A Shortie!

Hey guys!

I wanted to do a short entry right before bed. c: So, this weekend has been crazy. We had the church lock in and it was...interesting to say the least. Some boy almost got a concussion. Thank God he was okay! He bounced back real quick. Goodness. Some dislocated shoulders and bruises as well. By 3am, we were done. Like, shut it down fast. 

Maybe for the best? I had the worst toothache ever. :(( I am not even kidding. 5 on the Richter scale.

I am not better since prayer service. Yay!

So, this LA trip is very very real. My friend is going to let us stay with her  and that's totes a miracle. Seriously, I prayed about it. I mean, I know my sister & I deserve a vacation but I want God to be there. Orchestrating it all, and pulling it all together. So I've been praying about it and hoping things will fall in place. So far, so good!! It's an 18hr drive--24hrs with gas station stops. 

We can do this! We are two Rosie the Riveters!

I want to get a legit camera so I can take tons of pictures of everything. I don't know the next time I will be going to California. Or even the places between LA and SA. =//

I just never travel long distances. 

That's about to change in two week! Goodnight!

♥,

Rachel

PS: All I need is...time.

You Better Come Back Down To Mars.

Heys guys! :)

So, I have a bone to pick. I have a rant to start or whatevs. So, being single...is it that bad? Tonight I was talking to one of my friends and he was going on and on about this girl. Now for him this is the norm. He is always in some predicament with a girl. He just never finds a decent one, is what I'm getting at. Says, "I'm tired of being single now so I'm getting a girlfriend."

I'm sorry, is being single like wearing a shirt to you? I'm not frustrated just kind of put off that people do that. Think that way.

(I'm sorry, I've been single for 22 years and counting and I can't seem to shake it. So, it sucks being in single hood no matter what people say. Don't say to someone like me that you're tired of being single. I've been tired of it ever since I can remember.Also, it doesn't count if you're in and out of relationships to say how much you love the single way of life. You have no idea, friend.)

I love that people in relationships just forget what it's like. This isn't a suck post or a whiny post. I'm just saying...it's annoying when people who aren't usually single are single. 

No sir.

In other uplifting news, it's the start of a new week and church was awesome as usual. There is going to be a youth lock-in at my church and the speaker wants us to dress for a funeral! It's a little odd, but I am excited! I like dressing up. I kind of want to dress like Katy P. did in her "Thinking of You" video.

Really pretty & somber. :) I have some lace half gloves I've been wanting to try out. 

Going to be funsies. All of the Eisley girls are pregnant! It's so cute! :D I'm happy for them, and they are starting on their new album as well which is more exciting! Also, Motion City and Tegan & Sara are making/made albums. The new MCS record is pretty chill. There are some poppy songs on there but it seems Justin is pretty mature this time around. Growing up? Maybs. I can't WAIT until the new T&S record!!! It's going to be awesome. :D Their last one was amazing. It got stuck in my head. In a ver good way!

School starts in a month. Kind of excited!! 

I'm ready for a change. 

♥,

Rachel!

& I...Felt Love Again.

Hello ladies  and gents! What's upppp!!?

Hot mess in that video! I'm sorry it's sideways. =/

Anyway! So, first thing, glowpinkstah. Her name is Gloria and she is sooo awesome! Hot boyfriend, too! She's more on the chubby side and she still snagged her a handsome boyfriend who is crazy about her. It gives me hope; it lets me know that the world isn't as small as I had thought. Also, that nothing is impossible! If you want it, it's out there for you!

Her boyfriend is mega hotttt. Just throwing that out there. Again. :D

Moving on, my Mum decided to start cutting back with food! She wants to eat more healthy because her doctor wanted her to lose a few pounds. So! I totes support her  on this, but earlier this year we were on the Daniel's Fast and she wanted to use that. Also, she told me that I was doing this fast again with her. I told her straight up no. She never asked me or even mentioned it until she was ready to start. Daniel's F = strict vegan diet consisting of only vegetables, broth, grains, and water. 

aka HARDEST THING EVER.

