You Are Treasured & His.

Hey guys, hey!

I can't believe it, but this is the last week of the fast. Each service has been really intense and I think we're about to blow the lid off the joint. My pastor is going to go str8 water the last three days and I am seriously thinking of doing that. I pray that Jesus reveals himself to me. When my mom was not in church, or right before it, she got into a serious car accident and was in bed for three or so weeks. She read the Bible a lot and prayed, too. She said that the Lord visited her in her room every night. I want that so bad. I know if I keep seeking Him, it will come but I just want to see His face. I get blurry-eyed just thinking about His magnificence in my room and how He is with me everyday in every way. I just want Jesus to visit me, too. I also want to know my purpose. I've been prophesied on more than once and I can't wait for that to come to pass. All I do is play bass at church. I know that all throughout this whole fasting that I want to be more in tune with God. I've been reading all the classic Bible stories and catching up on Jesus' life while fasting, and it touched my heart. Moses saw the Lord in a burning bush, and his rod became a snake! A. Snake. Crayzee! By reading the Old Testament, I've caught little things that my Sunday School teachers skipped over. I'm reading the Bible through adult eyes and let me tell you...woah!  I'm going to keep you lovely people up to date on what's going on, and everything. I feel like this fast was just the thing for me. Also, I've been discovering a lot of new Christian music. I really really like my Christian music to be well written. This band that this rad lady told me about:

Gungor.

Seriously go check them out. Believer or not. They are really great. Musically and spiritually. Also, this morning/afternoon I listened to this guy:

Christian. Song! Goldfrapp totes took his rhythm for her song. I was trying to see if "Hallelujah" by Leonard Cohen was Christian, but it's ultimately not. Lot of suggestions to Christianity, but no dice. Yesterday, I talked with my friend in Georgia and he said that superheroes like Capt. America and Batman were more realistic than Jesus. People could relate to them more than the Bible or some God. Background info: he's a Baptist because his family is and he's not going to church anymore if at all. I told him that Jesus died for us. You can't get any realistic than that and also Capt. America is a thought someone made up. He's not even real and you can pray to the Lord and find peace and joy and happiness. He just really disappointed me with that statement. I'm praying that he wakes up and really gets a hold of the Lord. Superheroes < God. Every. Time! He didn't really get it, though. It's scary how something can become an idol. We all have to be careful. This week is just starting and this morning I fought against my body. I got up and prayed. It was a small prayer, but tomorrow it will be bigger. I my spirit to grow and mature in God. I just want to see a change in myself. :) Until the next time!

"They could not keep You in their walls, we cannot keep You in ours either. For You are so much greater."

♥,

Rachel!

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Lost, Lost, & Found.

You found me.

I am so blessed beyond compare.

I think I am getting stronger and I can't wait to hear His voice. So, this week is going really well, and I'm so happy to be where I'm at.

Sometimes, do you feel like dropping everything and falling? It's a heady feeling. Very different. Anyway, I pray everyone is having a radical week.

There is so much music in the world. I'm missing Copeland. I've been making Christian CDs and really committing myself to listening.

Really listening to the lyrics and what they are saying.

I seriously miss Copeland, but you know what? I want to give it to God. Give my frustrations, my  doubts, and confusion to Him. He takes care of me. All of this time. 

 I was reading Mägi's blog. She is so inspirational! I hope she is glancing at this, because I think that she is more influential than she realizes. 

My last.fm is blowing up. No idea why! I can't even check it. Fail.

♥,

Rachel!

Like the veil has lifted.

Hello, everyone.

I'm not quite sure if this counts as entertainment, but I just wanted to share how my fast is going with everyone! It's amaaaazing! I feel so good in my spirit, and I know God has so much more for me! HXC vegan! What! Yes, and I have blessing already! So, I lost my wallet with all of my cards [debit, school] in it. On Saturday. I was devastated!! So, we started fasting on Sunday and I just went head on. I really want to be dedicated to this and hear from God. I really want to and just receive all that he has for me. I also cut out texting, Facebook, and pleasure reading just because I don't want hindrance. By the way, I found my wallet all in tact!!! I am so so thankful! Really & truly. I'll never stop praying and believing. It's going to happen for my church. Revival. I know it will for myself as well. I'm so excited and pumped!

