9.25.2011

A Wave Collapsing You & Rushing You.

Ohh, hey friends.

I'm glad you're reading this.

This weekend flew by as always and I had to work...as always. I always make it out in the end.

With God's help.

I need to get something off my chest.

So, Friday, after work I went straight home. I didn't have any plans or much to do except for studying which is supposedly everyday. V_V Anyway, I was thinking about the guy I like and how alone I was. Call it a moment of weakness or a moment of vulnerability but a wave a sadness/depression hit all at once. I'm 22 and I've never had a boyfriend, a guy to kiss me, a date, or anything of the sorts? I can't help but think is there something wrong with me? I could blame it on where I lived, but my friends have boyfriends and guys who like them. I felt utterly helpless. It was such a random moment too. It came out of left field. I know I've been here since early 2011, but sometimes I get impatient, anxious with myself and God. I don't know what He has in store but I hope a guy comes around soon. When I think it about more, in all of my years a guy has never even asked me out. [Creepers and weirdos don't count. It has to be equal interest.] I seriously don't understand. Maybe you have some advice, readers & friends? I am at a loss.

♥, me

4 comments:

Mägi said...

Rachel!

Oh, how I wish we could have tea together. Wouldn't that be wonderful?

We're in the same boat ('cept I'm 21, not 22). The very same boat.

And it can seem very uncomfortable at times, can't it. That I know. but I also know that, dude, God has something pretty rad in store! And all these other guys, well, they're just not it. And when you meet then man that you really want to invest all of your love into - you won't have given pieces of your heart already away to other men.

You'll be able to look him in the eye and say, "All those other dudes, I knew they weren't you, and I've been waiting for you."

Take this time to really develop and get to know yourself. Take the time to explore and have a blast. Being single isn't the burdon some people make it out to be.

There's nothing abnormal about you.

Glad you know that God there watching out for you.

And, aye!, I met Victorio. Pretty spectacular.

Seo said...

Get it, Mägi.

Kim said...

Rachel, when I was in jr. high/high school, I had the same feeling. I know my circumstances were a little different than everybody else's (more like A LOT!), but look who I'm with today! :) It can be a hard and lonely world out there, but God will bring that special someone to you. It just hasn't been the right time for you guys to meet. Either because you haven't grown enough or because you still have things you need to do in your life before the big L. The time will come, so don't worry. Turn to your friends if you get lost! :) We're always here for ya. Love you! <3

Rachel! said...

Love you guys!! Thank you for the encouraging comms! <3

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