Our pastor had said specifically that it wasn't for dieting purposes only spiritual. You know if you are seeking the Lord and trying to get closer to Him. I explained that to her and she was like, "I want to do that, too!" I also explained this means no meat and she wasn't having it. Wanted meat anyways! Not on the DF! :<

I am not 14; don't tell me I'm going to do something and you haven't talked to me. I flat out refused to do the DF with her because I'm not doing it for the right reasons. I told her I will cut out junk food, soda, and fatty foods but I'm not going full on vegan. Also, I want to diet when I'm ready. It doesn't work if you're doing it for someone else. I told her one of my most hidden secrets: I want to be okay with Rachel on the inside before I change the outside. I've had low self-esteem and I didn't care about myself. Not to suicide, but just I felt..like a loser. Haha, and I don't want to go back to that place. That feeling of sadness. I am getting over myself. I am trying to like the lady staring back at me in the mirror. I know I've come a substantial way because I used to hate mirrors, or anything that I saw my reflection in. I hated pictures.  I hated anything where you could see the outside me. Now, I'm okay. I am okay with being...me. :) Finally! It took me forevs! Anyway, I tried  losing weight and I did it in 2010ish! I still felt dissatisfied. I didn't like myself anymore than before the weight was on my body. I def want to do this right this time. I've known close friends who are beautiful self-mutilate and hate their bodies. They were slender and curvy and were so pretty. They hated themselves. Hated. Not even disliked. I'm not going to do anything close to that but I want to be right inside before I start working on the outside. :) 

My sister & I might be going tooooo....CALIFORNIA!!!

Californiaaaaa, californiaaaa, here we commmmeee!

Yes! Way way excited because I've always wanted to go to LA and see everything. Experience a new place. Everything is coming together right now, but I sincerely hope this trip happens! EXCITEDDD!

I haven't been on a real vacay in a lonnnng time. I might have to say way back when I was jr. high and we went Palacios.

Crazy how time flies. 

My hair is falling out. :( This makes me sad because I have no clue why it's falling out.  It just did. My mom thought I had cut it. Anyway so I'm pledging to not comb/brush/perm it until next year. I have to get it healthy! I'm shedding like crazy and that worries me because I don't have much in the first place. I have coarse hair and it always has a way of bouncing back from anything. Truth. One chunk of hair on the side of my head is longer than all the rest so I look retarded. 

smh.

So, all I'm going to do is moisturize it and wash it and see what happens.  I've done something similar before last year and it helped a lot. I just want results and long hair.

I do, I do, I doooo! Long entry this is.

I'm not under any stress so that's a big factor not in this shedding business. =/ We will see what happens. I just want God to help me. 

Summer is almost over and I couldn't be more happier. Come onnnn, fall.

♥ always,

Rachel!

now that you're home, won't you rescue me?

God, i can see.

Friends Of Friends Of Friends.

Turn around, there's those eyes again.

Hay guys! I don't know where to start with updates. Didn't I promise pictures of some sort? Empty. Promises! So, the last efew weeks I have been discouraged. I was fired from my last job as a crap telephone agent and now it's hard to get a job, or even a manager to give you a chance. It makes me sad. Real sad. Delivery jobs won't even look at my application. Like, really? Delivering pizza? No.

So, Satan was all up in it. I actually was feeling mega sorry for myself. 

I don't want to anymore. I want to move on. Blessing in disguise; my class was canceled this summer sesh, so I have ample time to get my act together. Plus, I think I did very well in my first semester. Hopefully, two A's. :D :D

Anyways, so tonight church was awesome. My friend who has been coming brought her in-laws and her sister-in-law really got a blessing. Which is awesome blossommmm.

Pastor came up to me in the midst of this and said, "You're the reason they are here. You matter to God." 

Then he prayed for me. In that moment, I felt so much better. All the things I've thought in the past couple of days didn't matter. Nothing mattered, and I felt...free. I still feel way better, because I know that I have a lot to do.

I can't just lie down and die. Disappear. 

I've been loving this song:

I can't get enough. Also, here's another m i x t a p e. 

I haven't done one of those in a lonnng time. ;)

Hope you like it! 

♥,

Rachel!

I'm Crazy For Tu.

Hey guys.