It's approaching.

 ♥,

Rachel

Why Is It So Mushy?

It might snow, and I'm dreading it.


Hello everyone! It's been a long time!


So, I've been creeping on some very beautiful fashion/DIY/whatevs blogs and I must say I have some blog envy. I wanted to get 2012 started with a bang, and do some sewing today. Hopefully I'm not too too loud and wake everyone up. I'll try to post blurry Blackberry pics up, but no promises.

;)

Ok, a promise.

So, what's going on in my life? School is starting soon. In roughly a week. The cord to Molly is broken and down for the count. So, I need to do some shopping. Soonskis. Today I applied for unemployment. I didn't know you could get a debit card. That's legit. USA gov't; stepping up.



So, I've been a little more than obsessed with this DuPree-Bemis' flickr:

take a peek at this.

I don't want to post anything on here because I'm pretty sure the Internet police will come and take me away. Her photos/drawings/ootd's are amazingly pretty and I don't know what else to say. Go take a look for yourself. So. Talented! So, this is my first post of 2012. I want this year to be different. I don't have any resolutions or plans besides just the norm school stuff, but I want to see a change in me.

How about you?

My church is going on a 21 day Daniel fast aka the strictest vegan diet in Texas. Bring. It. On. We're at AFI level. Like, nothing is slipping by; we even are asked to not eat white rice. I'll have to get used to brown rice. Q____Q Will I have the guts? Also, no technology that is a necessity. [fb/movies/tv/computers/non-Christian music/etc] Cutting that from our lives and focusing on God. Constantly in prayer and reading the Bible. Really focusing on the Lord and forcing our fleshly selves to die.

fleshly. weird word.

I am excited annnd nervous as usual to do something I've never attempted before. It was always when our church fasted it was an all or nothing thing. Never inbetween, so to eat partial will be hard. Hopefully I can shake some weight, too. That's not the main focus, but who's to say it won't happen? ;)

I've been in the library way too long. Hehe. I've been having this weird obsession to dye my hair. I couldn't even tell you why. I just do. Like, blue or something. Is this the rebellion stage of life everyone's been talking about? Meh; probs not. Also! For the New Years, I went to Lubbock, Texas! I also went to the Buddy Holly museum!! It was amazing; I stayed with my friend J and it was so awesome hanging with her. I totally needed to get out of SA. For sure. My family came up to spend Christmas with me. So sweet. :)

Everyone is wanting snow here. Ugh, Team Anti-Snow. SA people can't drive in snow or rain...or any weather that's not sunshine.

No snow.

How is your holidays going & your new year?

I have some more to add to my bucket list.

11. to wear red lipstick

12. write/perform a song for a dozen people

13. to have several different hairstyles

14. to grow in God

15. deep sea dive

16. to walk the streets of New York

17. be in a big musical

♥ + everything else,

Rachel!

PS: Does anyone know where to get some skelly tights? I need some badly. Please & thank you.

Had some Urkels, like 'em alot!

Oi.


I'm in early-era AFI mood. This is the last week in 2011. It passed by so fast. So fast. I don't do resolutions, or promises to better myself. I just brace for what lies ahead. So, I finally got to watch Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind:



That movie was questionable. I don't know what to think about it. Give me a few and I'll get back to you. Other than that, last night, I was having a pity party for myself and it was really sad. Not sad like fake pity for myself, but just a deep sadness coming for deep down. I also talked to my coach the day before yesterday about school and work and how it's stressful. I've always envied the rich and well off. They never work or actually struggle. Of course, there's the rotten personality and terrible etiquette. 


Man.


I guess I have too much integrity to trade it all in. I would hate to be rich and lonely. Anyway, it was so sudden. I am prone to random bouts of deep thinking. 


I'm an emotional monster. Hahaha, emotions just spilling all over the place! Crazee. My mom might move up here for work. I am glad she is re-locating but sad because then...I wouldn't have privacy. I feel like a jerk for thinking that, because she needs a job. Needs money, and needs out weigh the wants.  I think it will be good for her to not be in B-Co. It drags you down. The only people who have real jobs are the hospitals and the chemical plants, and even those jobs are unsteady. I don't know how many people I've spoken with who don't know if they'll have their jobs.


