a little of how our conversation went.

MT- "Thank you so much for helping me with my credit card information! I needed to change my address because I live in San Francisco and I'm on location for a movie!"

R- "What? Oh really? What movie?"

MT- "I'm going to be a pitcher in this movie called Moneyball, and it stars Brad Pitt! It's shooting in LA and I'm over there right now. The reason why I live in San Fran is because it's 5 hours away if I'm needed to go there. I can't live in LA because everyone is too spaced out!! But you should SO go see it!"

R- "WHAT?!!? OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG, heck yes I will! That is sooooo awesome! I can't believe it! Woah, so is Brad and Jonah nice people?!!!"

MT- "Totally."

So, yeah, that's how our conversation went. He was so nice and I am still in shock of why that guy has a credit card anyway. :D Good stuff. They are looking into moving me into another department, though. It's taking me too long to pick up the flow of things. As long as I don't get fired, I'm fine but I'm already comfy with my co-workers. I seriously like everyone a lot and it would be a bummer to leave. I guess I can add them on facebook or something. =/ We'll see how this week goes. I'm going home week after next and I can't wait. I really miss my family. I think that's the worst about living 7 hours away is that they're not close by. School is coming up very soon, so I told myself I'd go see them before then. I def want to do it. Also, God has been dealing with me lately. I had a scripture for my friend today.

"Buy the truth and sell it not." Prov 23:23

I let him know, but those words speak a lot of truth. Never stray or settle for something that is partial truth when you know in your heart it's wrong. You have to set that standard. Jesus did it for us. He didn't half way die on the cross. He gave his life for us; the least we can do is serve him fully. That goes for me too; one of my favorite band's lead singers was potentially a satanist. No, I can't just let it go. I have actually been avoiding the issue, but I know I can't string along forever. Something has got to give. I hope everyone who reads this has a very blessed week, and has fun for the rest of summer! W0000t! Let's get it, guise!
byeeeeeeeee

♥,
Rachel!


PS: So you know I wasn't telling a story! The movie poster:

Doing work in the streets.

#58: I don't feel old, I feel alive.

I Have A Few Quips & Qualms.

Hello, jello!

So I was thinking about my size and everything. My friend, Kat was once a bigger girl and now she has lost weight. It's kind of crazy how we instantly connected and everything. I love how she is always on the same wavelength as me no matter what. When you examine both of our lives we are totally on different paths, ages, and times in our lives. But that's all God, because I seriously couldn't ask for a better friend in a new place. A new town and I have someone who is there for me. Not only that, her family is so cute! Her husband likes me a lot, and I like him too! He's so great and so are her 5 kids. Count it! Insane in the membrane, but they do it. All day, everyday. So, this weekend I vowed to finally put this plan into action and interview her.





1. When did you initially start gaining weight and noticing it?
When my parents got a divorce, I started really gaining weight. I went through jr. high and high school. During high school I lost weight, but then when I had my first child I gained a lot of weight. By 20 years old, I was miserable.

2. How was day-to-day?
I took it out on the ones I loved. My husband then took it on me by making me feel so small so I then lived vicariously through my daughter.

3. For a lot of bigger women, the dating scene is pretty ridiculous. Even for me, it's pretty unbearable, how did you deal with it?
I got pregnant in high school, so I really didn't have to deal with dating as a women in her twenties. I also got married quickly afterward, so dating didn't phase me really.

4. So, what life like after you started losing weight?
I felt empowered. I was in control; not food. I felt like I could face the world again. I saw a change in how people treated me. It was odd, but I knew it was because I was smaller.

5. How did your family react to this big change in your life?
They were supportive in everything that I did. I really appreciate and love them.

6. Do you tell other bigger people about your story and your life?
I won't go out and project it to just anyone. Only people who ask for advice on it. I don't just assume people who are big are struggling with their weight. That can get in you in trouble.



So, I finally got this flippin' interview DONE! I'm ridiculous. The point behind this whole entry was to show everyone that you never know about people's past. This lady...if you saw her in the street, you'd never know. She carries herself well. I think that we all need to take a step back and reassess the situation at hand. With bigger people [myself included] people kind of assume we're miserable. I don't know, I'm not. People constantly push their opinions on what I should do about my horrible weight. Whatever. I say whatevs because I know who I am. I do. I'm 21, and a college student. The world is at my fingertips. Sooooo, yeah. And I'm sorry that it took weeks to finish this up. I'm a hot mess.

♥♥♥ you!

Rachel!

#57 I'm baaaack.