Easy peasy week this time around. This is random and pretty much not blogworthy, but I haven't had pain in my teeth at all. Woohoo, hoo, hoo, hoo! My friend is making me a mixtape! So excited! I want new music. I'm in discovery mode; I totally want a mixtape made for me. My other cooler friend made me an excellent mixtape and it was totes for me. It had this really rad song on it and I was hardcore relating to it. -___- There was this song about moving out west that I just couldn't stop listening to. Here it is. It's so sweet in the most sweetest way. Go ahead. Go aheaaad. :) 


That's my squinty understanding face. -___- Relatable!


So, yeah, she is so awesome and I love her so much! She did a great jorb on that. I want more now! Muhahahah! Lame.


Okay. so I have been watching a whole lot more Youtube lately. I just suddenly got into to hxc and I'm totes looking into making a video channel. This girlie girl & I were looking into making one together but she has so much on her plate right now...she could guest star on mine! One thing that's stopping me is my camera skills. Youtubers want people with skills! Gosh! I am terrible at pictures and video. Like..a baby trying to hold it steady. Not okay. Here are some of my favorite channels & links:


ONE!
TWO!
THREE!
FOUR!
CINCO!
SIX!
SEVEN!
EIGHT!
NINE!


Enjoy that. I've been watching them nonstop. I'm not even kidding. Ran my whole iPod batt down. 
Also, my sister and her friends made a Spanish practicing blog and group at school and I'm shamelessly asking all of you [yes, you!] to check it out. I think that they are on a good track with this and it will be helpful for people learning Spanish! Here is the link to their blog & Facebook. :) Great things ahead! They are super legit!


I am house sitting and it's sort of weird being in a house alone at night! My apt is old and it creeks but every sound I hear I kind of perk up. Heh. Even when the dog moves around I listen for his dog collar to jingle. I'm not easily spooked, but you need to be sure.

We'll laugh along with the better weather. 


♥,
Rachel


PS: I am counting down until fall. So burnt. Tired of 100 degree weather everyday. :(

Upside Down & Right Side Up!

Wooooo!

Too long, guys. 

Hey:

Now that I've lost you to the weather,

I need to pull my laces real tight.

It's been a while since I've seen this...scenery.

Can your memory recall like mine?

Of course not.

I can remember 

every

single

detail

of 

you

Why?

Why do I do this to myself knowing...

steadfastly knowing that we didn't persevere.

Let me dive into the big blue, 

and let my hair get tangled in the waves.

Je ne veux pas de respirer votre parfum comme le parfum de la pluie.

It's been a long time coming; I've been thinking about writing for like...two weeks? I just haven't sat myself down and forced myself to write. I don't know what is wrong with me. Sorry for the lapse in entries. I'm lame; I know. =/// Freewriting is so liberating! I love it! :) I am going to post another poem here. This is a bit special; it's a joint one my friend & I did together a while back. I thought it was amazing but he wanted to proofread his part. Not letting him! Bam!

"My Part, Your Part"

Me:

Rain soaked.

You won't let me in.

I just need a safe haven for now.

Don't be like this.

Knock.

1

2

3 times.

I won't shout again.

I won't say all the unsaid things,

or try to get you to show your emotion.

The rain is terrible and unending.

I shudder from the inside.

Your arms were never enough, so you let me go.

Please stop listening and open this God forsaken door, I know you are there.

Him:

I sat out in the rain once,
underneath an oak tree
while the lightning made the sky
a brilliant mass of indecision.

Every door locks for a reason,
to keep the bad from invading us at night.
I am not in the mood
to discuss which of us needs to stay out.

Remember that movie about liberty and Texas
where they draw a line on the ground
and the loyal stand behind it?
I've already walked across,
please go?

Me:

You speak of another time and place.

I was not disloyal, but complacent of the black and white.

The wild yonder is for everyone, not just some.

Just like the shadows grow with each sundown,

my patience grows thin.

You were once so mighty.

I hear your breaths, against this obtrusive door.

A man, that once was a boy you have grown up and I have stood still.

I am curious of who this man is.

I have not met him.

Mind blocks have a way of appearing when I think of us.

Our beautiful and ugly times together.