Here's to the new year.


I wanted to make a list of things I've always wanted to do and put it on here. Let's see.

1. fly in a hot air balloon

2. meet johnny depp and have a conversation with him

3. dye my hair

4. be in a film

5. see the yeah yeah yeahs live/meet them

6. almost get a tattoo

7. help someone in dire need

8. write lots of stories

9. have a guy love me for me

10. have long hair

I think that's just some of the main ones. I have so much going through my brain, it's ridiculous. I know you do too. 

I found Sherri Dupree's flickr. She is awesome. I love her. I love Eisley. It took me almost two hours to finish this post. I honestly am looking forward the new year and what it holds. I still feel old and have the urge to listen to "Burn Your Life Down" but I'm gonna fight it off!

Who thought about "Seven Nation Army"?

So did. :)

If I don't write here before the new year I hope you all have a wonderful holiday filled with cheer & happiness!! You received everything that you wanted and that you make someone else happy, too. :) 

all over it. 

<3,

Rachel! 

Boogie & Bogey Down.

I'll be back soon.


I promise. The holidays are going so fast. My family is here for almost two weeks and they leave very very soon.


:( I like living alone, but then again...it was so nice to have them in the house.


To fill it with laughter and old jokes. We danced, and laughed, and really just missed each other. I know I did. No lie. My fb friend is getting a memorial tat, and I honestly think that's very noble/brave of her. It is. If I have ever gotten a tat, it would be music related. Too far into to back out now.


My faith in love is still devout.


A couple of more days and it's the new year. I feel indifferent. Hmm.
I watched Gigli. It's as bad (if not worse) than what every critic says.
They lip sync the words. Why??


Anyways,  Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you lovely people! I hope you roundhouse kick the new year. ;D


<3,
Rachel! 

That Point.

I don't know what I'm doing.

Doesn't everyone get to this point? I feel like I'm running in circles.
I just want to move forward. I'm burnt out, and run out. Writing feels good. Something that I'm okay at. My job sucks. I've never hated a job so much in my entire life. Call centers. 

no.

I want to scream. It's too loud at home, and awk at the library. So, I'm going to sit and listen to Manchester Orchestra and write.

And write.

And write.

I am sorry that it's been so long. I wanted to write every couple of days, and I haven't.

So, the semester is over and in Stats class, I failed. So mad. I actually put forth effort in this class and she is going to fail me? I passed her other class, and didn't pass Stat. No sense. Nonsense. She is nonsensical. I looked at my grades today and I emailed her asking what I could do for a passing grade. 

I don't know if that will work.

I don't know if she will read it in time since she never checks her email, but I want to try.

I'm trying.

Plus, she never came to class, and canceled class for no reason. No one honestly knew what they were doing. She didn't teach us, rather just let us go at random times or just never showed up.>=(

Don't fail me when you failed yourself.

JMCSPOASADONMASOIRIJUCALKSDAPWOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So mad.

I just put 's' instead of 'd'.

Mas mad.

So much so. It's like...I want my school life to go well at least.

My work life sucks.

My spiritual life needs some repair.

Come on school; get it together. 

Here's to this week and not sucking. Last night at work was terrible. I hate ungrateful people, people who put themselves in that situation and blame everything except what caused it.

15, 16K in debt and you think since I can't give you a low apr it's my fault. No sir, no ma'am. How about not maxing out your credit card?

I'm sorry this is such a poopy post. I know it's far from the norm. On a much more lighter, happier note my family is coming to ME for Christmas!!! YAAAAY! It's going to be so fun with them in the a-p-t. :D My sister wants to decorate my house. No.

Not happening, but they want to see meeeeeeee. Excited to be with them for the holidays. Hey-oh.

Time for work and putting on a brave face.

♥,

Rachel

The Weakends. My weak end.

Hello, hello.


I am in a very thoughtful mood tonight. So, 2011 went by so fast. I feel like we just started January.


I've been in SA almost a year now. I remember being so excited to leave home, and now I can't wait to visit and I can't wait to see the bridge before going into town. Wow, and so many things have happened.


God.


He plays such a huge role in everything. In my life, in your life. Just...in all things. 


