The Great Falling Away.

He-he-heyyy guys! :)

2 posts back to back! Wow! So, today was lazy. Woke up at 3 pm and got immediately on the computer. Duuude, yes. I still need to study for my phys exam Monday. =/ Ha! I tagged 'music challenge' last night and did not do it. Fail. Tonight I will, for sure. I totally thought I'd see famous people in Austin last week, because I watched a video of Jack White's new label and he just showed up in Austin and played in a parking lot. I wish I was there! It's so expensive. D': Maybe if I save up the entire year and in 2012, I can go. Probs.

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A: I got new shoes! They are cute yellow sandal types. I thought they were tres cute. :3 Target 20 bucks!! I wore them with my fushia tights downtown. I got a compliment. The lady was nice.

B: My lovely, crazy, friend bought me this when she visited San Antonio! It's a Dia de los Muertos figurine. A diva with a glittery dress. She immediately thought of me when she saw that. Also, her husband saw a dead band in a case and thought of me. :) So sweet of them! I've been to San Antonio just once and once driving through it. She tells me it's beautiful.

C: a mucky picture of Austin downtown. There was so much going on! There was a live band with a tuba and baritone doing it up in the middle of the street! Also, a rap video was being filmed? Yeah, I actually was in front of them unawares. Crazy. Music everywhere and it made me want Austin more. If that's possible. ;D

Ok, music challenge, sucka.

Day 5. A song that reminds you of someone.

This could be any song. I have a lot of memories tied to songs. Why does this always have to be hard!?!? Jk. "Surf Wax America" by Weezer. I first met my friend from San Angelo, we sung Weezer one Sunday afternoon. That was when I crowned her the coolest Apostolic woman I've ever met.

I loved this song/album way before I met her but this just affirms it. Ahhh, memories.

Toodles!

Rachel

#45: Something haunts my dreams, don't know what it means.

Talking To Myself Because I Can't Forget.

Wow, I totally posted this prematurely. Anyway! I'm back! I love you and I'm ready to spill my guts all over your floors. [Brains.] The White Stripes broke up!!! D: Whyskis!?! They are a very good band, and I thought they had more to give the world. I guess not. If you don't know who the White Stripes are, I recommend going to Youtube and watching the following titles: "Fell In Love With A Girl", "White Orchid", "I"m Finding It Harder To Be A Gentleman", "Rag & Bone" & "Now Mary". Those are just a few of my favorites. :)

So, the pastor's wife took me to get my hair fixed yesterday. I wasn't too keen on it at first but I guess it looks good! I came back to school and everyone as complimenting me. So, I believe them; I still have to warm up to it, though. She paid for it and everything and said it was God telling her to do it. Also the stuff I need at home to keep my hair up! I def want to try to keep it nice and also it makes a lot of questions pop up in my mind about staying in San Angelo. I don't know if I'm supposed to. Time is passing by fast, and I don't have a place to live after this semester is over. No summer school this year. Thank God. I need a much needed break. So, Spring Break. A week ago was so awesome. I loved it. The first half, I went to Austin to pick up my sister to bring her back to SA. I showed her around my school, the town, and the church. I missed her. My roomie was being ultra nice to her! Oh maaaan, she let her use her bed. Kind of awk, but whatevs! On Thursday, we traded and went to Austin to UT and went around the city. I love it. SXSW was going on, but I couldn't make it to a full show but I did overhear a band covering "Are You Gonna Be My Girl?". Impressive. Two of my sister's friends came along as well and we stayed in a sketch motel because all of hotels in the whole city was booked solid. The hotel was...bad. Peeling wallpaper, curious neighbors, and bad, broken boards under the dirty carpet. Slept in that for two days. Went to Pfluegerville to pick up my friend and head back to SA. A very good good week. I saw a Che Guevara:

look-a-like in Cici's! We went to a thrift store; ok, I always read fashion blogs where people get jewels thrifting. The stuff they buy is very pretty. I NEVER see that stuff where I go. All duds. But not this time, we went to this family thrift store and Ifound Vans!! VANS! Black & in my size! $5.45! :D :D :D

I snatched those shoes up so fast. Also, Freaky Friday's [Lindsay Lohan's version] soundtrack. Diamonds in the rough! In utter unbelief. I see the light now. I am addicted to plus size fashion. I lurve it. I do! I can't say my blog is all fashion; I do talk about other stuff. That's what bothered me yesterday at the salon was that both the hairdresser and the lady were thinking I should eat better and exercise, which is not a bad idea. I'm not the fittest, but they talked like I felt like the lowest human being on Earth. I had no self-esteem or confidence in myself. Which is not true. I DO feel good sometimes and I've seen skinnier girls who don't have no self-respect for their bodies. They give the vibe of 'I hate my body and no one should look at me.' Or the other extreme: 'I need all of your attention, because I hate being alone with myself.' I've seen it. No lie. I wish they had seen me last summer. I was bigger. Five weeks of school left. I can't believe how fast it's gone. I knew I'd fit in after while. Just give me time and I'll find my friends on my time. :)

♥,
Rachel

#44: Pretty things are cute things.

Two Toned & Big Boned.

Swing it.