How strange it was to hold your hand, and stroke your golden hair.

My fingertips are tingling from the old sensation now.

I grow cold and weary.

There will be nothing left of me but empty words soon.

And a locked door.

Him:

I remember one time I think it was
when we visited Paris and you
bought a hat from a vender on the Champs
that you grabbed my hand and said
nothing meant more to you than
I think you said all the little moments
that add together to be big moments
and keep compounding until they become
something real I guess all these moments
have finally become real
the rain that is covering you right now as
you stand on my porch knocking on my door
listening to my breath as I debate should I open it
and finally decide no that the best thing
for both you and I is to leave everything
the way it is now because we have it
so perfect this way so perfect with our
loneliness I think this is the only way
I want to live perfectly alone with myself
without the need to worry if you are safe
or scared or alone no I am lying I do not
want you to be alone but I do not want
you here did you know that there are
many fish in the sea I think Dr Seuss said that
or maybe not but it is almost true
one fish red fish two fish blue fish
and please note that none of those were
sad miserable fish that refuses to open the door
so please leave sad miserable fish alone
to his own grand delusions and when
your finger tips tingle can you please
I beg of you go find one of those red fish.

Me:

That hat is hidden in my closet,

just like the words in my heart were hidden. Until that fateful day.

The snow is still covering the land

and I have not yet reaped a cold harvest.

Many colored fish litter the street,

trying to find the ocean that we once were.

Rain pours all over me, better than you did.

I want to be the right end of the pencil and erase,

start over and make a genuine history.

Sadness becomes you but does not make you strong.

We are first hand witnesses to loneliness. I want to..

I want it to..

Stop.

In exchange for happiness and joy.

For a chance to experience instead of spectate.

My knuckles are bleeding and your neighbors think I'm crazy.

Think what they will, I can't let you stand there and let time pass.

Open your door.

Open your heart.

To me.

I promise to release the words and secrets behind your lips.

And the director yells, "Action."

Him:

I've been sitting here for three weeks now debating
with myself should I answer should I answer
the letter you put under my door that night
you came here I guess this reply is an answer
I am sorry you were drenched by the rain sorry
I am so damn sad all the time and I don't
answer your knocks or answer your calls it's all
too much you think our life is a movie
and I am the antagonist and you are the damsel in distress
well who is your hero going to be because I think we know
it won't ever be me we're just too far away from the center
of things to make it back inside.

Me:

I take a step forward, and you take a step back.
Always how it was.
That is how it always will be.
You're right, maybe I am looking too far into this,
I don't want to be your pity case,
or your subject of query.
I resent my hasty words; I am a woman of action and
too many times I have used my impulse on you.
You make a somber point, and now as I look back at that
moment...
I cringe.
Don't take this as my white flag.
Do not see this as my forfeit.
I just see the end of the tunnel, and the lights of
an oncoming train.
I will never forget you;
your dizzying intellect.
And your.
Red fish.

Him:

Is that it is this over is this an end
I should have expected it already
but it takes me by surprise completely
if this is goodbye then so be it
if this is regret then so be it
if this is how I will live the rest of my life like
a shell then so be it so be it so be it
so be it, so be resentment and so be pity
so be something please so be something more
than this than I than anything before
so be it.

Yeaaah, so hopefully you guys like it. :D It's been almost two years since I've even read it. I don't know why it took me so long. Also, July is almost here and I seriously want to start at a radio station. Something is holding me back; anxiety. I mean, I feel really inadequate. I know that's not me normally but it's been weird the past few weeks. I don't know what it is, but I want it gone. Also, I may have food reflux! Yay! The past few days I've been having the feeling of choking or throwing up with no upset stomach so my mom thinks it's that. At least it isn't acid reflux. Horrible! You can't eat late at night with reflux so maybe my weight will go down? Or maybe it's a sign to stop eating so much. I don't even know but I totally want to avoid any flux. Of any kind. I can't believe 2012 is almost over. We are halfway there and that's insane. I'll write more soon.

♥,

Rachel

Falling Like Dominoes.

So I came home this week.