I fell like I haven't given enough time to Him at all; my pastor preaches about spending time with him like a spouse or a bestie and I just need to do IT. 


Today went by fast and Tuesday I am leaving for home. I'm so so excited because I can't wait to see my family. See my friends and just relax at home. 

Thanksgiving is over. That's how long it's taking me to make this entry. I think it's the anxiousness.

Nervousness. I feel as if this entry will be the end and the start of something very...different.


Anyway, I feel as if my prayer life has dwindled. When I first came to SA I was so into winning people to church and bringing people on my floor to my new church. I have settled in. Now, my friend who is moving here too next semester is going to visit my church again. :) He really really liked it, which makes me really happy. 


I need to work on my relationship, because Jesus hasn't changed. He still meets my needs and provides for me every single time. I think that's where I want to hide in a hole or something because He sure doesn't my lack of worship. Of course there are people all over the world lifting up prayers and praise to Him, but He is a jealous God.


....I need to work on it.


So, I'm back home and I got here in 6 hours instead of 7? I was very proud of that because I totally stopped twice. 


Gas station restrooms will remain sketchy. It was 7:45 at night and I was still on my guard. It's funny, because everyone else is too. So, it's kind of funny.


In a way.


So, it's finally winter and I couldn't be happier to wear more clothes! I might get weave too which is exciting! My friend from work can do it, and all I do is buy the hair. I thought, "Why not? Life is too short!" :) She was like, "Maybe you'll get the guys. You never know...or that guy."


^////^ That wouldn't be a bad thing.


I think as I get older, I get better at dressing. I look at fat fashion blogs allll the time, so it must be rubbing off on me. Positively.  Here's to this week!


Dreamlist soon. Soon? Yeah, soon.


♥ all of you and you,


Rachel!

Oh My, These Days...

So, went to see Manchester Orchestra on Saturday.

What?

WHAT!? I deeeeeed! It was amazing.

Crazy.

Beautiful.

Brilliant.

Hobos every which way.

Anyway, I left Sat morning, and got to my sister's apt around 11:30ish. I tell you what! Driving 75mph in the hill country. Win. I settled in and hung out with my sister for a while. Actually, we were out in her neighborhood and she saw someone get hit by a car. Devastating. Not only was it on the day of my concert, but it just...sucked. I don't know. And so we pulled over and everyone within a 5-10 mile radius was stopping, calling 911, etc. I had to put my sister's car in park because she was frozen in shock. We actually went to another side of town to eat and everything. She lost her appetite. :( After that, she dropped me off at the show. I got there way early and the line was just barely starting. Yay! :) 

The sign by the sidewalk. I waited about an hour and a half just in line, and then, they finally let us in! We were marched in like criminals, though. Very odd, like, tickets in one hand and our other hand visible so we have our bracelets checked. All bags checked of course. Got in, and okay. I always try to get as close as possible. Just because I blog and I love being so close to the stage and almost touching the band or whoever is playing. It makes me happy, but what sucks is I was almost second row but I was right behind this very tall guy who looked so derpy. Wasn't even there for Manchester Orchestra! Was like, trying to get all of his friends up to the front, too. UGH. That happened. He moved right before MO came on. Heck to the yes. In the venue we waited for another hour and a half? I think there was something going wrong, because everyone who was helping seemed in a rush and were setting up/tearing down extra fast. I promised myself I would post this...post so I might break up my thoughts. Sorry ahead of time.

So, the bands that played:

Little Hurricane

The Dear Hunter  

White Denim

So, Lil' Hurrikane. Jk, they were like The White Stripes if they went extra alt-rock. Just a girl on drums and a guy who can't sing on guitar/'keys. Their equipment broke in the middle of the set and they had to stop and fix it. =/ Kind of sucked, but they took it in stride. I guess it has happened...before?  No, no, no! Jokeskis. Pictures!!!

They were okay, but the guy's voice really threw me off. What was weird is that I was in Pac-Sun yesterday and their song was on their store radio!! :O Getting popular!

So, The Dear And Hunter; Casey from another band formed this one and they were okay. I could see why they opened for MO. They were really similar in styles, but I wasn't really into it. I guess I was just waiting for MO and tolerating them. I am ridiculous, but yeah! Pictures/videos! 

