I'm Here For You.

I lay awake.
Sweat slips into my ear.
Gross!
He's running laps in my mind.
So, so...unfair.
I assume the fetal position.
He isn't here.
He isn't laying beside me.
We're not laughing at the silliness of the quiet that surrounds us.
We don't laugh at all.
Haha, ok, I am.
I want to let it all out.
Scream.
Yell.
Something.
Of course, I can't, I am one of those people.
Hesistant and reluctant to reach out and just call you.
Let you know that I'm okay; just having one of those girlish moments.
Not a total breakdown.
I'll be more than fine.
His scent is here and gone.
I want to find a way to capture his essence, bottle it up, and throw it out to sea.
Away from me.
Away from my torn heart.




Spring I was a young child.
When it got colder, I saw the colder side of the world.
A place I dared not to go on my own will.
A forced push.
Fall has turbulent memories.
I can't push them back any longer.
Winter feels like I can't get a grip on reality.
I am in the middle of the hell storm of Sodom & Gomorrah.
Get. Me. Out.
Where is my light? I need to see in this pitch black evil.
A rescue, an escape.
I am fall to my knees and cry out in total honesty.
I have found my way.
The path is less traveled, but I like it that way.
Come with me.
I don't want to walk to redemption empty-handed.


PS: Sorry this sounds a bit emotional, but it was a request and I am lacking in the blog dept. ♥

Please go watch "Hell" because I can't embed worth a flip. Today was a good day. Short, work, Hobby Lobby for some rad yarn, sushi, and back home for a nice nap. I will be making a beanie for Leah before she leaves for her Colorado trip, so stay tuned!

♥ and Reeses,
Rachel

PS. One of my friends sent me a picture text honoring me for Retard Awareness Week.

Wake Up!

Hello internet world!

I must say, I've been a naughty blogger and left out large spots of my trite life. Never fear! Here is this:


So, this is me in the morning. Notice how pretty my hair is. I'm halfway in the picture because I took it semi-asleep.


I am walking to my school with a weird look on my face. I had a test that day. Look at the cars in the back! Vroom!


This is a front shot of the school. BC! BC!


I am at work here. I work at a Museum in Angleton, and sometimes it can be the worst. Especially when my bed seems so inviting! Usually I go to school and drive to work.


After work. I'm in love with a pillow! Yes, I do hug my pillows. Shut up.




After a long day, sleeping on my Little Mermaid pillow feels just right. ♥ Ariel is my favorite!

But before that! Swap time! Tonight I got a swap from this fun party, and it was awesome. I got a big hair clip, a star-shaped lip gloss tray, and some other cool stuff! The lady wrote on a Dresden Dolls card thing! She was a win.


Ah, amour. I can't wait to try all of them on or use them. :D
Also, I didn't make a Valentine's craft because I was so busy, so I am going to make an applique for a head band real soon. Like, real soon.

One more time:

Awesome.



♥,
Rachel.

In Lieu Of Everything...

Love blog.

I was going to post pictures and have an awesome profile picture, but work has a way of changing plans. So, Valentine's Day is upon us! Some people see this as another day, some it's a time to really show their significant other they care. How do you see it? What do you usually do? This morning my co-worker sprung a cookie on me! So surprising! So nice! :) To me, love doesn't have to show itself on one day; each day is our chance to really impact someone's life. IMPACT! I'm kind of getting used to this regular phone, but it's just hard to get my head around 12 keys for every letter/symbol I know. I am in the mood for a heart felt craft. I will post pictures of that and my weird face soon.

♥,
Rachel

My First Post!

So, this is my first post!

What do I say first? Thank you for taking a look? Thanks for nothing? Maybe not the last one, but this is my first semi-serious blog since msnspace. What I will be writing about will be adventures I get myself into, sewing, crochet-ing, DIY, and just my life in general. I do want to start my own sewing deal called Bare Bones [thanks Kim!] and make a neat Etsy. That's all in the woodwork right now because I have ghey things like school and work, but I'll do my best to supply the internetz with something the kids crave. ;) I also might just have an off day and just write about my week or something. Whatevs.

My phone got stolen.

♥,
Rachel