The family reunion was good. It was a bit awkward for me, but I think it's because all of my uncles and their families weren't familiar. Anyway, I met one of my cousins for the first time. His name is James, and he was really nice. He added me on fb...it was really cool to get to know all of our family. It is so hot here. I don't know which heat I like more or can stand. T___T They are both terrible in my opinion. I forgot how far away things are here. I was staying in a small town and we traveled all the way to the Houston area. 2 hours driving. Not. Cool. I don't know how normal people commute. No fun. Anyway, how are you doing, internet? :)

It's taking me foreverrr to finish my post. Fail. So, this is the first day of school and I got home from...home safely. I'm ridiculous, but I had a lot of fun. Yesterday, church was amazing. We were all over the place. It's just awesome how God works in our lives. Also, one of my friends started coming, too! She is so faithful to church, and it makes my heart glad. Y'know? I've been getting into making onigiri and everything Japanese. I am in love with their culture. While I was down, my besties and I went to a Japanese store called Fit. It was greattt! One of the girls working there liked my satchel. C: What can I say? I just have great taste. Jkjk! I want to post some pics, but for now I'll leave you with this cute picture! 

♥,

Rachel!

PS: I'm excited because my teacher is so cute. Score! ;D 

 

UggggghhhhhhH

Oh my GOSH! FIRETRUCK! My bottom wisdom teeth are moving around. So much pain. :( 

They aren't even in, they're just moving under the surface. Causing a riot down there! UGH!!!

I'm sorry I haven't been updating. School is out and I don't know what to do with myself. Next weekend I'm going to a family reunion at home. It's going to be a weird feeling going back to a place you've left behind. 

I've been trying to dress better. :) My sister is helping me. She came to visit last week. It was mega fun. 

Why is it that I am in such pain!??! Ora-Gel does nothing. 

:(

Goodnight guys.

♥ + toothpaste,

Rachel

PS: Good stuff soonskis. Pinky promise. ♥

Watch Me Live & Thrive.

Hay cool cats!

Still not a cool intro, but whatevs. Love it or hate it!

Maybe it's because I'm insanely not busy or just stupid lazy but I haven't been blogging and I'm sorrry. I was trying to write that like a Canadian. =/ SORRY!! To make it up to you guys, here is some pictures!! 

Paul Ruddd!  ♥  I don't care if you are 41. I'd love you forevs. 

So, I've been making bows and bows and bows. I love them and I know that I am 22, but seriously! They are adore!! :3 I can cross off red lipstick on my bucket list. ;) 

What do you guys think? Some people say black women can't wear red lipstick, but I feel they can! It looks okay to me. I know that lighter skinned black women do it, and I see some odd colors, too! Like, lavender or lime green! Just because you are light skinned doesn't mean anything! I mean, I don't wear red lipstick everyday but if I was into make-up, I would have it as a staple in my lipstick collection. I haven't been wearing much of any lipwear. =/ Even my lip gloss! When I was high school, I wore it constantly! No. Joke. I've just shied away from it. I'm not trying to go for a certain look or anything...I just don't wear it. Also! I was not even going by the yearly lipgloss throw away rule! Then, one day I really looked at them and noticed that they were utterly disgusting. More than one had my hair on it. GROSSS! You can throw up now. D: Yeaaah so I totes threw them away; even the Lip Rush ones from Victoria's Secret. 

Btw, have any of you bought the PINK body sprays? Those suckers are good. I bought a mini one in Jan, and I am almost out. :S It smells reallly...normal. Fresh and rich. 8 bucks well spent. Anyways! So I have less than 5 tubes of lipgloss. I bought this Tokidoki lipgloss in Feb of last year and I refuse to let it go. It was like 15 bucks! I'm such a cheapo, but I love it. Maybe I will take a picture of it and show you. It's my least fave color and flavor. Hot pink bubblegum and it's very gloopy and sticky. I only use it for special occasions. ;) Last weekend my brother and his fiance came up here to visit my mom! :) It was really fun, and they also visited my church!!! Sunday's service was such an amazing...thing. I don't even know how to describe it! All I can say is that it was wonderful. My mom was really happy. :)  THIS WEEK IS FINALS AND I CAN'T WAIT TO BE OUT OF SCHOOL FOR A COUP WEEKS, DUDESSSS!!!! 