So, my videos have to be uploaded separately and I guess I'll put it on a different post. I've been holding this on off too long. I'm sorry, fateful viewers! :( Anyways, so Dear & The Hunter was legit. Not my style, but that's okay. The next band...made me mad. So MAD! White Denim is from Austin and is a....[brace yourselves]....a jazz fusion band?! Why even are they included on a tour with MO?! No. SENSE! The whollllle crowd was just standing there waiting while they just went to town on improvisation and all of this unnecessary mess! Their set seemed extra long! To pass the time, I took some pictures:

There's that. They finally left & then it was time...

What I waited for so long. Manchester. 

It's so awesome seeing a band you love live. It's just takes you to that other level of amazement. Seeing them in real life, being so close to them and singing the words to every song just gets me. Another thing is people who are big fans or even more hxc about than me. People who travel hours to see a concert because you know they'll be around your hometown. Those people. Fans. I have respect for them, y'know? I have the setlist! <3's on my favorites and links so you can listen to them, too. :)

Deer

Pride ♥

April Fool ♥

100 Dollars ♥

My Friend Marcus

Leaky Breaks

Pensacola ♥

I've Got Friends ♥

Shake It Out ♥

I Can barely Breathe ♥

Simple Math ♥

Colly Strings

Only One ♥

Encore!

Virgin ♥ 

Everything To Nothing ♥

The River ♥

So good. Just watched the new music video for them...Virgin. What are you trying to say, MO? Hmmm! America is in the pits? Maybs. Their set not looks short. Not enough songs; two encores. :D

Pictures! Pictures! Pictures!

I really love them. Their music is so...moving. As I grow older and my music tastes change, I get it. I realize that music is not just created in one form. There are so many forms and ways to truly express how you feel. I think that music breaks all barriers. I just love it. This week is going okay, and I think I'll be okay with everything. I'm getting to know him better. We joke all the time; I don't self conscious. I feel like me. Which is always a good thing. X3 Um, I'm still looking for a job. I'm horrible at my current one. I know God will help me with that; like always. Like He always does with everything else.

Ciao for now.

♥,

Rachel

I Can't Seem To Fix These Leaky Breaks.

We built this house with our hands & our blood.

I'm seeing them tonight! <3

What, What, What, Why?

So, this week has been...a whirlwind.

My job. So, I've been doing really bad with my job and getting write-ups and what have you. I don't know what to do. I've been trying my BEST and I STILL CAN NOT MEET QUOTA! I really want to just go to the top of the cliff and scream my lungs out until I can't. So frustrating! I feel like I really don't have a choice in this because if I quit, I won't make it. No money coming in. If I get demoted, I will hate that job, and I love my co-workers. That's one of the main reasons I've stayed this long. There is a 77% turn over for this job and I can see why. What I do specifically is talk to customers who want to close out their account and let them know the benefits of staying with us. There are steps you go through to do that and you have to have a certain way of talking. Let's just say you have to be precise or else the people calling in will run you over. Just tonight run me over the edge. This lady kept just pushing.

Pushing...

I need a new job; I feel like a chicken because I'm one of the last people from my training class who have made it through. Four of us, I think. One of the girls who I talk to hates it. She can't stand it. Anyways, so it's pretty rough at times. There are a lot of cool customers you get to talk to [like the Moneyball guy!], but when you get angry customers back to back..not okay. Can't handle rage when I have nothing to do with you maxing your credit card to the limit and the interest rate on the card is high. Your fault. I've never worked at a job for a couple of months and already loathe talking to people! What?!

So, I want to add him to Facebook tonight. Kind of nervous but it's no big deal. [Yes it is! Ohgoshohgosh.]

I guess. :) I'm going to make this weekend better. The Lord is going to make it better for me because He holds the world in His hands. I'm going to trust Him just like I trusted Him with my finances. I'll give it to Him.

Santigold. FYI, they are playing Death Cab on the radio. "Cath!" What is everyone doing for Halloween? Since it falls on a Monday [lameskis!], I have to work. I may just skipskis and torture someone. Is anyone dressing up and causing trouble? My church is having a festival. Tres cute. I was thinking about some costume ideas:



Just a few ideas.

I hope you guise have a rockin' Halloween!

♥ + batwings,
Rachel!