I'm Crazy For Tu.

Hey guys.


Easy peasy week this time around. This is random and pretty much not blogworthy, but I haven't had pain in my teeth at all. Woohoo, hoo, hoo, hoo! My friend is making me a mixtape! So excited! I want new music. I'm in discovery mode; I totally want a mixtape made for me. My other cooler friend made me an excellent mixtape and it was totes for me. It had this really rad song on it and I was hardcore relating to it. -___- There was this song about moving out west that I just couldn't stop listening to. Here it is. It's so sweet in the most sweetest way. Go ahead. Go aheaaad. :) 


That's my squinty understanding face. -___- Relatable!


So, yeah, she is so awesome and I love her so much! She did a great jorb on that. I want more now! Muhahahah! Lame.


Okay. so I have been watching a whole lot more Youtube lately. I just suddenly got into to hxc and I'm totes looking into making a video channel. This girlie girl & I were looking into making one together but she has so much on her plate right now...she could guest star on mine! One thing that's stopping me is my camera skills. Youtubers want people with skills! Gosh! I am terrible at pictures and video. Like..a baby trying to hold it steady. Not okay. Here are some of my favorite channels & links:


ONE!
TWO!
THREE!
FOUR!
CINCO!
SIX!
SEVEN!
EIGHT!
NINE!


Enjoy that. I've been watching them nonstop. I'm not even kidding. Ran my whole iPod batt down. 
Also, my sister and her friends made a Spanish practicing blog and group at school and I'm shamelessly asking all of you [yes, you!] to check it out. I think that they are on a good track with this and it will be helpful for people learning Spanish! Here is the link to their blog & Facebook. :) Great things ahead! They are super legit!


I am house sitting and it's sort of weird being in a house alone at night! My apt is old and it creeks but every sound I hear I kind of perk up. Heh. Even when the dog moves around I listen for his dog collar to jingle. I'm not easily spooked, but you need to be sure.

We'll laugh along with the better weather. 


♥,
Rachel


PS: I am counting down until fall. So burnt. Tired of 100 degree weather everyday. :(

Upside Down & Right Side Up!

Wooooo!

Too long, guys. 

Hey:

Now that I've lost you to the weather,

I need to pull my laces real tight.

It's been a while since I've seen this...scenery.

Can your memory recall like mine?

Of course not.

I can remember 

every

single

detail

of 

you

Why?

Why do I do this to myself knowing...

steadfastly knowing that we didn't persevere.

Let me dive into the big blue, 

and let my hair get tangled in the waves.

Je ne veux pas de respirer votre parfum comme le parfum de la pluie.

It's been a long time coming; I've been thinking about writing for like...two weeks? I just haven't sat myself down and forced myself to write. I don't know what is wrong with me. Sorry for the lapse in entries. I'm lame; I know. =/// Freewriting is so liberating! I love it! :) I am going to post another poem here. This is a bit special; it's a joint one my friend & I did together a while back. I thought it was amazing but he wanted to proofread his part. Not letting him! Bam!

"My Part, Your Part"

Me:

Rain soaked.

You won't let me in.

I just need a safe haven for now.

Don't be like this.

Knock.

1

2

3 times.

I won't shout again.

I won't say all the unsaid things,

or try to get you to show your emotion.

The rain is terrible and unending.

I shudder from the inside.

Your arms were never enough, so you let me go.

Please stop listening and open this God forsaken door, I know you are there.

Him:

I sat out in the rain once,
underneath an oak tree
while the lightning made the sky
a brilliant mass of indecision.

Every door locks for a reason,
to keep the bad from invading us at night.
I am not in the mood
to discuss which of us needs to stay out.

Remember that movie about liberty and Texas
where they draw a line on the ground
and the loyal stand behind it?
I've already walked across,
please go?

Me:

You speak of another time and place.

I was not disloyal, but complacent of the black and white.

The wild yonder is for everyone, not just some.

Just like the shadows grow with each sundown,

my patience grows thin.

You were once so mighty.

I hear your breaths, against this obtrusive door.

A man, that once was a boy you have grown up and I have stood still.

I am curious of who this man is.

I have not met him.

Mind blocks have a way of appearing when I think of us.

Our beautiful and ugly times together.