I only have 3 finals and two of them are tomorrow/today. So good. My music final is 200 questions. O_____O Out of ctrl. Why?! I realllly hope that he doesn't mess them up. I recently turned in a song review and got a high C. I was thinking I would fail, but yeah! And I got an A on my CD review!! S c o r e. I don't even have the textbook.

Now, this chem test is diff. It's going to be a struggle. This will be my last science class. Ever!

I signed up for summer and fall; things are looking good. Everything has fallen into place and I have God to thank for that. I have been on Youtube watching people vlog and I so want to do that. I think I am sort of interesting! Maybe I can put up a poll and leave it to you guys to decide. I've never done anything like this and it should be funskis! I don't know if I could do it daily like some of the people I watch. :S They make a living out of it. Legit. I'm just looking to have fun. Shocking news tonight; the leadsinger of Against Me is becoming a woman?! INSANE! He is not even gay; just thinks he was born in the wrong body. Like, wow. I was shocked. Left. Field! I'll link the newsstory. :O This world is in trouble.

I am not a hxc fan, but I do like some stuff from them! My friend stopped in the middle of the road! She reallly listens to them. Shocker!! 2012!

I just think of his wife and child. You know? How is it going to affect his kid in her life? What do you say to your friends and classmates? 

Kind of sad.

...

Enough of that! Summer is here and today and yesterday it rained! It feels so good. I love the grey skies! 

On Memorial Day, I'm going home for a family reunion and I think it will be really great. My sister & I will carpool down and I want to stay for a couple days. I just want to see everyone and just relax. I mean, compared to a lot of people in school, I have had an easy semester but it only slowed down after dropping that phys class.

I am fine, I am fine, I just need 100 dollars!

Tomorrow is going to be awesome.

♥,

Rachel!

PS: 

11. to wear red lipstick

12. write/perform a song for a dozen people

13. to have several different hairstyles

14. to grow in God

15. deep sea dive

16. to walk the streets of New York

17. be in a big musical

 Teehe! 

I also think that charlieissocoolike is super cute. His English accent doesn't help the cause.  He is pictured above with his hair pulled sooo far back. Also! I tried to put floral fabric on my oxfords! Please excuse my nappy as ever hair! Don't you just love my scowl in the gif? 10/10.

Big Oppertunity! :D

Hellooo out there!

It's been a while so I guilted myself into updating! It's weird with me, I dread starting to write but when I do start an entry, I can't stop. I have to cut myself off and end it. Not. Ramble! I do that a lot. This is ridiculous, but I am back! DUDE IT'S MAY ALREADY!! Goodness! I am up to no good as usual but really! Exciting things happening! I took those app tests and I prayed about this career thing. I had a dream a week and a  half ago about this lady who works at the college showing me info on the communications and music and said that I could really do both! Then I woke up. Haha, so I took that as a sign to do something in one of those two areas. I picked communications! 

I'm going to be a radio DJ!  Yay! :) So, yesterday, I went to get advised and really see what classes I needed and didn't need and all the classes for summer and fall lined up so good. Honestly, I prayed in the car on the way that all of my classes I've done line up with my new degree because I don't want to go backwards or anything. =/ I'm done with taking kiddy classes! When we looked at my transcript, the lady was actually impressed. That's really new for me because when I go get advised for nursing, the advisor is always like, "Oooh, okay do you want to maybe take this? I don't see you applying for the program right now...maybe wait a semester?" 

Dumb! I'm not ignorant, I'm just struggling, k? I'm happy that she was impressed by my grades. I've been so down about the whole thing and I have felt really really small. So, I am majoring in communications and I'm minoring in...music! I thought that was crazy because I dreamed that about both. Every class I want was open and fell into place. All God. I know this is where I should be. I know it will be hard work, but I think with me enjoying the work, it won't be so stressful. So, I still need to put up pictures of my bows I've made and my new "floral" oxfords. Dudes, those floral patches are already fraying. -___- Gosh. My friend is graduating and I am moving on. Oh, and I bought this:

 A red wig! I know that I am black and normally black people can't have natural red hair! I knowwww, but I don't care. I love it. At first, I thought it was a regret purchase, but now that I'm wearing it and stuff. I really like it. I love the color, and I feel like Ariel in this! 2012 Ariel! Heheheee, I think I can scratch off one of my things on the bucket list. Ooh! I also bought some red lipstick but I can't find it! It's lost! =/ I sincerely think I threw it away by accident or my mom did. I pretty sure she doesn't like that I had it. Oh well. Old. Enough. Not a kid anymore. Hmmm, so it's so weird having long hair. It actually frames my face as you can see in the picture. Ha! I'm anxious to put it on Facebook because I will get flack for it. I totes will. One more thing about my major, since I'm going to be volunteering at a radio station this summer, the lady told me about this class that is also an internship! I thought that was so rad!! I def want to do that! Inside of my rad hair the cap has lace. Those Chinese are so cute. :3 

Still making those mixtapes! I can make one tonight, but no one has said anything about them? Are they that lame? =( 

Let's see...this Memorial Day I'm going down to where I used to live for a family reunion! It's been a lonnng time since I've been down and all of my siblings, aunt, and uncles, etc will be there. Dad asked if Leah & I would sing...that will be a piece of cake. He booked us a hotel room suite! Crazy! Here's to living it up for two daize! Going to make a gif, I'll see you on the flip side!

♥,

Rachel!

Mums The Word!

Heeeeey!

So, tomorrow I was going to go to Abilene to go thrifting! Well, my mom got sick at work today and so...she is resting.

She is going to be a trooper and go work tomorrow. She asked me if she gets sick to pick her up from work. Which means...

No Abilene. =/ This isn't a grumpy post! I guess it wasn't in the stars!

Psh, anyways. My screen bled right where I'm typing so I don't know if I have a spelling mistake! Whoops! So, tonight, I will be doing my third mixtape! I hope you guys are liking them? Are you? Let me know in the comments! :) Maybe I can change it or do something rad. So, tomorrow with the Ab trip canned, I'll probably just roam around SA and study it up for my test tomorrow. I guess me not going is for the best because I'm all over here acting like I don't have a math test tomorrow! Bam! Currently, I've been deleting songs from my iTunes. I just was thinking...if I skip the song everytime it comes on my iPod...why have it? So, I've been just deleting a lot of music. Almost whole albums. Feels good. I think also my taste is maturing. I never thought I would grow up musically! It happens to the best of us, I guess. 

Seriously, if I could get a job in making mixtapes for the world, I would do just that. Also, I was thinking...is there a job called music researcher? For instance, if there a pop culture show and they needed the information on the subject. Who does that? I think I'll Google it. =/ That would be an awesome job! I love reading up on music/pop culture history! 

Hmmm. I made two polka-dot bows right before church and I secured my Peter Pan collar! I love itttt!! :D Giddy with excite over here! Playlist time!

OMG, MOVING PICS! THIS IS SOOOO AWESOME!!! 

This will be changing everything.

♥,

Rachel!

Can You Get Me On Your Mind?

Hey guys! :) 

It's been 13 days since I posted and I am in dire need of writing to you tonight. Really form my thoughts in a creative way and give them to you. So! The last few weeks have been going by so fast. I mean, the speed of light, I feel. I just want everything to s l o w  d o w n. I still haven't found a major that I would like to study...but! On Friday, I did take two personality/career tests at school. I think this will help me and I want to share my results. First of all, with my personality, I have the code ENFP mainly which is a person who is warm, enthusiastic and imaginative. They make connections between events and info very quickly; readily gives appreciation to people and  is spontaneous and flexible. So, what is weird is I tested that but the first two letters were close to the middle. So, if I tested on Thursday, it could've been a whole different code (i.e. ISFP, INFP, and ESFP). I read those descriptions and seriously guys...all four of those sound like me. I went with ENFP. So, for job categories that would suit my personality this is how it ranks [only doing a top ten because of how much data there is]:

Personal Care and Service 

Art, Design, Media, etc. 

Community and Social Services

Food Prep [?]

