Rolling In The Heap.

"Whatever makes you happy." - Creep by Radiohead.

Hey guys! So, eventful weekend. Thursday, Annie broke down and she's still not in repair. By Monday, I should know what is wrong with her. Miss her already.



I went to walk here tonight. I just felt like walking around the campus. It's calm at night and I'm not scared anymore. :)

Now, since I'm so materialistic, a wish list!



Can you tell I want some brogues? :D








This is a very very beautiful dress. It's sold out [of course.], but I still really think it's gorgeous. I don't even know where I would wear that.








I love this dress for some reason. I waiting for it to go on sale so I can snatch it up. My size better be there! It looks like it would be soft and simple to pair up with accessories. YES!



I vant your skuuulls. Kind of young for me, but I ain't even mad. I like it anyway.















Heck yes, there it is. And here is a great Jimmy Eat World song:




♥,
Rachel

#50: I want to fall in love tonight.

There's No Surf In Colorado, Anyway.

I got some of my stuff today! Yay! :)

1. Fences EP. 2 entries back, I had said that I really got into his [Chris Manfield's] music. A lot. It's really pretty. So, I finally got his CD. Straight onto iTunes! I can't wait to listen to that. I feel like I need some studio headphones to really listen to all the different instruments on it. Not like it's ridiculously layered, but you know. I'm excited.

2. I bought an adapter for my sd card!! Too long! It was a penny on Amazon!
Fail!!

3. The newest volume of Black Bird! I've been wanting to continue!! The seller was very patient with me. My first copy got lost in the mail and he sent me another one. So niceeee. ♥ I am grateful he did. Lovin' this book right now.

Today was a good day to quote Ice Cube. I slept some. In about 5 hours, I am going to eat breakfast with a lady from my church here. :)

Here's a Fences vid.




bye!

♥,
Rachel

#49: It's going, it's going, I'm gone.

Festivus.

Best. Night. Ever. Details soonish. ♥

-Rachel

*Edit*

So, this entry was never posted. Fail. .___.

I went down last weekend, and I have to say...I enjoyed every bit of it! As you can tell by the older post, I have a lot to explain. Last month, my friend told me that Michael Cera was going to be at the Annual KTHRU Festival at Rice University.

Michael Cera.

Michael.

Michael---

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!!!!!!

I could not pass that up, no way no how. I just...no. He is my ultimate crush, favorite actor, and everything that I think is cute. I had my friend come with me because she was almost as pumped about it as I was. Was not going to leave her out of this! EEEE! Just thinking about it makes me giddy. :333 It was on Saturday, so after driving 3.5 hours I drove some more. The things girls do for love, right? No, no. We go up to Houston, meet up with everyone at this coffee place called Brasil. Very nice. It was just good to see everyone and stuff; I missed them. Really, and it felt to good to see their faces and laugh uncontrollably again. Did I mention that the festival was free?! Yeah, Michael for free; doesn't get better than that. We drive over to Rice and park. I've never been to the university before; it's really big and pretty. Kind of hidden away from everything. Also, each house/dorm has its own mascot. Hogwarts. That's what it is. I would love to go there, but that school has a reputation for accepting mostly out of staters and international students. I like ASU, too. I am happy here. So, this is a legit festival. A stage outside on the lawn and one inside of the building. I've never been to one, so I was pretty stoked! :D I brought a towel, water, and sunnies. Ready for anything. 2 of the bands I actually liked. One of them, The Ton Tons were really good. They are from Houston, and they sound like soulful rock. Check them outskis. :) I bought their EP.

Rad. You know that where there is a festival; there are hippies. Hula-hooping hippies. Maaaan, and other questionable substances. But, I ain't even mad; was not there for that.

After I saw The Ton Tons play, my friend saw Michael go up the stairs! We were all freaking out and waited for him to come down. Never. Did. It was crazy seeing him in real life. That's anyone who I admire. I mean, he is so awesome and to see him, and be in the same room as him. AHHHH! :D After that brief glimpse, we didn't see him until he walked across the room to go outside and see some bands. I spotted him outside and I froze. My friend was so brave; she walked straight up to him and asked for an autograph. I followed her, I was thinking, "I'm not going to sit by and let this opportunity pass. I have to talk to him!" So, we both approached him and he is so nice in real life. :) I said hello, and he said hello. I told him his coat was regal and he said he had just got back from Toronto. [Where he's from.] I can not tell you how happy I was meeting him. One of my dreams is to meet him. Oh man, so a crowd was gathering so he went back upstairs. :( My group enjoyed the rest of the fest. The reason Michael was at the fest was because he was playing bass for Mister Heavenly. So, I watched their performance later that day, and they are really good. Garage rock at its finest. I totally like it, and Michael playing bass was just an extra incentive. ;) Tell you what, he is a way better bassist than me. I need practice. T___T He revealed that to me. After they finished their set, people started rushing the stage to get a picture with Michael. Including moi. He hid underneath because he could not make a getaway. My friend got to go underneath and hugged him. HUGGED HIM.