How strange it was to hold your hand, and stroke your golden hair.

My fingertips are tingling from the old sensation now.

I grow cold and weary.

There will be nothing left of me but empty words soon.

And a locked door.

Him:

I remember one time I think it was
when we visited Paris and you
bought a hat from a vender on the Champs
that you grabbed my hand and said
nothing meant more to you than
I think you said all the little moments
that add together to be big moments
and keep compounding until they become
something real I guess all these moments
have finally become real
the rain that is covering you right now as
you stand on my porch knocking on my door
listening to my breath as I debate should I open it
and finally decide no that the best thing
for both you and I is to leave everything
the way it is now because we have it
so perfect this way so perfect with our
loneliness I think this is the only way
I want to live perfectly alone with myself
without the need to worry if you are safe
or scared or alone no I am lying I do not
want you to be alone but I do not want
you here did you know that there are
many fish in the sea I think Dr Seuss said that
or maybe not but it is almost true
one fish red fish two fish blue fish
and please note that none of those were
sad miserable fish that refuses to open the door
so please leave sad miserable fish alone
to his own grand delusions and when
your finger tips tingle can you please
I beg of you go find one of those red fish.

Me:

That hat is hidden in my closet,

just like the words in my heart were hidden. Until that fateful day.

The snow is still covering the land

and I have not yet reaped a cold harvest.

Many colored fish litter the street,

trying to find the ocean that we once were.

Rain pours all over me, better than you did.

I want to be the right end of the pencil and erase,

start over and make a genuine history.

Sadness becomes you but does not make you strong.

We are first hand witnesses to loneliness. I want to..

I want it to..

Stop.

In exchange for happiness and joy.

For a chance to experience instead of spectate.

My knuckles are bleeding and your neighbors think I'm crazy.

Think what they will, I can't let you stand there and let time pass.

Open your door.

Open your heart.

To me.

I promise to release the words and secrets behind your lips.

And the director yells, "Action."

Him:

I've been sitting here for three weeks now debating
with myself should I answer should I answer
the letter you put under my door that night
you came here I guess this reply is an answer
I am sorry you were drenched by the rain sorry
I am so damn sad all the time and I don't
answer your knocks or answer your calls it's all
too much you think our life is a movie
and I am the antagonist and you are the damsel in distress
well who is your hero going to be because I think we know
it won't ever be me we're just too far away from the center
of things to make it back inside.

Me:

I take a step forward, and you take a step back.
Always how it was.
That is how it always will be.
You're right, maybe I am looking too far into this,
I don't want to be your pity case,
or your subject of query.
I resent my hasty words; I am a woman of action and
too many times I have used my impulse on you.
You make a somber point, and now as I look back at that
moment...
I cringe.
Don't take this as my white flag.
Do not see this as my forfeit.
I just see the end of the tunnel, and the lights of
an oncoming train.
I will never forget you;
your dizzying intellect.
And your.
Red fish.

Him:

Is that it is this over is this an end
I should have expected it already
but it takes me by surprise completely
if this is goodbye then so be it
if this is regret then so be it
if this is how I will live the rest of my life like
a shell then so be it so be it so be it
so be it, so be resentment and so be pity
so be something please so be something more
than this than I than anything before
so be it.

Yeaaah, so hopefully you guys like it. :D It's been almost two years since I've even read it. I don't know why it took me so long. Also, July is almost here and I seriously want to start at a radio station. Something is holding me back; anxiety. I mean, I feel really inadequate. I know that's not me normally but it's been weird the past few weeks. I don't know what it is, but I want it gone. Also, I may have food reflux! Yay! The past few days I've been having the feeling of choking or throwing up with no upset stomach so my mom thinks it's that. At least it isn't acid reflux. Horrible! You can't eat late at night with reflux so maybe my weight will go down? Or maybe it's a sign to stop eating so much. I don't even know but I totally want to avoid any flux. Of any kind. I can't believe 2012 is almost over. We are halfway there and that's insane. I'll write more soon.

♥,

Rachel

Falling Like Dominoes.

So I came home this week.