I've found a holy room of Internet. My lobby. So, definitely going to be in here a long time. I don't have to drive anywhere. That I like. No, no, no. Love. So, I guess God helped me because this means I'll be meeting tons more people this way. I prayed for guidance on the whole dorm issue. I haven't been adjusting well. I realized that I don't want to make friends or connect with people for convience sake. I want to really find a friend. Not just because we're neighbors. Of course, I'll be polite. And nice to you. But to share my inner thoughts, dreams, hopes, fears, secrets, and theories? No.

That's not me.

Open your eyessss.

Okay, so I've been seeing a lot of fashion plus size blogs around. I've been lurking. I want to post my outfits that are cute on here. If I remember. Maybe talk about them? I don't know. I have to remember to take pictures. I only have my lowly Blackberry camera. I'm going to finish this entry before my battery dies. Oh believe that.

Day 4. A song that makes you sad.

This shouldn't be hard, but it is. Like all the other days. "This Time Imperfect" by AFI. It is a sorrowful song, but lifted me up at the same time. It told me I wasn't alone in my sadness. In my change. I felt so drawn to this song off of the first AFI album I bought when I was 13. 13!! Ack, so long ago. I related to the whole album, but this song was different. Enough chit-chat. Here it is:

So a look into my inner soul as a 13 year old. Yes. Haha, I still love AFI to this day, and I don't think I would ever stop loving every album they create. This band has been through it all with me. My life wouldn't be the same without listening to them. ♥
What's something you cherish? A song? A object? What? Tell me.

bye for now, friend.

♥,
Rachel

#35: This night has just begun to form around us. Be still and silent.

San Angelo.

Wow, okay. So I moved up to San Angelo for school. It's been a whirlwind of a week[s]. First, I had a going away dinner and a lot of people came by! So, I totally made it to SA by the grace of God. All of the stuff I got for my dorm was all Him. I didn't have the money to do anything, and God made a way. He's always there helping me and guiding me. My first night here no one was here. It was just me, and it was weird sleeping in a new place. Not my futon. Today I met the girls who share the bathroom! They seem nice. My roomie isn't here yet, but hopefully tomorrow she will be. :) I found all my classes, and they are basically in a square. That's that! I passed by the nursing complex when I was walking, and imagined going there for all classes. A year and a half with summer classes. Wow, I'll be done. I met my neighbor, and he's really nice.

Day 3. A song that makes you happy.

Music makes me happy, but one song that I can pick off my brain is "Go Away" by Eisley. It's a song of sadness, but to me I love it. The voice, the instrumentation, and the words. They all flow and I can't get enough. I listened to it leaving home. I welled up, but I know this is where I should be. I felt so...conflicted at home. Even though I had my friends, it just felt...weirdly depressing. Here, I can clear my head and realize what Rachel wants. Also, grow. I don't mind being away from everyone, I've always kind of alone. Plus, they're always a phone call/facebook/text away. No time to be sad! I'm at ASU!

♥,
Rachel

#29: Awkward. Awkward. Awkward me.

Backwards & Frontwards.

I posted just because of this:

Day 2. Your least favorite song.

I can tell that this will be a hard.
I want to say Ke$ha. Or T-Swift. Lady Ga-ga. Justin Beaver.
Insert 2009-2010 pop-indie band here. Nikki Minaj. Brokencyde. 3Oh3. Breathe Carolina. Blood On The Dance Floor. Or any band who thinks swaying a keytar is making music. No, but I'm not going to say them.

"Piece Of Me" by Britney Spears.

=/
No good. I hate that song and how many nominations it got at the VMAs when NOBODY knew about it's existence. You know what? That whole Blackout album was just horrbs. Everything about it...needs a second look over.
Britney...do better. kthanks.

♥,
Rachel!

#28: I want to be able to walk through walls, cure disease, but I'm not Jesus and you're just a boy.

Eeek! I Should've Started Earlier!

Hey, okay.

2011. Woah.
I should have started earlier with this post but I wanted to make it on the very first day of 2011.
Made it!
~Whew!~ So, I am going to start a music monthly challenge. I'm excited! You should be too!
In other news, I know this is gross but I got a visit from Aunt Flo! I'm thanking God because I've has been missing her. It's really a blessing. This is like...anti-blog subject matter. She came on New Year's Eve! Surprise! I was at someone's house. Almost a fml, but I was okay. :)
I went over to my friend's house and we had sparkling grape juice and got "toe up". Well, no. So much fun. I saw The Jerk for the first time. A lot of hype. A lotttttt.

Day 1. Your favorite song.

I can't even answer that. So much music flows through me. If I had to pick a song, I'd choose one of my current obsessions.

Where Have You Been? by Manchester Orchestra.
My lovely friend introduced me to them. I knew they were a band, but I didn't think it was good music. So wrong. Just the way Andy Hull sings is enough for me. So much emotion. I was looking through different picture, fashion blogs and just blown away at how pretty they are! Women who devote themselves to blogging. Getting paid. What I like about some of them [can't speak for all], is it's not about the money. I still want a degree. And college. Which I am going to in a week. It hasn't hit me. It hasn't hit me that I have to pack up all of my stuff and life and move. No...but it will. I'll be 22 this year. I can't believe it. Bye for now.


♥ and the new year,
Rachel!


PS:

So this is the new year.
And I don't feel any different.
The clanking of crystal
Explosions off in the distance.

So this is the new year
And I have no resolutions
For self assigned penance
For problems with easy solutions.

So everybody put your best suit or dress on
Let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
Lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
As thirty dialogues bleed into one.

#28: Sufferin' succotash.