Education, Library Sciences, and Training

Sales and Advertising

Health Care Practitioner and Technical Occupations

Health Care Support

Farming, Fishing, and Forestry

Office Administrative Support

Some of these made sense but farming and sales did not. At all! I would never be a farmer! Listening to country music on my John Deer tractor. No. Not ever. Also, education. I don't like kids and I'm way awkward with them. Seriously bad with them, and I would hate being a teacher. I know this is just options for what I could do, but still. No. Sales! I got let go from a sales job! Noooooo, no. Anyway, I wasn't surprised to see two categories of health care on my top ten. I knew I wasn't  just randomly picking a major when I did nursing. You guys...you don't even know how much I sat down and thought if nursing was for me. If I could jump from basic classes to the clinic setting I'd do it in a heartbeat. Skip all the messy, lame science/math classes associated with nursing and the program itself and just graduate. Of course that would be impossible. =/ 

I digress...

So, wasn't surprised to see media, and art. Now, for number one to be personal care was weird. Like, I'm most like a child care provider??

Kids.

So, this is my list of jobs that would I most likely enjoy:

craft artist

actor/perfoming artist/dancer

photographer

forester

musician/singer

clinical/counseling/psychologist

mental health counselor

fitness trainer

bartender

artist/visual artist

This wasn't as bad. I could see myself doing some of these jobs. Forester...no. Musician? Yes, def! So, this does give me a lot to think about. I feel good that it's going to steer in the right direction. I know God is with me and with Him all things are possible! :D 

With the other test, it was purely personality and what I would good at compared to other women in the US. Okay, my theme for this one was CAR.

Conventional = likes order and systems of organization

Artistic = self expression and all that jazz

Realistic = more into data and computers

With my theme of CAR in mind, compared to all the women, here is my top five interest categories:

office management

healthcare services

religion and spirituality

management

writing and mass communication

I was shocked that management was even on there. I never pictured myself telling people what to do. I don't like being told what to do in work setting, so to see it twice on my list is crazy. Seriously. 

It breaks it down further in each of those categories, but it's pretty much the same. 

Here is my top ten jobs according to THIS test:

food service manager

bookkeeper

farmer/rancher

paralegal

retail sales rep

nursing home admin

housekeeping/maintenance manager

licensed practical nurse

production worker

admin assistant 

So, farmer is on there AGAIN!

What. In. The. World!! Not even into agriculture. Weirdos. Let's see, so legal work. Lawyer came up on my lists. Another job I've never considered. My counselor said that it would be like this. Some jobs are so left field and you would never consider it. Since it is a test, it's not definite. I know when I took it I chose answers based on intuition. I didn't give myself time to think about it. I'm glad that I took those tests. It really gave me a new perspective. Most of the art stuff I knew I would score high on. I am really into creating and making new things. Also, music. I love it. Obvious. I just worry that my love for all of these things won't support me. I want to be happy financially, too. I know the Lord is looking over my shoulder as I write this. I know He is here in SA. With me. I just need to do a leap of faith. :)

So, besides all of that I know this summer I will be doing volunteer work. So far, I know I want to work at a radio station and see if I like it. I don't know what else I would do...what I want to do is look at my results and form a list of majors I could do. I also have to keep in mind what my school has. Like, I want to be a costume designer...ASU doesn't even have a fashion department. =///

I def don't want to transfer so I will be working with what I have here in good ole SA!

I feel so serious! This was such a sciencey, lifey entry. Oooh! Ease on up. 

I bought a glue gun and I have been making my own hair bows! Since my sewing machine is broken, I figured out how to make cute stuff with glue! On Saturday I made bows and I finally made my oxfords into floral oxfords! Yay! Pictures soon! Also, good news about my hair! It's always been sooo short and if I try to put it up, it takes like one bobbypin. So! I wanted to put a bow in the back of my head with my hair up! Couldn't do it with one clip! So happy! It's growing! Right now, it's at the nape of my neck. :) Tee hehe!

God is so good. We've been having awesome services too and I am promising myself to buckle down and really give it my all. I don't want to play church anymore. Or start. Ever.

I hope you are enjoying the week. It's already the middle of it! Too fast, 2012!

♥ in waves,

Rachel!

PS: You can totally Google those personality types if you have no clue what I'm talking about.