The family reunion was good. It was a bit awkward for me, but I think it's because all of my uncles and their families weren't familiar. Anyway, I met one of my cousins for the first time. His name is James, and he was really nice. He added me on fb...it was really cool to get to know all of our family. It is so hot here. I don't know which heat I like more or can stand. T___T They are both terrible in my opinion. I forgot how far away things are here. I was staying in a small town and we traveled all the way to the Houston area. 2 hours driving. Not. Cool. I don't know how normal people commute. No fun. Anyway, how are you doing, internet? :)

It's taking me foreverrr to finish my post. Fail. So, this is the first day of school and I got home from...home safely. I'm ridiculous, but I had a lot of fun. Yesterday, church was amazing. We were all over the place. It's just awesome how God works in our lives. Also, one of my friends started coming, too! She is so faithful to church, and it makes my heart glad. Y'know? I've been getting into making onigiri and everything Japanese. I am in love with their culture. While I was down, my besties and I went to a Japanese store called Fit. It was greattt! One of the girls working there liked my satchel. C: What can I say? I just have great taste. Jkjk! I want to post some pics, but for now I'll leave you with this cute picture! 

♥,

Rachel!

PS: I'm excited because my teacher is so cute. Score! ;D 

 

UggggghhhhhhH

Oh my GOSH! FIRETRUCK! My bottom wisdom teeth are moving around. So much pain. :( 

They aren't even in, they're just moving under the surface. Causing a riot down there! UGH!!!

I'm sorry I haven't been updating. School is out and I don't know what to do with myself. Next weekend I'm going to a family reunion at home. It's going to be a weird feeling going back to a place you've left behind. 

I've been trying to dress better. :) My sister is helping me. She came to visit last week. It was mega fun. 

Why is it that I am in such pain!??! Ora-Gel does nothing. 

:(

Goodnight guys.

♥ + toothpaste,

Rachel

PS: Good stuff soonskis. Pinky promise. ♥

Watch Me Live & Thrive.

Hay cool cats!

Still not a cool intro, but whatevs. Love it or hate it!

Maybe it's because I'm insanely not busy or just stupid lazy but I haven't been blogging and I'm sorrry. I was trying to write that like a Canadian. =/ SORRY!! To make it up to you guys, here is some pictures!! 

Paul Ruddd!  ♥  I don't care if you are 41. I'd love you forevs. 

So, I've been making bows and bows and bows. I love them and I know that I am 22, but seriously! They are adore!! :3 I can cross off red lipstick on my bucket list. ;) 

What do you guys think? Some people say black women can't wear red lipstick, but I feel they can! It looks okay to me. I know that lighter skinned black women do it, and I see some odd colors, too! Like, lavender or lime green! Just because you are light skinned doesn't mean anything! I mean, I don't wear red lipstick everyday but if I was into make-up, I would have it as a staple in my lipstick collection. I haven't been wearing much of any lipwear. =/ Even my lip gloss! When I was high school, I wore it constantly! No. Joke. I've just shied away from it. I'm not trying to go for a certain look or anything...I just don't wear it. Also! I was not even going by the yearly lipgloss throw away rule! Then, one day I really looked at them and noticed that they were utterly disgusting. More than one had my hair on it. GROSSS! You can throw up now. D: Yeaaah so I totes threw them away; even the Lip Rush ones from Victoria's Secret. 

Btw, have any of you bought the PINK body sprays? Those suckers are good. I bought a mini one in Jan, and I am almost out. :S It smells reallly...normal. Fresh and rich. 8 bucks well spent. Anyways! So I have less than 5 tubes of lipgloss. I bought this Tokidoki lipgloss in Feb of last year and I refuse to let it go. It was like 15 bucks! I'm such a cheapo, but I love it. Maybe I will take a picture of it and show you. It's my least fave color and flavor. Hot pink bubblegum and it's very gloopy and sticky. I only use it for special occasions. ;) Last weekend my brother and his fiance came up here to visit my mom! :) It was really fun, and they also visited my church!!! Sunday's service was such an amazing...thing. I don't even know how to describe it! All I can say is that it was wonderful. My mom was really happy. :)  THIS WEEK IS FINALS AND I CAN'T WAIT TO BE OUT OF SCHOOL FOR A COUP WEEKS, DUDESSSS!!!! 