HUGGED---I WISH I WAS SMALL ENOUGH TO GET UNDER THE STAAAGE.

He remember her from earlier; he didn't give an autograph or picture; but still. I want a hug. D: This girl got him to sign her poster because she cried. Lame. I wouldn't go that far to do that. That's over the top. So, we immediately left after that, got lost in Rice for almost an hour. We basically made a big circle and came back to the concert. Hahaha, fail. We finally made it to my Anna Banana, and were so relieved. I have concert blisters on my feet. Ugh. So worth it, would never trade this for the world. I am still in shock that I even met him.

♥♥♥

Now for the pics and clips of the shows!

The lead singer of Mister Heavenly. Cute & talented.

The keyboardist for Mister Heavenly.

:)

The drummer from Mister Heavenly.

The lead singer of The Tons Tons. She was nice. :)

Concentrating? Hmm.

Hyyybrid Moments. Their closer. I couldn't have chosen a better one! ♥

This song was cute. They dedicated it to Buddy Holly. ♥

I had the best time, and it's all thanks to my friend telling me. If she had not, I would have never came down and experienced the joy of my life. I won't get over this for a looooong time. Wow. :)

This is what I want as a constant staple in my wardrobe:

+

and this

all day. All summer.

♥,

Rachel!

#48: You see right through me.

I Wear Plugs And Pimp Out Pugs.

Hey there! :)

So, I've been really into this guy:

It's really getting old, kid.

Fences.
He has a very good sound to him and his lyrics are very dark. I like it, I like it. It's been a nice weekend, and Monday was rough. Well, not really. Just phys class tonight. -sigh- Y'know, college. Browsing through some fashion plus-size blogs like a boss tonight. Lovin' it. I was talking with my friend about face care, and I'm going to post what I use on my skin. I get compliments on my face, but I don't know what they're seeing! Got a whitehead. Disgusting, but I'm taking care of that.

1.

Moisterizer, because I have dry skin. In the winter, it gets bad, but this stuff is cheap (3 dollars at Wal-Mart), and works really good!

2.

This mask really gets dirt out of your pores. I can't say I use it everyday but occasionally.

3.

Dove or whatever body wash I'm using at the moment. Dove is gentle on your body in general, so if you break out from b-washes a lot, I recommend getting this kind. Plus it smells really nice! :)

4.

Water. H2O. Just using water on your face helps. You should use more than that, but water does feel good. :3

I've been feeling like this lately:

Life is so encompassing and ridiculous. I can not keep up or find a steady pace. I hate it. :( But you know what? God is bigger than this tree metaphor and bigger than my life. He holds it all, and I am so happy that He does. It just feels like too much for me, but I have to keep pressing on. Towards my goal. Towards life. Look at the guy in the picture derping. Ha-haaa!

Last week, I finally got my iPod back from the company who was supposed to fix it. 2 months they had it. Mad. And about 2 days after I got it back, it was broken again. M-A-D!!! How dare they charge me 45 dollars and keep my iPod forever and not fix it! Complained and called. No. Body. Answered. -big sigh- Tonight, I tried fixing it and ending up making the screen bleed. Now I have two black spots on it, a broken headphone jack, and out of 45 dollars. ARRRRRRGHHHH! People these days! No respect.



^ That. Anyway, searching for an affordable iPod. Used, baby!
blink is coming out with a new album as well. Just...!!! YES! YESSSS!
In line for that; it's been too long. 7 years in fact. I was in 9th grade when they came out with an album that wasn't a greatest hits. :D :D :D

bye, dear.

♥,
Rachel

#47: After all, it's just me, the king, and the beast.

Watch You...On The 1's & 2's.

In a well-lit room.

Heeeey!

So, I joined Looklet.

[Velma with her Scooby snacks, ready for a mystery, y'all!]

I'm not sure if I'll like it or not. Time will tell! That was fun making outfits, but I dunno. This week kicked my butt. I am so tired.

♥,
Rachel!

#46: I lie well.

The Great Falling Away.

He-he-heyyy guys! :)

2 posts back to back! Wow! So, today was lazy. Woke up at 3 pm and got immediately on the computer. Duuude, yes. I still need to study for my phys exam Monday. =/ Ha! I tagged 'music challenge' last night and did not do it. Fail. Tonight I will, for sure. I totally thought I'd see famous people in Austin last week, because I watched a video of Jack White's new label and he just showed up in Austin and played in a parking lot. I wish I was there! It's so expensive. D': Maybe if I save up the entire year and in 2012, I can go. Probs.

a.)

b.)

c.)