I only have 3 finals and two of them are tomorrow/today. So good. My music final is 200 questions. O_____O Out of ctrl. Why?! I realllly hope that he doesn't mess them up. I recently turned in a song review and got a high C. I was thinking I would fail, but yeah! And I got an A on my CD review!! S c o r e. I don't even have the textbook.

Now, this chem test is diff. It's going to be a struggle. This will be my last science class. Ever!

I signed up for summer and fall; things are looking good. Everything has fallen into place and I have God to thank for that. I have been on Youtube watching people vlog and I so want to do that. I think I am sort of interesting! Maybe I can put up a poll and leave it to you guys to decide. I've never done anything like this and it should be funskis! I don't know if I could do it daily like some of the people I watch. :S They make a living out of it. Legit. I'm just looking to have fun. Shocking news tonight; the leadsinger of Against Me is becoming a woman?! INSANE! He is not even gay; just thinks he was born in the wrong body. Like, wow. I was shocked. Left. Field! I'll link the newsstory. :O This world is in trouble.

I am not a hxc fan, but I do like some stuff from them! My friend stopped in the middle of the road! She reallly listens to them. Shocker!! 2012!

I just think of his wife and child. You know? How is it going to affect his kid in her life? What do you say to your friends and classmates? 

Kind of sad.

...

Enough of that! Summer is here and today and yesterday it rained! It feels so good. I love the grey skies! 

On Memorial Day, I'm going home for a family reunion and I think it will be really great. My sister & I will carpool down and I want to stay for a couple days. I just want to see everyone and just relax. I mean, compared to a lot of people in school, I have had an easy semester but it only slowed down after dropping that phys class.

I am fine, I am fine, I just need 100 dollars!

Tomorrow is going to be awesome.

♥,

Rachel!

PS: 

11. to wear red lipstick

12. write/perform a song for a dozen people

13. to have several different hairstyles

14. to grow in God

15. deep sea dive

16. to walk the streets of New York

17. be in a big musical

 Teehe! 

I also think that charlieissocoolike is super cute. His English accent doesn't help the cause.  He is pictured above with his hair pulled sooo far back. Also! I tried to put floral fabric on my oxfords! Please excuse my nappy as ever hair! Don't you just love my scowl in the gif? 10/10.

Big Oppertunity! :D

Hellooo out there!

It's been a while so I guilted myself into updating! It's weird with me, I dread starting to write but when I do start an entry, I can't stop. I have to cut myself off and end it. Not. Ramble! I do that a lot. This is ridiculous, but I am back! DUDE IT'S MAY ALREADY!! Goodness! I am up to no good as usual but really! Exciting things happening! I took those app tests and I prayed about this career thing. I had a dream a week and a  half ago about this lady who works at the college showing me info on the communications and music and said that I could really do both! Then I woke up. Haha, so I took that as a sign to do something in one of those two areas. I picked communications! 

I'm going to be a radio DJ!  Yay! :) So, yesterday, I went to get advised and really see what classes I needed and didn't need and all the classes for summer and fall lined up so good. Honestly, I prayed in the car on the way that all of my classes I've done line up with my new degree because I don't want to go backwards or anything. =/ I'm done with taking kiddy classes! When we looked at my transcript, the lady was actually impressed. That's really new for me because when I go get advised for nursing, the advisor is always like, "Oooh, okay do you want to maybe take this? I don't see you applying for the program right now...maybe wait a semester?" 

Dumb! I'm not ignorant, I'm just struggling, k? I'm happy that she was impressed by my grades. I've been so down about the whole thing and I have felt really really small. So, I am majoring in communications and I'm minoring in...music! I thought that was crazy because I dreamed that about both. Every class I want was open and fell into place. All God. I know this is where I should be. I know it will be hard work, but I think with me enjoying the work, it won't be so stressful. So, I still need to put up pictures of my bows I've made and my new "floral" oxfords. Dudes, those floral patches are already fraying. -___- Gosh. My friend is graduating and I am moving on. Oh, and I bought this:

 A red wig! I know that I am black and normally black people can't have natural red hair! I knowwww, but I don't care. I love it. At first, I thought it was a regret purchase, but now that I'm wearing it and stuff. I really like it. I love the color, and I feel like Ariel in this! 2012 Ariel! Heheheee, I think I can scratch off one of my things on the bucket list. Ooh! I also bought some red lipstick but I can't find it! It's lost! =/ I sincerely think I threw it away by accident or my mom did. I pretty sure she doesn't like that I had it. Oh well. Old. Enough. Not a kid anymore. Hmmm, so it's so weird having long hair. It actually frames my face as you can see in the picture. Ha! I'm anxious to put it on Facebook because I will get flack for it. I totes will. One more thing about my major, since I'm going to be volunteering at a radio station this summer, the lady told me about this class that is also an internship! I thought that was so rad!! I def want to do that! Inside of my rad hair the cap has lace. Those Chinese are so cute. :3 

Still making those mixtapes! I can make one tonight, but no one has said anything about them? Are they that lame? =( 

Let's see...this Memorial Day I'm going down to where I used to live for a family reunion! It's been a lonnng time since I've been down and all of my siblings, aunt, and uncles, etc will be there. Dad asked if Leah & I would sing...that will be a piece of cake. He booked us a hotel room suite! Crazy! Here's to living it up for two daize! Going to make a gif, I'll see you on the flip side!

♥,

Rachel!

Mums The Word!

Heeeeey!

So, tomorrow I was going to go to Abilene to go thrifting! Well, my mom got sick at work today and so...she is resting.

She is going to be a trooper and go work tomorrow. She asked me if she gets sick to pick her up from work. Which means...

No Abilene. =/ This isn't a grumpy post! I guess it wasn't in the stars!

Psh, anyways. My screen bled right where I'm typing so I don't know if I have a spelling mistake! Whoops! So, tonight, I will be doing my third mixtape! I hope you guys are liking them? Are you? Let me know in the comments! :) Maybe I can change it or do something rad. So, tomorrow with the Ab trip canned, I'll probably just roam around SA and study it up for my test tomorrow. I guess me not going is for the best because I'm all over here acting like I don't have a math test tomorrow! Bam! Currently, I've been deleting songs from my iTunes. I just was thinking...if I skip the song everytime it comes on my iPod...why have it? So, I've been just deleting a lot of music. Almost whole albums. Feels good. I think also my taste is maturing. I never thought I would grow up musically! It happens to the best of us, I guess. 

Seriously, if I could get a job in making mixtapes for the world, I would do just that. Also, I was thinking...is there a job called music researcher? For instance, if there a pop culture show and they needed the information on the subject. Who does that? I think I'll Google it. =/ That would be an awesome job! I love reading up on music/pop culture history! 

Hmmm. I made two polka-dot bows right before church and I secured my Peter Pan collar! I love itttt!! :D Giddy with excite over here! Playlist time!

OMG, MOVING PICS! THIS IS SOOOO AWESOME!!! 

This will be changing everything.

♥,

Rachel!

Can You Get Me On Your Mind?

Hey guys! :) 

It's been 13 days since I posted and I am in dire need of writing to you tonight. Really form my thoughts in a creative way and give them to you. So! The last few weeks have been going by so fast. I mean, the speed of light, I feel. I just want everything to s l o w  d o w n. I still haven't found a major that I would like to study...but! On Friday, I did take two personality/career tests at school. I think this will help me and I want to share my results. First of all, with my personality, I have the code ENFP mainly which is a person who is warm, enthusiastic and imaginative. They make connections between events and info very quickly; readily gives appreciation to people and  is spontaneous and flexible. So, what is weird is I tested that but the first two letters were close to the middle. So, if I tested on Thursday, it could've been a whole different code (i.e. ISFP, INFP, and ESFP). I read those descriptions and seriously guys...all four of those sound like me. I went with ENFP. So, for job categories that would suit my personality this is how it ranks [only doing a top ten because of how much data there is]:

Personal Care and Service 

Art, Design, Media, etc. 

Community and Social Services

Food Prep [?]

Education, Library Sciences, and Training

Sales and Advertising

Health Care Practitioner and Technical Occupations

Health Care Support

Farming, Fishing, and Forestry

Office Administrative Support

Some of these made sense but farming and sales did not. At all! I would never be a farmer! Listening to country music on my John Deer tractor. No. Not ever. Also, education. I don't like kids and I'm way awkward with them. Seriously bad with them, and I would hate being a teacher. I know this is just options for what I could do, but still. No. Sales! I got let go from a sales job! Noooooo, no. Anyway, I wasn't surprised to see two categories of health care on my top ten. I knew I wasn't  just randomly picking a major when I did nursing. You guys...you don't even know how much I sat down and thought if nursing was for me. If I could jump from basic classes to the clinic setting I'd do it in a heartbeat. Skip all the messy, lame science/math classes associated with nursing and the program itself and just graduate. Of course that would be impossible. =/ 

I digress...

So, wasn't surprised to see media, and art. Now, for number one to be personal care was weird. Like, I'm most like a child care provider??

Kids.

So, this is my list of jobs that would I most likely enjoy:

craft artist

actor/perfoming artist/dancer

photographer

forester

musician/singer

clinical/counseling/psychologist

mental health counselor

fitness trainer

bartender

artist/visual artist

This wasn't as bad. I could see myself doing some of these jobs. Forester...no. Musician? Yes, def! So, this does give me a lot to think about. I feel good that it's going to steer in the right direction. I know God is with me and with Him all things are possible! :D 

With the other test, it was purely personality and what I would good at compared to other women in the US. Okay, my theme for this one was CAR.

Conventional = likes order and systems of organization

Artistic = self expression and all that jazz

Realistic = more into data and computers

With my theme of CAR in mind, compared to all the women, here is my top five interest categories:

office management

healthcare services

religion and spirituality

management

writing and mass communication

I was shocked that management was even on there. I never pictured myself telling people what to do. I don't like being told what to do in work setting, so to see it twice on my list is crazy. Seriously. 

It breaks it down further in each of those categories, but it's pretty much the same. 

Here is my top ten jobs according to THIS test:

food service manager

bookkeeper

farmer/rancher

paralegal

retail sales rep

nursing home admin

housekeeping/maintenance manager

licensed practical nurse

production worker

admin assistant 

So, farmer is on there AGAIN!

What. In. The. World!! Not even into agriculture. Weirdos. Let's see, so legal work. Lawyer came up on my lists. Another job I've never considered. My counselor said that it would be like this. Some jobs are so left field and you would never consider it. Since it is a test, it's not definite. I know when I took it I chose answers based on intuition. I didn't give myself time to think about it. I'm glad that I took those tests. It really gave me a new perspective. Most of the art stuff I knew I would score high on. I am really into creating and making new things. Also, music. I love it. Obvious. I just worry that my love for all of these things won't support me. I want to be happy financially, too. I know the Lord is looking over my shoulder as I write this. I know He is here in SA. With me. I just need to do a leap of faith. :)

So, besides all of that I know this summer I will be doing volunteer work. So far, I know I want to work at a radio station and see if I like it. I don't know what else I would do...what I want to do is look at my results and form a list of majors I could do. I also have to keep in mind what my school has. Like, I want to be a costume designer...ASU doesn't even have a fashion department. =///

I def don't want to transfer so I will be working with what I have here in good ole SA!

I feel so serious! This was such a sciencey, lifey entry. Oooh! Ease on up. 

I bought a glue gun and I have been making my own hair bows! Since my sewing machine is broken, I figured out how to make cute stuff with glue! On Saturday I made bows and I finally made my oxfords into floral oxfords! Yay! Pictures soon! Also, good news about my hair! It's always been sooo short and if I try to put it up, it takes like one bobbypin. So! I wanted to put a bow in the back of my head with my hair up! Couldn't do it with one clip! So happy! It's growing! Right now, it's at the nape of my neck. :) Tee hehe!

God is so good. We've been having awesome services too and I am promising myself to buckle down and really give it my all. I don't want to play church anymore. Or start. Ever.

I hope you are enjoying the week. It's already the middle of it! Too fast, 2012!

♥ in waves,

Rachel!

PS: You can totally Google those personality types if you have no clue what I'm talking about.

At The Sound of The Chalk You Dropped On The Floor.