A: I got new shoes! They are cute yellow sandal types. I thought they were tres cute. :3 Target 20 bucks!! I wore them with my fushia tights downtown. I got a compliment. The lady was nice.

B: My lovely, crazy, friend bought me this when she visited San Antonio! It's a Dia de los Muertos figurine. A diva with a glittery dress. She immediately thought of me when she saw that. Also, her husband saw a dead band in a case and thought of me. :) So sweet of them! I've been to San Antonio just once and once driving through it. She tells me it's beautiful.

C: a mucky picture of Austin downtown. There was so much going on! There was a live band with a tuba and baritone doing it up in the middle of the street! Also, a rap video was being filmed? Yeah, I actually was in front of them unawares. Crazy. Music everywhere and it made me want Austin more. If that's possible. ;D

Ok, music challenge, sucka.

Day 5. A song that reminds you of someone.

This could be any song. I have a lot of memories tied to songs. Why does this always have to be hard!?!? Jk. "Surf Wax America" by Weezer. I first met my friend from San Angelo, we sung Weezer one Sunday afternoon. That was when I crowned her the coolest Apostolic woman I've ever met.

I loved this song/album way before I met her but this just affirms it. Ahhh, memories.

Toodles!

Rachel

#45: Something haunts my dreams, don't know what it means.

Talking To Myself Because I Can't Forget.

Wow, I totally posted this prematurely. Anyway! I'm back! I love you and I'm ready to spill my guts all over your floors. [Brains.] The White Stripes broke up!!! D: Whyskis!?! They are a very good band, and I thought they had more to give the world. I guess not. If you don't know who the White Stripes are, I recommend going to Youtube and watching the following titles: "Fell In Love With A Girl", "White Orchid", "I"m Finding It Harder To Be A Gentleman", "Rag & Bone" & "Now Mary". Those are just a few of my favorites. :)

So, the pastor's wife took me to get my hair fixed yesterday. I wasn't too keen on it at first but I guess it looks good! I came back to school and everyone as complimenting me. So, I believe them; I still have to warm up to it, though. She paid for it and everything and said it was God telling her to do it. Also the stuff I need at home to keep my hair up! I def want to try to keep it nice and also it makes a lot of questions pop up in my mind about staying in San Angelo. I don't know if I'm supposed to. Time is passing by fast, and I don't have a place to live after this semester is over. No summer school this year. Thank God. I need a much needed break. So, Spring Break. A week ago was so awesome. I loved it. The first half, I went to Austin to pick up my sister to bring her back to SA. I showed her around my school, the town, and the church. I missed her. My roomie was being ultra nice to her! Oh maaaan, she let her use her bed. Kind of awk, but whatevs! On Thursday, we traded and went to Austin to UT and went around the city. I love it. SXSW was going on, but I couldn't make it to a full show but I did overhear a band covering "Are You Gonna Be My Girl?". Impressive. Two of my sister's friends came along as well and we stayed in a sketch motel because all of hotels in the whole city was booked solid. The hotel was...bad. Peeling wallpaper, curious neighbors, and bad, broken boards under the dirty carpet. Slept in that for two days. Went to Pfluegerville to pick up my friend and head back to SA. A very good good week. I saw a Che Guevara:

look-a-like in Cici's! We went to a thrift store; ok, I always read fashion blogs where people get jewels thrifting. The stuff they buy is very pretty. I NEVER see that stuff where I go. All duds. But not this time, we went to this family thrift store and Ifound Vans!! VANS! Black & in my size! $5.45! :D :D :D

I snatched those shoes up so fast. Also, Freaky Friday's [Lindsay Lohan's version] soundtrack. Diamonds in the rough! In utter unbelief. I see the light now. I am addicted to plus size fashion. I lurve it. I do! I can't say my blog is all fashion; I do talk about other stuff. That's what bothered me yesterday at the salon was that both the hairdresser and the lady were thinking I should eat better and exercise, which is not a bad idea. I'm not the fittest, but they talked like I felt like the lowest human being on Earth. I had no self-esteem or confidence in myself. Which is not true. I DO feel good sometimes and I've seen skinnier girls who don't have no self-respect for their bodies. They give the vibe of 'I hate my body and no one should look at me.' Or the other extreme: 'I need all of your attention, because I hate being alone with myself.' I've seen it. No lie. I wish they had seen me last summer. I was bigger. Five weeks of school left. I can't believe how fast it's gone. I knew I'd fit in after while. Just give me time and I'll find my friends on my time. :)

♥,
Rachel

#44: Pretty things are cute things.