I am in the process of making a Peter Pan collar. I want to get it done tonight, but you never know how lazy I might get. I slept most of the afternoon, so I feel good! Also, I watched Never Been Kissed this afternoon and I teared up a bit! I so knew where Drew Barrymore's character was coming from! I think everyone can relate to that. It sucks being the ugly duckling! I never wanted to be popular, but in school I was always overlooked!

We share the same past, Drew! Also, this guy. He is so handsome! When I first saw the movie, I thought so, and I still do. :) Just his face is so good looking. I'm still on my rampage through Futurama. Hehehe, and I can't finish Pasta. I don't know what it is about me, maybe because I don't want it to end, or whatever, but I haven't watched the last half of episode 20. 

Stalling.

Oh well, it's always going to be online, and I know I'll watch it one of these days. I am also going to paint my nails/give myself a mini-manicure! My nails look rough! The water here is so mineralized [not even a word!], it tears UP my cuticles. =/ Hard water. No fun. When I first came here I broke out in a rash because I wasn't used to it.

Rashy shoulders! Mm. :) Moving on, my hair is growing! It was ear length, now the back part is past the nape of my neck! Eeee, thank you, Jesus! 

Totes praying about it. YEAH, EISLEY!

Really fun! I rode the bus with my sister and it wasn't bad at all. I could do the Metro. She hasn't been to a lot of concerts so she wasn't used to standing for long periods of time. The first act was Christie DuPree, and her brother, Colin. They were really good. I think they've gotten better. They even had a back up band. Next was a band called Marksmen, but they changed their name during tour into something I couldn't even get what he said. He told us twice. Anyway, so the lead singer was bridging the gap between us, and on the last song he jumps in the audience and while everyone was back up and splitting, Leah froze up! In the middle of his path, and so he's like, "Having a good time?" 

No where to go! So so funny! Their band wasn't that good. Like a newb Manchester. Not my style. The drummer on the other hand was very cute. :) He had high cheekbones, so we nicknamed him that. Cheekbones. ♥! Hahaha, it was a blast. Still surprised my sister came! After "Marksmen"...

Eisley!!!

The girls were all beautiful like always! Here's the setlist!

Smarter

Lights Out

The Valley

Better Love

Marvelous Things

New Song**

Many Funerals

Watch it Die

Please

Sad 

Oxygen Mask

I Could Be There For You ♥

Mr. Moon

I Wasn't Prepared

Golly Sandra

Ambulance

Deep Space

Encore:

192 days

I Wish

Such a good show. :) I just enjoy concerts. Here's a pic of my list of stuff I'm interested in:

I was thinking about being a costume designer. Not for plays, but to dress actors/actresses for movies and music videos and things like that. I know that you have to start at the bottom, but I would do that.

Dude, totes would. 

Thank you guys for all of your lovely comments. I appreciate them so much! And Magi...you're one awesome girly.

Off to DIY!

♥,

Rachel!

Tricks & Trades.

Hello, hello! 

So, I randomly made this wish list. I have no clothes! That was a joke because my clothes are overflowing my three tiered plastic Yaffa like drawers. Come to think of it, I've had those for a while. Now, on the bright side, I have been giving away stuff. :) I feel good giving to people who have not. 

It's kind of awk to come up from a serious post. I know the last time I wrote was kind of serious and life changing.

...

That hasn't changed. I still need to figure what to do. I will. With God's help. For now, here's my wish list. 

I finally downloaded two No Doubt albums. No good so far. I guess my singles collections picked out the gems from their discog and put them on that CD. X3

 

I'll ttyl!

Tricks & Trades. by rachellong featuring floral oxford shoes

♥,

Rachel!

 

Reality Strikes! Hard! So hard!

Hello, everyone!

:)

So, big news and boring news. Just kidding. It feels like it's been too long, but it hasn't been. No way!! Mid way through the semester, and I'm so happy about that. I'm sure that all the kids skipping classes are too. Like, it's pretty bad. Poor. Attendance! What is my teacher going to do? 

Fail you. Sucks.

Not me, though! I always burn the midnight oil, but I make sure to attend class. You always miss something and my teacher has a tendency to give quizzes every week. Every Friday to be exact. You know I'm all in my seat on time. I can't miss a class. 

That's the boring news. So, I've been getting into several fashion items lately! First of all, trouser socks!

Adorable! I love them! I went to Wal-Mart and got a 5 dollar pack! Look at meeeee!

In one of my favorite textures! Polka dots! Okay, so dots are so so popular right now, and I couldn't be more happier! So, like stuff that I've always loved and wanted to see in stores have came into the light. By stuff, I mean fabrics, textures, and styles. Here's a list of things that I remember have been popular in the past decade:

• plaid!
• polka dots!
• lace!
• punk style/DIY style!
• Native American gear [waiting forever!!]

Yeah! That's right! So, here's to the future and seeing dark blues everywhere. I seriously want an ombre dark blue-to-white infinity scarf. Tomorrow! I'm going to Austin at noon to see this radical band:

EISLEYYYYY!!!

For the 2nd time! My sister is going with me! I couldn't believe my ears when she said she was going along! Good times, and I promptly sent her links to my favorite songs. :D Teehee!!! I can't wait. It's going to be fun! So cheap, too! 16 bucks. 

Tegan & Sara were 44. T___T Why are Canadians so expensive?

JK.

When I was at my sister's I went to F21 and bought these cute things:

Bows & I finally have a braided headband again. :') It's been too long. My Native American one broke. In my hands. Catastrophic. Also, I bought the beautiful glass sprays from Victoria Secret. I think that the bottles make them more pretty and different than just the bigger plastic spray bottles. They look like this:

Sheer Love smells so good. Teehe! And I got Pure Seduction. Best. Smells. Ever.

Remember when I submitted to this site? Well, here I am!!!

Alllll, in it. I am finally glad I had the guts to submit on there. 

The serious news. I dropped my Physiology class today because I wasn't doing good at all. It's my second time taking it and I just wanted to make a high enough grade for the nursing program. So, I talked to my adviser for next semester and this summer and I asked her this: "Should I apply for this program?"

....

I am going to change majors. It has been a long, hard road for me. I feel like I'm going in circles with nursing. I'm terrible at science and math and it's been an uphill battle ever since I started. I thought this was the way. I thought this was it for me. So wrong. I spent 4 years being something I'm not. A nurse, that is. It's going to be hard to give up this ghost quickly. I dropped phys this morning, and when I got home I dumped all of my papers and lab notes from the past semesters. Honestly, it felt so good. I feel the burden leave my heart.

I don't know what to do with my life.

My mom actually prayed about this. About me. She saw me going back and forth to the computer lab late at night and it worried her. The reason I was going was because my teacher would give us 80-136 questions in one homework assignment!! Insane! He would put it up online, and give us like three days to do it! Also, here recently, he has been putting two at a time and making them due on the same day. -____-  My lab-mates told me he was the hardest teacher in the subject and a small percentage actually pass. I was in some deep trouble. Out of it now! Here I am. 2012. I'm praying about it. God knows where to put me. I am not transferring. I am not moving from San Angelo. I was put here for a reason. I think this step was the hardest thing I've ever done. To be real with myself, and know when enough is enough. I can't pass phys, and Microbiology & Pathophysiology is next. What am I supposed to do? I don't want to be in college forever.

So, I'm making a list. Things I like and would see as a career someday. I have a lot of thinking to do. At least I have summer to look forward to. I had an answered prayer because I read that dropping affects your financial aid and when I talked to the people in charge of that today, they said no! Yay, praise God! 

I dropped it like it's hot. 

But, seriously, I really don't know what I'm doing. God knows. He always know. Thankfully. My adviser was saying maybe I can major in psychology? 

I don't want to. I mean, I am not good with kids, and I don't want to be a teacher...what do you go with that? One of the things I am very concerned about is job placement. With nursing, you know you will have a job. That's a given. A straight shot to the hospital, or clinic. I mean, there isn't a doubt, but with other majors...ehhhh. My advisor is an economics major and she works in the nursing dept. Like...what? I want to work in my field. Not as a teacher, though. Something...cool. Something that says "Rachel!"

So, I'm going to take this weekend to relax and clear my head in Austin. Regroup and come back determined. It scares me that I don't have a solid major. But this video really struck home tonight for me. It's about just living life with no regrets and diving into the deep end of pool.

When reality strikes, it strikes so hard.

Don't touch the positive with the negative end. 

♥ and ideas,

Rachel