Tweet, Twirp.

I got my hood up and I'm ready for anything.

I just finished a portion of my Phys quiz. Well, actually it was homework, but that looks pretty rad. Browsing as usual on this late night. I've had a busy short week. I can't believe it's Friday. Crazy. Crayzee. It's weird, but what I don't like about the computer lab at night is it scares me! I don't know what that's about. I'm mad; Avril is such a SELLOUTZ! Just kidding, she never sold in. Uhm, her new song is out and I'm var disappoint. Kinda sounds like everything else out? "LUK @ AT meIZ, i'M GONNA parteee untiL i kant NEmorezxzzz!!!!1111!!"

Go away party music.

Save it for...let's say, parties? Hmm!

Spring Break has arrived and I couldn't be more happier! So excite!!! Austin today. San Angelo tomorrow. I'm in the quiet room and there was one other guy here. We were both giggling. It was perty adorable, except he gasped with laughter. Hmmm, no sir.

♥,
Rachel

#43: So be...very kind. Don't let the world fall on your shoulders.

Holding Out For The Big Connection.

I missed that. ^

In the computer lab, and there are these two guys who are on the computers in front of me. They are d-bags at best. Wow, it's amazing how people are so senseless. My prayer life feels like it's increasing. I'm so excited. I'm ready for what's next. I really miss my iPod. I sent it off to get fixed and it's been almost three weeks. I took it for granted. Now, I just want it back...fixed. DX

MCS; the lab I'm in...open 24/7. I. Have. Wasted. So. Much. Energy. It's a minute from my dorm. Well, now I know where to go. Printed out my lab so I can sleep in beforehand. Ha! Tomorrow[today] is my math exam.
:(

♥,
Rachel

#42: I dare you.

I'm A Half Life.

So, I washed clothes tonight. This morning, what have you. Saw one of my friends I made here. I actually was praying for him. We always seem to miss each other. I'm glad we got to talk. This week is going to rock because it's the week before SB! Get pumped! Get excited! So, as I was doing clothes, I met this guy named Ryan. He's very laid back Korean boy. By boy I mean 18. Freshman, but that's ok. He was nice. Shooted the breeze? Kicked the can? Whatever the colloquialism is for talking. It was cool; I like those occasions where there isn't a forced environment but it's natural and people don't have to be extra uninterested. I know I'll be here more. :) Count on that.

i just want back into your head.


#41: I'm really getting old. Old and over you.

A Story, Not Much.

Ethereal. That's what you said to me. How my eyes look with sadness in them and my mask on tight. Life is like an upbeat song until you fall off the top 40 horse. I can't stand this gallop; slow it down. I am mid height, brown hair, brown eyes, red lips, and a weird smile. I get itchy fast and I can't stand when I get caught up in a boy. In you, boy. I wear clothes that don't quite feel like mine. Maybe someone else. I'm not quite sure but I stand firm in our kiss. Our soft, promising kiss. You had to leave anyway. That kiss wasn't going to make you stay. Make you promise to take my hand in marriage. No. No...I want to make you stay and have picnics in the forest and whisper about our futures. We can't now. The train arrives and my hand that is warmed in yours falls dead and limp by my side as you take steps backward. And now you turn fully around to leave. I run after you, grab the tip of your coat, and reach for your face and give you a smoldering kiss. It's quick, it's sincere, and it stops you in your tracks. That destination can wait; I want us. You want us. That should be enough. No, that doesn't happen. That never happened. I am left. Left to tend to myself.

I just felt the need to write tonight. I bought the new Eisley CD and started writing. I felt like it was needed. I am so happy to see the weekend. It's been a long week and then after next week, SPRING BREEEAK! Yay!! I Googled how to be approachable. Can you tell I'm lonely?

bye for now!

♥,
Rachel

#40: You would take the cherished people that I know.

Sinto-me cansado, como se eu não posso ir.

I feel like I just can't do it today. My brain is gong 100 mph, but my body is going....5? I just want to curl up and sleep for a long, long, long time. I hate this feeling. I had lab, and all I did was just sit there and stare at my assignment. All of my lab partners were gone so I joined another group. Three guys and me. Nothing got done. =/ Ughhh, and another class is up. This is not my space of venting, I just want to write something about it. I have a small crush. I'm scared of it, though. A lot of things come into consideration, because I actually want this to work. Maybe I should Google how to talk to guys in that way. I am 14. Bye guys.

♥,
Rachel.

#39: Friends sing together, la-la-la-la!